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4.8.2002
Current: Mood: Ubsurdly tired Clothing: grey leggings/sweatpants, "silly moo" cow socks, black & white cow undies, yellow moongroov tee, green & blue "bull head dragons" hoodie, hair in a pony tail Music: A Perfect Circle: Random songs
Bleh... that's all i have to say. i definately didn't fall asleep until 4 AM this morning. no matter what i did, i was wide awake. tossing and turning. and then just when i managed to fall into a deep sleep, it was time to get up for school. that sucked. and then i'm sitting downstairs waiting for david and nicole to get to my house and it turns out they're both idiots and didn't bother LEAVING A FREAKIN' MESSAGE asking if i was going to school or not. so i waited for nothing because they went to school before me. grr...
so anyways.. i saw blade II last night. it was alright. had a lot of clichues and gore but it was good for a sequel.
soon i'll have a new layout for this blog too.
Ja for now, ~* Liz
"i am the wind," she breathed // 8:01 AM
3.30.2002
You know... I just realized how moody i have become over the past few weeks... Since my nana died, i've had no one to really vent anything to and things are just piling up on me. Sure i have aaron to vent on, but i feel bad most times always complaining to him >.< *sighs* i've had to work hell hours this week due to Easter this weekend. People shopping are rediculious, just to re-assure you all. Yesturday and today i have to work 3:30 PM - 12:00 AM. Yes. Hell hours. I went to bed about 2 AM this morning because i came home from work, (aaron made us supper) relaxed a little, ate the supper aaron made me, and finally made it to sleep. Unfortunately, this morning i was rudely woken up at 8 AM by hammering and then at about 10 AM my home was invaded by my grandmother, uncle albe, and uncle charlie so they could take more of my nana's stuff out of her house. Grr... So by 10, there was no sleep in store for me. And then the three people i just named started eating my food without even asking me~!!! By this time, i was crying and i was so mad and hurt that i didn't know what i was going to do. So i went and woke up Aaron. Since it was now about 11, we decided we would go Easter shopping for each other seeing as we still needed to. BAD mistake. Everyone was out and there was so much traffic! Grr... I am not having a good day~! Happy easter everyone ~_~; ~* Liz
"i am the wind," she breathed // 2:52 PM
3.24.2002
since i haven't posted anything relevant in quite some time, i think i will post here. Just as a reminder - this is my journal, opiate is my poetry and stories, and LiveJournal is for quizzes and such.
My nana did pass away. I was upset about it for a while, but i have gotten over it now. it's about time, heh heh. ^^;
anyways, here i am, sick as a dog, and i got aaron sick too. i feel really bad. being sick is awful, i hate it. and sometimes i just want to crawl under a rock. you see, since aaron was sick, he was up all night. he left me alone, assuming i was asleep. well, i am the lightest sleeper in the universe so i knew when he left and when he came back. i was really hurt seeing as he didn't even wish me goodnight or give me a goodnight's kiss like he usually does so i didn't sleep well myself as i kept thinking that i did something wrong. *sigh* i've been struggling with thoughts lately, per usual. i hate how i can never forget things i want to.
on a side note, i'm getting a new room hopefully really soon. i get to design it to my pleasures, so i am kinda excited. other than that, school sucks and i hate "end of the year term papers"~!!
"i am the wind," she breathed // 1:49 PM
2.20.2002
good afternoon.
after a good night's sleep, some advil, and a nice talk with my aaron, i am feeling a lot better about a few things. i still miss my best friend, but that's something that i have to do without because i can't resurrect her from the dead. but as for the other things, i feel a lot better now.
now for a post of updates.. mom was rushed to the hospital yesturday because she fell out of the shower. she's home now and in pain, but she's home. i sayed at aaron's last night (again) and woke up to wait for him to come home from school. (which is what i'm doing right now ^_^) but i just got a phone call from my mom about a half hour ago saying that my nana was just rushed to the hospital. apparently she had a stroke and her right side of her body failed... and other things were happening too that i care not to repeat... so i'm waiting to hear if she makes it. she might not, but she's strong so she will..
aaron's home now, so i'm going to go talk to him about what i just learned.
~* Jiyu
"i am the wind," she breathed // 12:10 PM
2.19.2002
have you ever just wanted to forget something or someone and just haven't been able to? yeah - that's me right now.. i hate it when i go over my life because i have a lot to think about and a lot that i've done that i have learned to regret. i remember when i was a little child (when i used to pretend i was part unicorn) i used to say that i did not know what regret was, because like the Unicorn in "The Last Unicorn" said - "Unicorns don't feel regret.. we can feel sorrow, but that's just not the same thing" but she too, like i, have learned to regret and i hate it.
so many lost cherished memories.. so painful.. i just want to let them go.. but everytime i say i forget about them, they just come right on back. and that hurts. i want to forget about Candice, my friend who passed away - i loved her like a sister, we were always together. and she's gone. she's been gone for many years now. but i still cry myself to sleep some nights thinking about her - and her last thing she said to me "Biz, i love you" and that's all i remember before she died.. and then there's Jordan - the person who changed my life drastically.. sure there were a lot of unhealthy things going on, but i still loved him more than anything, and i still think back to then and how things used to be. and i cry because things have changed so much since those days where i could go around without a care in the world. and then there's Luke and that whole Chaos Garden thing.. i once said i loved him.. blindly.. he was the strength i drew on when i was at the bottom. his friends and he pulled me through times i thought i could never make it through. his love was unconditional and i took advantage of that.. he came to visit me twice, all the way from Wisconsin out of his own pocket! how much of an ass am I when i told him i couldn't love him anymore.. but my heart, soul, and everything else belong to my current love and my only love, Aaron. and yet i still feel bad because no matter how much i try, i can never be good enough for him. i feel as though i can never compare to how good he is to me.. my mom's slowly dying, and he's so strong to let me cry on him all the time. and he's so good to me.. and i'm nothing but a dark cloud raining down.
sorry this is so long, but i really needed to get all this off my chest.. no one can listen to my unbiasedly, so i'll leave this all for you all to rip me appart with..
~* Jiyu
"i am the wind," she breathed // 11:47 PM
2.18.2002
Good morning - konbanwa! I got the best news last night. My cousin Donna and her husband Steve are finally expecting! Hooray! So now not only is my Auntie Crystal expecting, and my teacher Mrs. Trach, my Donna is now too! Yay! I love babies! This is the best news in the world ^_^
"i am the wind," she breathed // 10:37 AM
2.17.2002
Wow... I think i finally got this thing to work!!! XD
"i am the wind," she breathed // 3:45 PM
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