linkeage:
home sweet home
runaway
quoth the raven
photographic evidence
yes, as a matter of fact, i have fallen off the face of the earth! intelligent little mortal, aren’t ya? ::pats on the head::
ah, the joys of morning practice ... though it is my personal belief that seeing 520AM can never be a good thing, whether you’re getting up or going to bed, there are some great things about getting stuff accomplished before anyone else in their right mind is awake. i have the whole entire day to myself after class, and it’s an absolutely gorgeous day outside. and i got to row in A boat this morning! ::high pitched, girly squeal:: yeaaaaaaaaaaaay! here’s to today ... and napping outside in the sunshine.
yeah, i realize i was at Ames for about 14 hours. deal.
oh, you wanna know what really happened? went to Ames, went to dinner, went to Matt’s, watched Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, and then went promptly to sleep. the end.
somehow, miraculously, i have regained my inner peace. i think it was the nap and how the day had become so very beautiful while i slept. the sky is that beautiful, perfect, indescribable cloudless blue that i want to capture somehow and carry with me forever. it is spring and i am no longer allergic to it. it is warm and sunshiney and so wonderfully amazingly good. i am going to wander out into that glowing sunshine and just lay on the green green grass and worship today in all its glory.
wow, long time no update. oh well, it was mostly more of the same, anyway. except for our kick-ass party on friday. Matt got a new game from Cheapass Games - Kill Doctor Lucky. it's kind of the prequel to Clue; instead of figuring out who killed him, you run around the house picking up weapons trying to kill him. it was fun. we went to bed at 300. am. and then i drove home (4, 4.5 hours) at 200 the next day. fun is.
yes, people, i brought Matt home last weekend. he passed the Mom Test with flying colors. yeay! be proud of him.
and yes, i am in a much better mood of late. it's beyootiful outside (50ish) and i had a pretty good day of non-boring classes. and i get to go to crew in about an hour. yeay! ("No, GIR, that's a bad thing!" "::pause:: Yeay!")
::curls up into a tiny ball:: why won’t reality stop kicking my ass?
no, really, it’s like all of the bad karma i’ve accumulated in my entire life, and probably a few past lives as well, has returned to make my life hell and then some. it hurts, it sucks, and i’d say it’s not fair but, hey, it’s karma. the whole idea is that it makes things fair. well, at least even or balanced or something along those lines. but it still really sucks. stupid karma, making my life painfu– ow! quit it!
"i've got to be honest
i think you know
we're covered in lies and that's ok
there's somewhere beyond this, i know
and i hope i can find the words to say
never again
no, never again
you're a god
and i am not
and i just thought
that you would know
you're a god
and i am not
and i just thought
i'd let you go"
- Vertical Horizon, You're a God
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
if you have no idea what the past few days/week has been about – ignorance is bliss. trust me on this one.
"just think about it ...
lately i've been skeptical
silent when i used to speak
distant from all around me
who witness me fail and become weak
life is overwhelming
heavy is the head that wears the crown
i love to be the one to disappoint you when i don't fall down
but you don't understand when
i'm attempting to explain
because you know it all and i guess things will never change
but you might need my hand when
falling in your hole
your disposition i'll remember when I'm letting go
of you and me
we're through and re-arranged
it seems that you're not satisfied
there's too much on your mind
so you leave and i can't believe
all the bullshit that i find
life is overwhelming
heavy is the head that wears the crown
i love to be the one to disappoint you when i don't fall down
but you don't understand when
i’m attempting to explain
because you know it all and i guess things will never change
but you might need my hand when
falling in your hole
your disposition i’ll remember when I'm letting go
of you and me
we're through and re-arranged
...
you think that everybody’s the same
i don't think there’s anybody like you
you think that everybody’s the same
i don't think there’s anybody like you
just think about it ... you'll get it ..."
-LimpBizkit, re-arranged
"it’s nothing; it’s so normal
you just stand there
I could say so much
but I don’t go there cuz I don’t want to
...
this ain’t no good, in fact it’s phony as hell
but things worked out just like you wanted
if you see me, you don’t know me
try to turn your head, try to give me some room
to figure out just what I want to do
...
and I couldn’t tell
why everyone here was doing me like they do
but it’s over now
and I don’t know how
to get it back to good"
bad day. ‘nuff said.
the summary of today’s adventure:
new, from Reality TV Flicks: Sarah and Red Attempt to Get Trevor at the Train Station in Syracuse With Only Map Quest Directions, Then They All Attempt to Return to Colgate. actors play themselves. running time: 4 hours
yeah ... that pretty much says it all. except for rolling through a red light at 10mph. and parking across the city at the wrong train station, taking a train to the mall, which happens to be the very first exit off the highway, then running across three parking lots and two four-lane roads to get to the right train station, and then doing all of that in reverse. and getting back on the right highway. and the Swirly. (it wasn’t exactly a rotary ... it was 5/6ths of a rotary or something like that). and finally getting home, realizing that a two hour round trip just took us about four hours. it was an adventure – and some of you declined to participate! i can’t believe you turned down such an opportunity!
