December Archive

Monday, February 25, 2002

1.31.2002

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At 11:23:49 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Ev'ry dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins

Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation
Lives to testify

Chorus:
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
When words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live I will testify to love

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the seas
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace

Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will
Speak what love has done
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At 10:54:05 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Eric wants to write for the WB.

[Random Indian Singing Actor] stars in....Rahul!

I turned up Pat Benetar so I wouldn't have to listen to Eric. I should put a little mood
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      At 5:49:54 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Speaking of.........I was visitor 420 on my own page.
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      At 11:57:29 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

i've made a very important decision. I want to take a vacation in Trinidad. Why Trinidad? Uh, got me - just good reccommendations :)
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      At 9:16:03 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Ugh, I feel as if I've been through the wringer. I'm hungry, whiny, and have another day of html ahead of me as i attempt to archive my logs. i feel hung over, but i havent drank anything in a long time.

ugh is right.
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At 12:33:31 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Hey look...sorry its green...very few good things out of worlds - this one is from New Years Eve...

night!
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At 12:26:42 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

The Onion | Infographic

By the way, this is good. If you don't read the onion, and can't get it for yourself, then I'm sorry, you shouldnt be reading my page :)
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At 12:19:20 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Thanks, Rahul (and Andrea), for helping me set on an academic plan!

So, semis of Georgetown, Rahul and Andrea ran a case about a black preacher against me and Jenny. I found it amusing, as I have very few 'debate specialties' but racially tinged issues are one of them. So, the question of who could do more good, a preacher as a preacher and local organizer, or as a national figure, it was an easy question for me and Jenny.

So I was looking for classes for this semester. I need one 460 level comparative politics class, poli 400 or 300, a 410 level political philosophy class, Poli 260, and poli 100 to graduate. Plus a gym. But I still have three semesters, and I hadn't been feeling inspired by any of the political science choices this semester. So I decided to bite the bullet, and really put my money where my mouth is. My greatest treatment for depression this year is picking up a minor in Africana Studies.

Here is my class schedule for the semester--

Mondays - 4:30 - 7:00 AFST 385 - Problem Solving in the Urban Black Community

Urban problems within the Black community. Nature and types of problems, causes (internal and external), effects and remedies. This semester's topic is on Environmental Racism.
I like this class, and Don Murray (the prof) is a good buy who lives off of Branch Ave and does a lot of community organizing on the other side of the Anacostia from me. Looks good.

AFST 354 - African American History Since 1865 - Subtitled "The Urbanization of Black Americans"
TuTh 10-11:15
An in-depth examination of the political, social, economic and cultural history of African Americans in the United States from the Reconstruction era following the Civil War up to present. Topics include African Americans and the military, the Great Depression,
migrations, urbanization, racism, family, civil rights and current issues.
Dr. Mack-Shelton is teaching this, and I have heard absolutely nothing but good things about her. Even at 10am she was excited. And as she was explaining her strict attendance policy, I even thought I might be able to stick to it.

Afst 440 - The History of the Caribbean: Politics of Resistance
TuTh 11:30-12:45
Exploration of 16th and 17th century beginnings of Caribbean throught, pro-and anti-slavery ideologies, the growth of nationalist and anti-colonialist sentiment during the 19th century, the development of secret religious cults, and the emergence of resistance movements emanating from attempts to deal with the oppression experienced by the indigenous Caribbean peoples.
Jenny Rouse is from Trinidad, and is finishing her doctorate - she constantly smiles, is really nice, and really understanding of my 'financial difficulties' with registering. I hopefully won't pull a chris with enrollment, but this seminar should be absolutely wonderful.

AFST 450 Black Philosophical Thought in the 20th Century
TuTh 1-2:15
The complexity of the ideas of major Black thinkers A. Locke, H. Thurman and W.E.B. DuBois as they dealt with philosophical theory and criticism. An analysis and discussion of that body of knowledge that deals with metaphysical and material approaches to thought.
This course description is downright wrong. We're studying African American Female Philosophers, and Dr Lynch is the most unconventional teacher I've ever had. I wasn't going to say that, until he informed the 3 males in the 12 person seminar that they were not allowed to speak in class for the whole year - or they could go out and find a new class. He hasn't set the syllabus yet, and we just sat around and talked about the benefits of an all-female voiced-class this afternoon. let me know what you guys think - aside from the fact that that violates several court decisons, kind of

