First of many to come
Well hears what happenend today.

Today i went to the mall and hung-out with Rebecca I loved it so much. After the mall we came back over to my house kicked back whatched some T.V., then ate dinner in my room, we had tacos. These tears cannot lie i love this girl with all my heart threw darkness of sky threw lighting of moon she is the one that my fire burns for. So after eating dinner Rebecca left at 7:30 pm to go home which i kinda didn't like but i could understand why she would want to be home. But before she left, her and i had a very nice conversation between the two of use i love having thoughs kinda conversation with people. It scares me that i burned down that bidge of trust that i built up to her and i hope to someday that i will be able to rebuild it. After that i went out looking for a father's day card cause ya sunday is fathers day and found one. Then i came home to find out that Rebecca had call the house when i was out and when i found this out i was very happy to hear it. I basically ran to the other side of the house to get my phone. I talk with her on and off from 8:00 pm, too about 12:38 pm i love talking to her. I really hope that one day Rebecca and i will be together again because my love will never leave her, its strange you really don't know what you had until you lost it, and you really don't know how much it meant to you. I wonder everyday if it was the right thing to do to well call a break and all with her and each and everyday i come up with the same answer, no it was not the best thing i could do. When i first found out that Rebecca liked Andrew i cried that hole night away, but then i started to think about why should she not be happy, then it comes to know when i think i should completly back off and well just let things happen between them but i'm affraid that i will lose her, i'm affriad that they might have sex and all, that is one of the thing that i hold high is that her and i are each others firsts and onlys, and i would wish to keep it that way because i want to marry her. I know this right now. If i had the money too i would go out and buy the biggest ring i could and drop down on one knee and the fanciest resturant in front of at least 100 people and ask for her i she would be my wife. If i could i would. But i don't know what she would say to that and all. I just wonder sometimes. I wonder about everything that the future could hold. Theres one thing i know for sure is that Rebecca is in my future no matter what happens, because i believe in true loved, and soul mates. G+R=Forever. I miss her some much. I miss being able to call her "baby", i miss giving her long hugs, i miss just laying there with her talking about the future and all, but that doesn't seem to happen much anymore. Right now we talk about everything that happens in the day instead of what the future could hold. Well so here it is i love her and nothing will ever change that, i believe that she is my true soul mate, i wish, i wish i could be with her.

Tears of a friend,
Garrett M. Gifford