last night was definitely one of the best nights of my life ... Em, Kate, Matt and i froliced around the academic quad after the required Greek movie got out ... it was so much fun. we were all so happy and wild and crazy and giddy – why can’t every night be like that?
today ... today was mediocre. went to classes, went to lunch, had a bowl of coffee with Em and poured one for Kate, in her honor because she was reading the last chapter before her neuroscience midterm – ironically, the one on stress. then Em went home. ::sniff:: she did make record time on the way home – 3.5 hours. damn, girl, how fast were you goin’? the rest of today was spent playing with my Neopet. yes, i have a Neopet now. no comments, please. her name is Slyphe and she’s a blue gryphon-y thing. she’s purty.
i think that’s it. aside from missing Matt cuz he’s been working on his thesis forever ... but i won’t complain. he’s here to write thesis, not play with me, much as i’d like that. ::sigh::
ok, yeah. the summary of last week:
it's one of those weeks ... the stats thus far (as of Sunday the 3rd):
loads of laundry: 0 (of 4 or 5)
website updates: 0
papers written: 5
pages read for said papers: 189
shots/alcohol imbibed: 0
cloves smoked: 2
death threats (given): 1
death threats (received): 1
attempts to save sanity: 2
aneurysms: 5
mono symptoms: 4
follow ups on death threats given: none - yet.
people on "destroy as soon as convenient" list: 3
riiiiiiiight. bad week. midterms, papers, tons o’ reading, tons o’ trips to the Health Center. finally got them to test for stuff, and i’ll know tomorrow definitely what’s wrong with me. it’s at least minor bronchitis, and probably other stuff, too. fuuuuuuuuun
but – all is good – EM IS HERE!!!!!!!!
well, the blood test results are in. (actually, they were in yesterday.) i don’t have a thyroid problem or anemia. that leaves mono or something completely different. grrrrrrrrrrrar. not cool.
but today Meg and Kristina are coming to visit me! yippee! ::happy dance:: you have no idea how thrilled i am! i have friends and they love me enough to drive 4.5 hours to come see me! yeay! i’m going to just sit here and bask in happiness for a while.
i called the health center this morning after class and told them that my mom wanted me to have the bloodwork done for peace of mind. (that’s what she told me to say after we talked last night.) they said “ok, sure. i’ll write up the paperwork for you, and just stop by and pick it up, then go next door to the hospital and they’ll do the tests. call me tomorrow between classes and we can discuss the results.” so i’m a little ticked off. why couldn’t we have done this yesterday? that would have made life so much easier ... oh, wait. that’s right. it would have made life so much easier. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. anyway, right now i’m trying to not think about getting bloodwork done soon. (i’m waiting til Matt gets out of class so i can make him come with me cuz i don’t want to go all by myself.) ::squirm:: no like needles!
but there is goodness – Raina and i got to play with Chris after dinner last night! yeay! that was fun because not only does Chris have the illustrated edition of Stardust, he has lots and lots of toys. and puppets. and duct tape! tee hee hee. i’m glad we got to play, mostly because i haven’t seen him very much all semester and he’s kind of hard to randomly visit because he lives at the top of the world. (5th floor, across campus) but i will visit more often. there are still toys i haven’t played with yet. ^_^
awww! Kate is awesome! look what she sent me to cheer me up: kitty loves me! isn’t that the sweetest thing ever?
woo hoo! welcome to Fire and Ice version 2.0! i finally got the all-html pages up, and here they are. be proud of me!
in other news, the whore childer who populate the health center want me to wait a week before they tell me what's wrong with me. ::growl:: i don't have a week! i wanna be better now! ::whine:: i want to get better so i can get back into crew training before we go to Georgia for spring training and just do crew all the f*ing time. or if i have mono, i want to know that it would be a waste of time to go to Georgia at all. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
which reminds me - the illness poll is as follows:
mono - 3
anemia - 5
underactive thyroid - 2
none of the above - 0
let's see, what else ... oh, i got my French Lit paper back ... i won't tell you the grade; it's far too painful, but one of the comments translates to "This work is a little decieving because I know you can do much better." ouch.
but! i got a package from my mommy and daddy today! yeay! it was filled with nice things and fun things to decorate our room with on St Patrick's Day - if Al's mom sends St-Patrick's-Day-in-a-Box too we will be the most festive room ever. for any reason, in all of existence. ^_^ this makes me happy.