AFST 100-Honors - Introduction to the Black Experience
TuTh 2:30-3:45
Understanding the Black experience in the African diaspora. A survey of historical
and socio-cultural ties that link people of African descent worldwide. African roots in world civilizations are discussed. This course is an introductory course for majors and non-majors.
This class has only 4 kids in it, including me, three white, two male, and Dr Lynch again. As we sat around and talked (again, no syllabus, seemingly no plan) I observed the two white males (one with silly opions and an arrogant air) dominated the conversation. Maybe because they were honors kids, maybe because they were white males, it was true, they do need to learn how to listen. and let a smart girl get a word in edgewise :) I'll teach them lots by the end of the year....I haven't taken a 100 level course since my first semester, so i feel old in this class - good. This class also lasted 25 minute over where it was supposed to, so i was real late to my next class. I think that will continue to happen.

POLI 469 Selected Topics in Comparative Politics: Transition to Democracy
TuTh 4-5:15

This course will explore the experiences of a number of countries that have moved from authoritatian, autocratics forms of government to democratics one. The course will examine the cases of Germany, Russia, countries of the former Soviet Union, as well as several from Latin America. Topics to be discussed include: the dismantling of old regimes, the formation of new elites and political organizations, the emergence of new political cultures, the nature of the democratic debates, and the consolidation of democracies in those societies.
I came in late to this class, the professor does not speak good english, and seemed to be a professor to turn me off. But since I've been dating Eric, his tastes rub off on me, and sides, democratization is interesting. He promises to write my take-home final on East Europe :) Moreso, its a nice capstone to my comparative politics subfiels which includes the Balkans, Latin America, and now this. Neat, huh?

Well, that's a good introduction to my week. See why i'm so tired? Nothing tomorrow though :)

But for now - some rest. night!

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At 11:25:54 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Ok, let me try this one again.

I was having an ok day, but this is what my days are like. I change like a goddamned ligtning rod. That's why this blogger thing is perfect for me. Its easy to post on, in short little mood-size blocks.

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At 11:14:12 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

You women are all the same. If your love life goes all right, everything is fine; but once crossed in bed, the liveliest and best that life can offer might as well be wormwood. What we poor males need is a way of having babies on our own -- no females please. Then the world would be completely trouble free.
-- Jason, in Medea, (Euripedes, trans. Roche)

From Jim's away message.
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At 11:12:58 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Well, now I am home from those six classes. This is the first full set of classes that I've been to since I certifiably discovered that I'm nuts. No, I'm serious, this should give you some more information. The biochronic link on there was scary - it fit better than anything else I have read. But I'm officially on the list as having "agitated depression." There we go, I've come out to the world. By the way, I like girls, too. There's me fully coming out.
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At 7:30:00 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I am so proud of myself. I am going to go to school today, and I am going to go to six classes. I won't enroll in all of them, but I'm going to attend them all and figure out what I'm doing. Time to pop a celexa, bite the bullet, and see how it goes.

I just hate being up before 8am.

Woo hoo!

-Kate
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At 12:41:06 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Yay, I was hit #300!! And I have to refresh it, and see myself as #301 in order to celebrate the fact I was 300.
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At 12:16:14 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

UMBC Home Page

By the way, school sucks. though I think I'm picking up an africana studies minor. More on that later.
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At 12:15:39 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Call on him, call on the Lord!

And I think i've done well already. If anyone was looking for a blow-by-blow account of our weekend, this was a very good description. I was very excited, and I did pick Jenny up and twirl her around - several times. I also kissed Amanda and James (Layman) before every single round - another level of superstition. and Jenny did give an amazing set of speeches in semis - it was so neat :)... But anyways, time for katiebeth to get some food - night!
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At 12:13:34 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I'm being a bitch, and its wonderful.

I'm making Eric make so many decisions!

And by the way, we (because we are one entity) have a ment-ee. Its funny, cause its Maya from American. She's the cute girl that they had debating this weekend - and I know she'll probably end up reading this. I hope we don't scare her away. But it will be neat, because she's someone else who I can tell all of our stories to. Her and the restof the American team. I asked if I could be Jenny's mentor.
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At 11:20:44 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

GENERAL PROFILE OF PUNTLAND

I agree with denise, this is a neat place. I like countries that secede and try to cut small african war-ravaged nations in two.

more soon.
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At 9:40:55 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Metro Press Release

Yay, new press for metro pointing out how great it is, and how it will continue to just get better. It is the greatest transit system ever. It would be insurpassable if it stopped at UMBC.
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At 8:19:54 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Good morning!

