my point of view is crooked and jagged ,to the left and to the right .if it was on a chart it would look like a stock market report. i consider myself a conservative liberal, not too laid back and not too hard line. i straddle the line ,i am not a flip-flopper although ,like everyone else, sometimes things are able to change my opinion. by experience , new information , maturation, whatever.i feel like i am an average american, well not average , but close enough-ok i talk to average people, ok? close enough. i get around well enough , socially. i've partied with politicians(my friend travis had DUBYA on his speed dial), the fellows that live in the "jungle" , homeless crack smoking hookers, rock stars , porn stars , millionaires, ceo's, beer brewers , tattooers , glass blowers....you name it .i've had the privilege of enjoying just about all walks of life.ya know , it's funny how social circles weave together on the pattern of life.
i am a student of knowledge , seeking the truth. an avid pupil of the human condition and the secrets of the universe. the path i've taken directly correlates with my crooked and jagged point of view. it helps to keep me in tune with the vibrations of the universe , its beating of the drums. my heart longs to be one with the universe. i can feel its magnetic pull on my body. the closer i get the more i feel my soul grow , feeding from its stream of cosmic energy. the actual expansion of my entire being that is held within this body. i feel as if i could move mountains in this state. for one millisecond, i am aware of what it is like to be god. the feeling hits you with an overwhelming force. sometimes faith healers are able to summon this energy and it drops the people to the floor and they writhe in holy ecstacy as hands of eternal light lie upon them. in that perfect instant of bliss you are pure emotion and wisdom, one with the sun. infinite. after ,you are never the same . your aura shines for days ,drawing the attention of anyone who comes near. they are drawn to you and don't know why, some people subconsciously get uncomfortable with this cosmic attraction and instantly hate you.your energy is infectious ,as if you emit a spiritual musk. its as if you just got laid for the first time in months and everyone can tell the difference, now matter how subtle it is , in your prescience. many people search to attain this feeling forever, to drown in its infinite wisdom. soldiers of the light , overdosing on evolution, blinded by the brightness, forgetting the lesson of icarus. they become unable to interact with others socially. they shine like the sun , giving off a creepy vibration that makes others uneasy with the feeling of being of a lower human.1000cc'sof 100%pure emotion ooze from every pore of their existence. if a fly were to land on them and soak up their sweat,everything they landed on later, would instantly begin to return to the great creator.like a bee pollinating flowers. giving death life and feeding life death as it buzzes through its existence . completely unable to comprehend its great importance , even as one of life's vermin , as an essential member of the planet. a card carrying insect since we were but still just an amoeba floating in the pond scum.
that is until that day that a great ray of light shone down into that puddle of filth and out we crawled. slowly evolving , sucking oxygen inside of our wretched existence as we grew into our present beastly forms .chronologically speaking we are still babies , still learning through failure after cursed failure. we have been condemning ourselves to the fiery pits of hell ever since that fateful day when one cell became two. with our greedy , hungry eyes, our sticky , lustful fingers , our jealous , angry hearts ,our stubborn , vain minds and our filthy , lying mouths.we are worse than crabs in a barrel. completely willing to stomp out 1000 people's dreams for a chance at slaking the thirst for our deepest , darkest desires. adamantly pulling anyone back down into the drop of filthy grey water we came from for a minute of instant gratification. wanting what we don't know't need, needing what we don't know't have, and having what we don't know't want. a perfect circle in such a perfectly imperfect world. as we float endlessly through space in a circle, inside yet another circle, as we ourselves are circled as it itself circles and circles and circles .inside an even bigger circle.
it's no wonder every now and then someone says "the hell with this lunacy stop this existence i want off" .tired of the mundane trappings of everyday life , dizzy from all the damn circling.sick of been tired of it all . laughing to themselves as they say "i'll show them" and 'they' don't know't even take even an iota of interest.just another cruel joke life hands out on an eternal basis,like when you say well it couldn't possibly get any worse....heh heh heh.the grates joke of all? it smiles back at you from the face in the mirror and the seven years of bad luck that is soaked within its' prison of glitter and glass waiting to be released. collecting its' dust and recording all that it sees. until it lay in pieces and releases the fate as it fulfills its destiny.like a djinni trapped in a bottle, except it only hears your wishes it doesn't grant them.all the time the phrase , be careful for what you wish for emanates from its sheen.just imagine all the stories a mirror could tell, the sights it had seen.all the beauty of humanity and its true beastly nature.tears of joy and pain. the first breath of life and the last breath of death and every other kind of breath taken in between.
and as i wheeze out my fragile little death rattle, body no longer to withstand the abuses i have endured it with, i shall fear no evil. for i will have already walked through the valley in deaths shadow and have been through hell and back. and finally , rest in peace i shall.