Mind Suckers

Mind Suckers!

okee guys ..I'm betting you're wondering exactly what this page is all about .. well keep your panties on ..cause i'm gonna tell you.. it's really all about what Ani means to me .. how on so many levels she's touched my life ..no matter what kinda mood i'm in ..she knows exactly what i'm feeling ..knows what it's like to be in my 'shoes' ..or maybe i know what it's like to be in her shoes ..cause in most instances ..she wrote the song way before i was feeling this .. see this is wonderful on many levels ..I'm a very moody chicky ..and don't take that wrong ..it's not like i'm taking my bad moods out on other ppl ..I'm just a grrrrrl trying to find where I stand in the world ..and Ani's just helping me find my way home ..if you know what i mean ...home being somewhat equal to my big weirdo heart!!

so this is what i'm gonna do .. I'm gonna put all of the ani lyrics that really touch me ..on a daily basis here ..and I'll put the date by them ..and hey ..if you'd like to add anything ..then just email me ..put in your name ..and location if you so desire ..and i'll put it here too ..cause it would be nice to know that ani's speaking to someone else to ..but you know something ..I know she's speaking to women everywhere ..they just may not have found my site yet ..or they may not have wanted to click on a link that said something sicko like 'mind suckers' ;)

here's my email addie!!!

SwanDive625@aol.com

so ...here we go ...

September 2, 2001

"she went over to his apartment ..clutching her decision ..and he said, did you come here to tell me goodbye? ..so she built a skyscraper of procrastination and then she leaned out the twenty-fifth floor window of her reply ..and she felt like an actress just reading her lines when she finally said ..yes. it's really goodbye this time and far below the blacktop and the tiny toy cars and it fell so fast and it fell so far ..and she said: you are a miracle but that is not all ..you are also a stiff drink and i am on call ..you are a party and i am a school night .. and i'm lookin' for my key but you are my porch light .. and you'll never know dear just how much i loved you ..you'll probably think this was just my big excuse, but i stand committed to a love that came before you and the fact that i adore you ..it's but one of my truths.."

Reckoning -- School Night

September 4, 2001

"i'm losing my love of adventure ..i'm losing all respect for me and myself ..i wonder what happens if i get to then end of this tunnel and there isn't light ..i've worn down the treads on all my tires ..i've word through the elbows and the knees of my clothing ..i am stumbling down the gravel driveway of desire trying not to wake up my sleeping self-loathing ..do you ever have that dream where you open your mouth and you try to scream but you can't make a sound ..that's everyday starting now ..don't tell me it's gonna be alright ..you can't sell me on your optimism tonight.."

Wish I May -- To The Teeth

September 6, 2001

"in the jukebox of her memory the list of names flips by and stops ..she closes her eyes ..and smile as the record drops ..then she drinks herself up and out of her kitchen chair ..and she dances out of time ..as slow as she can sway ..for as long as she can say ..this dance is mine ..this dance is mine ..her hair bears silent witness to the passing of time ..tattoos like mile markers map the distance she has come ..winning some ..losing some ..she says ..my sister still calls every sunday night after the rate goes down ..but i can still never manage to say anything right ..my whole life blew up ..and now it's coming down.."

September 13, 2001

"i see you and i dilate ..so i'll walk the plank and jump with a smile ..if i'm gonna go down i'm gonna do it with style ..and you won't see me surrender you won't hear me confess ..cause you've left me with nothing but i've worked with less ..and i learn every room long enough to make it to the door and then i heart it click shut behind me and every key works differently ..i forget every time and the forgetting defines me ..that's what defines me ..when i say you sucked my brain out ..the english translation ..is i am in love with you and it is no fun..but i don't use words like love ..'cuz words like that don't matter ..but don't look so offended you should be flattered ..i wake up in the middle of the night in some big hotel bed ..my hands grope for the light ..my hands grope for my head ..the world is my oyster ..the road is my home ..and i know that i'm better ..off alone.." -dilate

ani does know it all :)