Did I mention that I don't want to go back to school? Or get any of my classes set up? Or do any of the things that I have to do today? I really dont even know why im awake, except to spend my last couple minutes with Eric. But I don't want to go back. With a passion.

But I'm going to. I'm going to take classes I like, and i'm going to enjoy them. I'm going to take my medication, and pop up totally balanced. All lofty goals...and all i want to do is curl up and cry.

love, kate

PS - web stats are an addicting thing - so many people checking out my page, and not clicking the little "sign my guestbook" button :(
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At 12:22:56 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Golden Bear's Vacation!!!

Its finally up!!!! I spent all afternoon coding it, but most of GoldenBear's vacation is finally online. There are still some pictures missing, of the stanley cup and of the pineapples, but those are on their way - blame Fotoimage, not me!!!! But yay!!! Moreso, please feel free to sign my guestbook or do something else to let me know you stopped in - i watch you come in on the counters, see where you're all clicking in from, but i still dont know who some of you are :) so let me know.

thanks! See you in the morning - boooo school starting again.

-Kate
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At 1:19:08 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Html Gear - Guest Gear Sign Guestbook

Hey, I figured out my problem with not wanting to give out my e-mail on this site -- You should just sign my guestbook if you want to comment on a certain entry. You can make them private if you'd like, but please feel free to sign my guestbook when you have comments to make.
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At 12:51:54 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Free Will Astrology ~ Horoscope-Aries

Wow - This is quite a horoscope :)
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At 12:36:31 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I was reading something online, and comparing it to things that this author said (hearsay note) about me during the finals, and then noting and remembering what shit had been said about me and my sexual orientation and how people shouldnt trust me. People, of course, meaning Eric in this instance. So I read online, see the author discuss how the author hates certain things, tears mainly, and i think - well, stop making people cry. The author certainly made me cry in the past few months. Moreso, the author has significantly changed from who the author used to be. When the author was different, the author wouldnt have made me cry. Wouldnt have said things. And wouldnt continue to make me upset.

Bye!

(Obviously the Author shall remain nameless. If you can guess, good for you, if you can ask me, go 'head - i might even answer)
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At 11:32:51 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Ok, on a side note, someone is looking at this page from a) canada, and b) the netherlands, as well as Pasadena. I don't mind, but its weird! I guess they're all friends of storey and jenny's as that is where they come from.[linkwise] :)
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At 11:28:07 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Jenny's Diary

I think this link says it all - I'm so excited for Jenny :) Less so for me, but Eric needs to convince me that I should be.
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At 12:17:17 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Alysabeth's Feminist Stripper Site: Why would a woman want to become a stripper?

Who's looking at my page from CalTech? Drop me an e-mail (joncephine@hotmail.com)
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At 10:35:20 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

SatireWire | Enron Chairman Quits to Join Nigerian Firm

This is mainly for Eric - but after Enron is Argentina, and all other articles making fun of Ken Lay, I do have to admit SatireWire has done a very good job of it. The Australia article is also classic, but I'll wait until James gets here to make fun of that.

I dont know if I want to debate today - I know I do, but its morning, and mornings are never a good time to look at anything logically. Back to bed til James arrives!
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At 1:23:47 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

eddieclarke.com

:rolls eyes: this guy has the www.bloger.com redirect.
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At 10:03:32 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

You're not cool enough to see the TomTheDancingBug Cartoon!

Welcome to uComics Web Site featuring Tom the Dancing Bug -- The Best Comic Site In The Universe!

This one is for the upcoming Georgetown tournament - time to roll out the grand old religious cases, maybe even the boy v. girl case, all sorts - Jenny and I are going to play it old school (only she doesnt realize it yet) because we dont have any cases and i dont want to prep any. But final round, if one of two teams makes it, is already decided - and man, will it be good.
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At 9:52:52 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

U.S. Vows To Defeat Whoever It Is We're At War With

You're not cool enough to see the TomTheDancingBug Cartoon!

