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12.25.2001 At 12:43:51 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Merry Christmas, I want to be drunk. I do! I'm sitting here at home, listening to my mother bitch about Eric, and I want to not be here. I want to curl up and cry, or go drink Mark's amaretto. The last few weeks ive been plugging my sorrows with getting drunk, and i certainly will in toronto, but that doesnt mean that it doesnt suck. For the rest of you sane people out there, Happy Christmas. # 12.14.2001 At 1:56:50 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... :more rasberries: Today, i've cut the inside of my mouth, done other stupid nonproductive shit, and truly missed my SSRI. Any questions? Leave me alone. You all suck. 12.13.2001 At 11:34:32 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... i'm not ignorant of the fact that I haven't added anything to this today. Instead, I've actively ignored it. I taught Carissa Japanese, set a page limit for eric before he could sleep, and did other things to encourage other people to study, cause I don't have to, of course. I need to get up for my freaking early appointment tomorrow - the doctor better not call out sick. Also, The Love Calculator is a good avoidance mechanism. Carissa only has a 12% chance of a good relationship with her exams :). Take care all - good luck on exams. # 12.12.2001 At 1:17:55 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... By the way, Oceans Eleven was quite possibly the greatest movie ever. Well, I thought so. Granted, it had a few people in it that would make me think it was a good movie (and no, demi moore may fit the "type," but her presence make not good movie - 'sides, she wasn't in it. Julia Roberts was :) But it turned out ok. I need to go and figure out if I'm going to therapy or not. Then possibly I'll list some things on here. Also, good luck to Liss and Danielle - we all know what that is. Take care, y'all. All 3 of you who read this. At 12:13:15 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... :rasberries: # At 12:12:42 AM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Yay election/social analysis...shamelessly stolen from Eric's old roommate. # 12.11.2001 At 3:33:43 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Ah, luckily things took less time than I expected. That was the biggest thing I've had to have done this semester, and now that my "semester" is over (in that sense) I feel much better. My grandmother told me that she was surprised that I was the one who never came home. They said they expected Mic to be the one who went to school and never came home. Granted, I did claim Ursinus as my college of choice - when I was eight. By the time I went to girl scout camp when I was a little older, I was talking about the American University in Tokyo. By the time I got to high school, or chose the school I was going to independent of my parents (well, with Mom's help, we had long discussions of it, but the decision was mine), the seeds had been planted. I was working, and I made the fatal error. I considered myself independent. Or at least partially so. I didn't realize they disagreed with me until my junior year - when I quit the job with my mom and got another job on my own. That started the struggle between my family and me. Debate became a focal point - Maria the devil in their eyes. Molly responded by slipping into a better position in their eyes - i certainly dont blame her. I kept the end in sight. I focused outside, on future, on outside sources of income to fund what i was doing, etc. That's how I got into trouble when I went to school. I saw all of this as a natural progression. Even having major problems with them the first two trips home. Then the trips home became (even) less frequent. Then two summers ago happened. We'll leave that at that, lots of stuff there, and if you dont know all the details than you probably dont need to know. Let's just say I've been home for less than two weeks since. And now, here I am, and I wish I could make things better for them, but I'm different. I could reconnect, but no. Its difficult to say, cause I could fix their problems, but I can't - i'm sorry. Maybe i'l try to take the kids for two weeks this summer. I'll either try to get an americorps job with kids their age, so to incorporate them, or ill do something that I can take off from. that would be a good time. Anyways, I'm off to avoid life and clean. those of you who know me see the pattern :) "You always tell me that it's impossible, At 12:50:13 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... I have things to say, but I won't say then today until I finish everything I need to finish. # 12.10.2001 At 5:56:30 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... I'm going to quote myself "People take offense for no good reason." Like Molly. For one, I don't hate her, though she's given me enough reason to over the years. In fact, if she would look honestly at the past several times we've talked, she'd discover that aside from not being much in contact, we're really not all that much in conflict. But mainly, I don't particularly care if she is misinterpreting everything I've ever said, done or felt. :sigh: why is life so complicated? Why am I able to post a banal response to it all on this? # At 5:06:47 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Sisters blow. This is the only negative thing about Molly thus far that has been said on this page. I don't understand why she took such offense. But then, that seems to be my problem these days. People take offense for no good reason, and I dont understand why. # At 1:42:07 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... I'm never going to be as cool as Storey and write everything down on a little sheet of paper for future updates. but I will tell you - I'm much calmer than I was earlier. Probably because the drinking has kicked in. Finally, (ironic, eh?) I wanted to link to this. which I think is entirely true and plausible. south american countries do bear a startling resemblance to failing energy comapnies. I want an IMF loan. Maybe that would get NextCard off of my back. Out for now again. At 1:11:04 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Oh my god. Oh my god - I actually got it to work. I was shocked and amazed to see it actually work. To explain the sarcastic and short blips of information, as well as the irreverent title, I have been trying to get this server (and others like it ) to work for a full week. I was ecstatic to see that it did. This is going to be my new weblog. A touch more organized than the last one, but still with the trusty times in pacific format. I'll post observations, rants, and discussions on here. And you know what? Get offended, take them personally, I don't give a shit. Right this second, i'm drinking to try to calm down my mania. If it works, you may see something a bit more introspective on this page later today. But for now, we'll leave it at frantic and bouncy. Cause that's what I am right now. Frantic and bouncy. Alright, I'm off to further defend my boyfriend from illegitimate curtailments of his civil liberties. We are one person often times. Well, except when I need to have two opinions on something because I agree with him and with friends of mine on conflicting issues. Anyway. Out. At 12:56:38 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Alright, try again # 12.7.2001 At 1:34:52 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Bleh. Again. # At 1:33:21 PM Kate Myers went nuts and said..... Alright, let's see if this one works. i've had to use three servers. # |
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