you sure do know how to kick a girl when she is down
..literally
why do you despise me?
i want to know what i did to make you hate me so
is it because i started thinking for myself
and broke the ties of conformist repressive tradition?
is it because i dont believe in your god,
but still am more spiritual than you?
is it because you aren't jesus?
pseudo-sufferer of the "sins" i commit?
i apologize for the strength (however little) i possess
my deepest sympathies for any successes i have in life
without your help
and you pray constantly
for me to be a "better" person
and then you hit me for not being one
i'm just tired of your power and control struggles you have with yourself
and i'm sick of him being a thespian father to me
why are all of our relationships based on fear and intimidation?
you tremble because i'd rather not participate
peacefulness and gentleness are not in your vocabulary
and i imagine her holding me when you become angry
its twisted the way you show love
kisses and hugs are not love when they are watered down
with verbal beatings and physical harms
i am smarter than i appear
you complain because you want my sympathy
i see that
you hit me because you cant control me
i see that too
you cant force someone to love you
but you continually try
i dont need you..never did and never will
and the thought of aloneness scares the living shit out of you