I want to see if this works - both this neat old comic and this (one of my favorite) articles from the onion are related.
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At 12:22:12 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

TolkienMovies.com - Lord of the Rings Movie News, Rumors, Photos, Writing & More

Eric made me go see this, and granted it was good, but they needed to spend more time on Galadriel - and Tom Bombadil was sorely missing. Though I was proud of the expansion of the Arwen part - Liv Tyler is pretty :)

Aside from that, I'm stressed, pissy, and want to curl up and cry.

night!
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At 12:46:15 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Alright, so I have a new counter - I should see if its just me who looks at this page. Ir might be, and that would be ok - I need to know where I can see where people are accessing my page from - Someone who knows webstuff, let me know.

night!

k
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At 8:49:27 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Peace Activist Has To Admit Barrett .50 Caliber Sniper Rifle Is Pretty Cool

The onion is honest and refreshing about making fun of peace advocates, as well as the war effort.
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At 8:36:58 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Jesus, here we go again

Tee hee - speaking of a circular link.
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At 6:31:45 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Metro Press Release

Metro has donuts! My favorite rail system needs to rehabilitate its donuts that keep it running nice and quiet. Except its not quiet, and the delay is actually at one of two stations we normally go to. Boo. At least Metro is a small enough system that its not too crazy.

More later.
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At 4:22:32 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Boo telemarketing. Boo capitalism. boo bills.

Deep thought for the day.
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At 3:56:28 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Not Exactly What We Intended, Justice O'Connor (washingtonpost.com)By Steny H. Hoyer
Sunday, January 20, 2002

Aside from Enron, this is one of my favorite news observations of the year. This is the first in a series of discussions about the silliness of the supreme court, and the painful idicy of some standards.

This article talks about Toyota v. Williams which declares that a woman with carpal tunnel is not protected under the American's with Disabilities Act. Now whatever my personal views on the disabling nature of carpal tunnel (I would like protection from when I demonstrated Magic Boards) I do have a couple of comments to say about the intent of their decision.

As this article points out, the basis of their decision was "Congressional Intent." This woman's claim, according to Justice O'Connor, would have largely expanded the scope of the ADA beyond the 43 million people it was intended for. But what needs to be remembered is that the craziness of the supreme court over the last few years also has eliminated epilepsy from the list of disabilities - which the law was specifically written to include.

I'm all for checks on government. I'm all for a supreme court which has its head screwed on straight. But I'm sick of conservative bullshit. Legalize medicinal marijuana in DC, and give people what they need.

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At 3:05:11 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Homestore.com: Rent Apartments and Homes

Does anyone know anything about this apartment complex? All I know is that its cheap, has w/d, and would let me have a cat. I think all of those are more important than location or safety. Besides, its 2 blocks from a metro. Seems perfect to me.

Maybe now that I have blog-this, ill start doing things similar to Amy, and analysing the things I like to. We'll see - it seems a positive step.
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At 3:02:21 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Stephanie's Blog

That's steph's blog - I'll link them on the side in a sec.
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At 3:01:46 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

It's not SUPPOSED to make sense. HOME

This is Denise's blog. i'm playing around with "blog this" to prove how easy it is.

I wish I had a more complicated diary, but I don't.
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At 3:00:24 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Wow, I want to see how easy this is.
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At 2:58:28 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

BLOGGER - How to create a BlogThis! bookmarklet BlogThis!
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At 5:01:30 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I am continuing not to update this. I just want to say that deals are retarded, as are lots of other things. Kevin and Lindsay are cute, but everyone else sucks right now. Cept those people who you know who they are. And politics sucks a lot.
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At 12:17:56 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

So, I haven't updated in a week - Eric came home, we anniversaried (19 months), I reformatted his computer (the real reason for my lack-of-publishing), I tried to call and wish molly a happy birthday, and failed, and so now this is as good as it gets, and I now sell home security systems. Well, not sell. Attempt to give away over the telephone is more like it. And I succeeded today! I gave one away!! So theres my $110!! If i give away just one more to be installed on Tuesday, I get $320!! So I'm back to that - see ya.
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At 2:03:56 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

So I couldnt sleep until 9am when they started soldering next door. I don't know why I sat up all night, but i did
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At 5:21:35 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

So much for being able to sleep. Its 5:20 am (not even 4:20) feels like 11:00 pm, and I'm not tired a bit. I don't understand! I hate being by myself. Sorry to all the people who I told that I couldnt talk tonight because I was going to sleep. Too bad that I didnt know that I'd fail, miserably.

:smile: I should learn HTML and get a real website. Fotoimage should have my pictures fixed sometime today, and i need to find out what on Eric's computer i can crop them in, and then i can get some online. Oh yeah, i need to learn HTML to do that....well, Carissa should be here one more night, right?

:) Alright, let's try to sleep again. I bet we'll fail. All I can say is that I have horrible insomnia when i sleep alone. Someone should hurry back, because Dakin (my teddy bear) isn't cutting it :)

Night (or morning) all four of you who read this!
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At 12:59:21 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Take care all - I'm trying to get my side-bar to update, and then go to sleep.

I'm not denying, we're flying above it all.
Hold my hand, don't let me fall -
You've such amazing grace...
I've never felt this way.
Show me heaven...
-Tina Arena, Show Me Heaven
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At 12:37:03 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Don't fuck with me.
i'm handing you my beating heart,
you can listen you can see.
You can touch!
Don't fuck with me

That's Jill sobule, Don't Fuck with me - just kind of appropriate. I feel like a mother lion. But I don't like when people get upset for all those reasons that I gave before. So to have Slimeball (who he shall now be named to protect those who might like him) fly in a new Girl (i'll adopt the polite name for her, for the same reasons - 'sides, i have never met her or had occasion to) I guess it could be just an example of boys not being able to communicate and making dumb decisions, and making us wish that females could perform asexual reproduction, and that the bi-sexual reproduction wasn't so much damn fun. :sigh: All I can say is that there has to be a better person out there. And we have to go through all the Mr Wrongs (some worse than others) before we find the right Mr Right.
We also may have to be fooled by assholes dressing as up as Mr Rights. I'll leave those nameless in my past, but y'all know who you are. Some make great fun, some make great friends. Some don't.

I'd give my right eye for you, but I will not be blind for you.
I like excitement...
But don't you hurt me.
Don't lie to me.
Don't fuck with me.

That's about it, but I do have one last piece of advice - and I'm serious...

And we laughed, at the world...They can have their diamonds, and we'll have our pearls

Night!

PS - Eric - you're not in trouble. This is just kate in lioness-mode
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At 12:25:40 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

And my hair will shine like the sea...
I didn't eat yesterday, and i'm not going to eat today...

Just still a pre-lude - this is actually in the middle, because blogger seems to be screwing up, so we'll see if i can get it to work....

I'm going to be a supermodel...
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At 12:21:33 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Since the posts to this website now seemed to be centered around the all-pervasive music that plays, I decided to look up to Jill sobule to fit the mood. While I'm downloading that...

Poor people gonna rise up, and get their share...
Poor people gonna rise up, and take what's theirs...
Dontchaknow you better run run run run run run run run run...

I'm currently looking for other "girl first" music, because I'm in a negative-testosterone mood. I highly dislike boys who make friends of mine cry. I get murderous - especially when i don't know or like them originally. If they were already friends of mine, i just get double-opinions of them, like certain nameless people.

Just as a warning...
Cause Finally the tables are starting to turn...

At 10:48:48 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

When I was young I knew everything

that was the first random song that popped up, I swear. Its not as scary as it used to be, but music is the tool of the Fates to fuck with me. I know it is.

But alas, i awoke with a different song in my head to listen to. I realize why it was now, looking at Baby Kate's away message...

Waiting, watching the clock, its 4:00 its got to stop.

That was me last night.

He opens the fdoor, she rolls over, pretends to sleep as he looks her over...

I awoke this morning to absolutely no water. Not no hot water as they like to do in Capitol Park, but no water at all. I was very sad, and i couldnt even wash my hands or brush my teeth, let alone shower.

And slowly waiting for the world to come along...

Alright, I'm going to give up this writing shit before I get too annoyed - I'm going to sleep for half an hour before trying to find some more water. See ya soon. Lunch with Jenny :)
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At 3:09:22 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Now, I'm going to close on this one...since its one of my favorites... thanks for bearing with me tonight...

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

About here, on Leadership weekend, (I can explain later) i gave shane a look, and started to cry in grotto - we hadn't even left the parking lot.

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Of what? Am I different? Am I even recognizable?

Life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

Yes. That's still true.

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how are dreams could come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

I think i will get married to this song - i think that's more than totally fair.

And life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's going to tear us apart

:smile: unless I screw up. We'll see - PS, i love you eric.

And life is a road and I want to going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

And life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

I wrote a whole paper on that song - i'd still like to be married to it, and it still made me cry - well, shane made me cry a lot that whole weekend. But enough reminiscing for the evening... Night all!

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At 3:02:04 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I made it through the wilderness! Somehow I made it through!

I needed something of a little different feeling for this post. Steph gave me this - you should look at it, its marvelous.

You made me feel I had nothing to hide...

the funniest part, i changed the song, and more crazy christian music came on - like molly-steubenville type - i have mixed musical tastes... Send forth your Word, Lord, and let there be light... Eeph
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At 2:57:34 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I may falter in my steps, but never beyond your reach...

Again, almost self explanatory. But I'm just trying to tire myself out by continuing to write. Its almost 3. there is nothing to keep me awake. well, except the crick in my shoulder.

And step by step, You'll lead me, and I will follow You all of my days...

Oh yeah, and reflections. I'm being like that worship dancer at NCYC that Kayla and I laughed at for hours...

And sometimes the night is beautiful...
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At 2:46:29 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

When i'm blisteringly happy for no good reason, that's when i remember with quiet the sadnesses. Like Monsignor dying today. I wont cry over him, I know. But its still a major change in my past. Or a change in the perspective of my past. I mean, he was in charge of everything all 13 years i was at Visitation in some capacity or another.

"He's leaving on that midnight train to Georgia. Said he's going back to find a simpler place and time."

I also need to find out if Megan actually found Maria's grave. That's another place I need to go. Maybe on my way right before Princeton or Swat. Its only another couple exits up the blue route from swat. But before Princeton, it will be good friday, and I can bring her a lily. Or a thornbush, which might be more appropriate :) I was telling stories of her while at worlds, and I still can't do it without being at least a little sad, and a little disbelieving. It just doesnt make any sense - and this is me, two full years later.

"I would rather live in his world than live without him in mine."

I should take Eric. It might freak him out, but I know she likes him :)
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At 2:15:58 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Do do do do do

I'm thinking about lots of people I don't usually think about. As I sing along to more Jewel, I obviously think of Sara. I should try to find her. She's probably still at USC - probably goes to visit people at school, Merilee, Mrs Myers, etc, that I have fallen out of contact with

Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart...

Have I changed a lot? Am i still recognizeable? am I the person I want to be? Hm. 1-900-Answers. Sarcasm is still the same, Yup.

You teach me of honest things, things that were daring, things that were clean.

Uh, nope. Nothing clean here, just me dashing around.

I hid my soiled hands behind my back, somewhere along the line i mist have gotten off track with you.

Jars... "I want to fall in love with you"
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At 2:06:02 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I-i-i, had a feeling that I belonged., I had a feeling I could be someone

I think that was about as self-explanatory as it gets. I'm a bundle of emotions tonight - I may just stay up all night talking to no one like this.
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At 2:03:35 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

When I want to run away, I drive off in my car...

Well, I'm sitting in my apartment, all by myself, and I just had a marvelous conversation with people - who, if i knew how to highlight their names, i'd do so - Emily Garin and Storey.... Ha! Take that, cornell kid...

And all my instincts, they return, and the grad facade so soon with burn.
Without a noise, without my price, I reach out from the inside...

i've been dancing around, cause I've been in a very playful mood. Arthur made me laugh my ass off, Lindsay helps - does anyone know if Canadians like eggplant?? and Eric sounded better than I expected him to, and will be back Sunday. I still miss him past anything else...

Love, I dont like to see so much pain.
So much wasted.
And each moment is slipping away.

I'm sailing up and down - trying to stay up - though the tears come too... I bet the Testify song is next. Random play on Winamp often tries to attack me.

Well, I get so tired, working so hard for our survival.
But I look to these times with you, to keep me awake and alive.

But this song is reminiscent, aside from being cool, of Some Assmebly Required, youth rallies, and just CYO in general - Angela might be a youth minster?! I hope that things work out with Ron, despite all my misgivings. She needs to be happy.

Ok, new song, new entry.
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At 8:40:01 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I'll probably take that off later, but Arthur's e-mail was down, so...

i'm not really back in webspace. i'm still trying to decide if i like the idea of keeping an online diary. I think I won't update it daily because i dont want people checking it all the time. And I only really right in it when I'm manic. that's when my typing speeds go way up, and i can just babble on and on.

anyone remember what my shorter address was for this page? let me know.

I'M BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more laters.
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At 8:34:37 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

removed - if you want the g-town invite, check your e-mail - it was a cool theme, i promise.
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At 12:43:51 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Merry Christmas, I want to be drunk. I do! I'm sitting here at home, listening to my mother bitch about Eric, and I want to not be here. I want to curl up and cry, or go drink Mark's amaretto. The last few weeks ive been plugging my sorrows with getting drunk, and i certainly will in toronto, but that doesnt mean that it doesnt suck. For the rest of you sane people out there, Happy Christmas.
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At 1:56:50 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

:more rasberries: Today, i've cut the inside of my mouth, done other stupid nonproductive shit, and truly missed my SSRI. Any questions?

Leave me alone. You all suck.
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At 11:34:32 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

i'm not ignorant of the fact that I haven't added anything to this today. Instead, I've actively ignored it. I taught Carissa Japanese, set a page limit for eric before he could sleep, and did other things to encourage other people to study, cause I don't have to, of course. I need to get up for my freaking early appointment tomorrow - the doctor better not call out sick. Also, The Love Calculator is a good avoidance mechanism. Carissa only has a 12% chance of a good relationship with her exams :). Take care all - good luck on exams.
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At 1:17:55 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

By the way, Oceans Eleven was quite possibly the greatest movie ever. Well, I thought so. Granted, it had a few people in it that would make me think it was a good movie (and no, demi moore may fit the "type," but her presence make not good movie - 'sides, she wasn't in it. Julia Roberts was :) But it turned out ok.

I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is.

Take care, y'all. All 3 of you who read this.
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At 12:13:15 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

:rasberries:
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At 12:12:42 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Yay election/social analysis...shamelessly stolen from Eric's old roommate.
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At 3:33:43 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Ah, luckily things took less time than I expected. That was the biggest thing I've had to have done this semester, and now that my "semester" is over (in that sense) I feel much better.

My grandmother told me that she was surprised that I was the one who never came home. They said they expected Mic to be the one who went to school and never came home. Granted, I did claim Ursinus as my college of choice - when I was eight. By the time I went to girl scout camp when I was a little older, I was talking about the American University in Tokyo. By the time I got to high school, or chose the school I was going to independent of my parents (well, with Mom's help, we had long discussions of it, but the decision was mine), the seeds had been planted. I was working, and I made the fatal error. I considered myself independent. Or at least partially so. I didn't realize they disagreed with me until my junior year - when I quit the job with my mom and got another job on my own. That started the struggle between my family and me. Debate became a focal point - Maria the devil in their eyes. Molly responded by slipping into a better position in their eyes - i certainly dont blame her. I kept the end in sight. I focused outside, on future, on outside sources of income to fund what i was doing, etc. That's how I got into trouble when I went to school. I saw all of this as a natural progression. Even having major problems with them the first two trips home. Then the trips home became (even) less frequent. Then two summers ago happened. We'll leave that at that, lots of stuff there, and if you dont know all the details than you probably dont need to know. Let's just say I've been home for less than two weeks since. And now, here I am, and I wish I could make things better for them, but I'm different. I could reconnect, but no. Its difficult to say, cause I could fix their problems, but I can't - i'm sorry.

Maybe i'l try to take the kids for two weeks this summer. I'll either try to get an americorps job with kids their age, so to incorporate them, or ill do something that I can take off from. that would be a good time.

Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :)

"You always tell me that it's impossible,
To be respected, and be a girl.
Why's it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated?
Oh, please be careful with me, I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way." -Jewel, I'm Sensitive
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At 12:50:13 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish.
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      At 5:56:30 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this?
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      At 5:06:47 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why.
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      At 1:42:07 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back.

Out for now again.
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At 1:11:04 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work.

To explain the sarcastic and short blips of information, as well as the irreverent title, I have been trying to get this server (and others like it ) to work for a full week. I was ecstatic to see that it did.

This is going to be my new weblog. A touch more organized than the last one, but still with the trusty times in pacific format. I'll post observations, rants, and discussions on here. And you know what? Get offended, take them personally, I don't give a shit. Right this second, i'm drinking to try to calm down my mania. If it works, you may see something a bit more introspective on this page later today. But for now, we'll leave it at frantic and bouncy. Cause that's what I am right now. Frantic and bouncy.

Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out.
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At 12:56:38 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Alright, try again
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At 1:34:52 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Bleh. Again.
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At 1:33:21 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said.....

Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers.
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.: posted by Kate Myers 6:54 PM

12.25.2001
Merry Christmas, I want to be drunk. I do! I'm sitting here at home, listening to my mother bitch about Eric, and I want to not be here. I want to curl up and cry, or go drink Mark's amaretto. The last few weeks ive been plugging my sorrows with getting drunk, and i certainly will in toronto, but that doesnt mean that it doesnt suck. For the rest of you sane people out there, Happy Christmas.
12:43:51 AM

12.14.2001
:more rasberries: Today, i've cut the inside of my mouth, done other stupid nonproductive shit, and truly missed my SSRI. Any questions?

Leave me alone. You all suck.
1:56:50 PM

12.13.2001
i'm not ignorant of the fact that I haven't added anything to this today. Instead, I've actively ignored it. I taught Carissa Japanese, set a page limit for eric before he could sleep, and did other things to encourage other people to study, cause I don't have to, of course. I need to get up for my freaking early appointment tomorrow - the doctor better not call out sick. Also, The Love Calculator is a good avoidance mechanism. Carissa only has a 12% chance of a good relationship with her exams :). Take care all - good luck on exams.
11:34:32 PM

12.12.2001
By the way, Oceans Eleven was quite possibly the greatest movie ever. Well, I thought so. Granted, it had a few people in it that would make me think it was a good movie (and no, demi moore may fit the "type," but her presence make not good movie - 'sides, she wasn't in it. Julia Roberts was :) But it turned out ok.

I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is.

Take care, y'all. All 3 of you who read this.
1:17:55 PM

:rasberries:
12:13:15 AM

Yay election/social analysis...shamelessly stolen from Eric's old roommate.
12:12:42 AM

12.11.2001
Ah, luckily things took less time than I expected. That was the biggest thing I've had to have done this semester, and now that my "semester" is over (in that sense) I feel much better.

Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :)

"You always tell me that it's impossible,
To be respected, and be a girl.
Why's it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated?
Oh, please be careful with me, I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way." -Jewel, I'm Sensitive
3:33:43 PM

I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish.
12:50:13 PM

12.10.2001
I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this?
5:56:30 PM

Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why.
5:06:47 PM

I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back.

Out for now again.
1:42:07 PM

Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work.

Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out.
1:11:04 PM

Alright, try again
12:56:38 PM

12.7.2001
Bleh. Again.
1:34:52 PM

Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers.
1:33:21 PM

Sunday, February 24, 2002

Create your own Quiz!!!

.: posted by Kate Myers 8:50 PM

I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is.

Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :)

"You always tell me that it's impossible,
To be respected, and be a girl.
Why's it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated?
Oh, please be careful with me, I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way." -Jewel, I'm Sensitive
3:33:43 PM

I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish.
12:50:13 PM

12.10.2001
I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this?
5:56:30 PM

Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why.
5:06:47 PM

I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back.

Out for now again.
1:42:07 PM

Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work.

Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out.
1:11:04 PM

Alright, try again
12:56:38 PM

12.7.2001
Bleh. Again.
1:34:52 PM

Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers.
1:33:21 PM

Tuesday, February 19, 2002

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.: posted by Kate Myers 5:51 AM

I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is.

Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :)

"You always tell me that it's impossible,
To be respected, and be a girl.
Why's it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated?
Oh, please be careful with me, I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way." -Jewel, I'm Sensitive
3:33:43 PM

I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish.
12:50:13 PM

12.10.2001
I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this?
5:56:30 PM

Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why.
5:06:47 PM

I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back.

Out for now again.
1:42:07 PM

Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work.

Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out.
1:11:04 PM

Alright, try again
12:56:38 PM

12.7.2001
Bleh. Again.
1:34:52 PM

Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers.
1:33:21 PM

Monday, February 18, 2002

Vulva University Registration

so tell me - what problem does Eric have with this? why should he have a problem with this? im so confused.

.: posted by Kate Myers 8:07 PM

I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is.

Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :)

"You always tell me that it's impossible,
To be respected, and be a girl.
Why's it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated?
Oh, please be careful with me, I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way." -Jewel, I'm Sensitive
3:33:43 PM

I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish.
12:50:13 PM

12.10.2001
I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this?
5:56:30 PM

Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why.
5:06:47 PM

I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back.

Out for now again.
1:42:07 PM

Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work.

Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out.
1:11:04 PM

Alright, try again
12:56:38 PM

12.7.2001
Bleh. Again.
1:34:52 PM

Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers.
1:33:21 PM

The yOni bookstore

Wondrous Vulva Puppet - celebrating feminine sexual anatomy

If you go further down the page you'll see what's so funny about this - the Yoni is the sacred symbol of female creative power. I'm looking for a symbol of it now.

.: posted by Kate Myers 4:18 PM

I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is.

Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :)

"You always tell me that it's impossible,
To be respected, and be a girl.
Why's it gotta be so complicated?
Why you gotta tell me if I'm hated?
Oh, please be careful with me, I'm sensitive,
And I'd like to stay that way." -Jewel, I'm Sensitive
3:33:43 PM

I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish.
12:50:13 PM

12.10.2001
I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this?
5:56:30 PM

Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why.
5:06:47 PM

I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back.

Out for now again.
1:42:07 PM

Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work.

Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out.
1:11:04 PM

Alright, try again
12:56:38 PM

12.7.2001
Bleh. Again.
1:34:52 PM

Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers.
1:33:21 PM