TrnIllusions: my love
craXyREDhead: HHHHHHHHHH!
craXyREDhead: hello
craXyREDhead: my lovely love
craXyREDhead: hah
TrnIllusions: i got sad y listening to a song
craXyREDhead: aww
craXyREDhead: which one?
TrnIllusions: dixie chicks - traveling soldier
TrnIllusions: it makes me think if michael went to war <cause he said he was going into the
military> and if he died
TrnIllusions: it makes me cry
craXyREDhead: aww
TrnIllusions: so i criex
craXyREDhead: thats so sad
TrnIllusions: and i cried for all the people who have lost their boyfriends and husbands and fiances
in the war
TrnIllusions: and just soldiers in general
TrnIllusions: its so sad
craXyREDhead: i know
TrnIllusions: listen to it
craXyREDhead: i deleted kazaa
craXyREDhead: it was killing my comp
TrnIllusions: lol, im sorry
craXyREDhead: its ok
craXyREDhead: not your fault
craXyREDhead: it's all better now
craXyREDhead: lol
craXyREDhead: much healthier
TrnIllusions: hah, lol
craXyREDhead: i miss u
TrnIllusions: i miss u too!
TrnIllusions: wahhhhh
TrnIllusions: im crying
craXyREDhead: aww
craXyREDhead: no
craXyREDhead: dont cry
TrnIllusions: but i cant help it
craXyREDhead: i have a head ache
TrnIllusions: wahhhhhh
TrnIllusions: that makes me cry even more
craXyREDhead: lol
TrnIllusions: jackie in pain
craXyREDhead: i have to be nice to val for the next like 4 days
TrnIllusions: ::sniffle::
TrnIllusions: ew
craXyREDhead: or my mom hates me forever
craXyREDhead: i know!
TrnIllusions: why would she hate you for not being nice?
craXyREDhead: because.... well, erm, I wish I could explain. Too complicated. I'm sure I'll end up telling you someday, but for now, just because
I'm usually so mean to him
TrnIllusions: ahh
craXyREDhead: yea
craXyREDhead: dont worry tho, its ok. I'll tell u next time we're together
craXyREDhead: i HATE telling online
TrnIllusions: kk
TrnIllusions: s'ok i know the feeling
craXyREDhead: so have you gotten your fast paying job yet?
TrnIllusions: yep
TrnIllusions: i work laaate
craXyREDhead: wow!
TrnIllusions: im a bartender at the zone
craXyREDhead: wow!
craXyREDhead: how freaking awesome
craXyREDhead: i wanna do it!
TrnIllusions: its from 7 to 1 in the morning
TrnIllusions: lol
craXyREDhead: lol
craXyREDhead: i wanna do it
craXyREDhead: i wanna do it
TrnIllusions: teehee
TrnIllusions: if you mom would drive you alll the way here
craXyREDhead: haha
craXyREDhead: so u can take shots and stuff. bitch
craXyREDhead: lol
craXyREDhead: guess what
TrnIllusions: hah!
TrnIllusions: what?
craXyREDhead: mom got fake wine for me and colie, but its the SAME COLOR as the one they're bringing (the real stuff) so we can take that
instead when they're not home!
craXyREDhead: or in the hotel room
TrnIllusions: heh, thats funny
craXyREDhead: its great!
TrnIllusions: i wanna go!
craXyREDhead: i want u to come
TrnIllusions: : (
TrnIllusions: ::sniffle::
TrnIllusions: cry!
craXyREDhead: NO!
craXyREDhead: no no no
craXyREDhead: i got dory!
craXyREDhead: shes in my lap
TrnIllusions: waaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
TrnIllusions: i want my sarah!!!!! waaaahhhhhhhhhh
craXyREDhead: awww
craXyREDhead: i want your sara tooo
craXyREDhead: so how much do you make and when do u get paid?
TrnIllusions: thats pretty much why ive been crying all day, and the song didnt help
TrnIllusions: 7 an hour
craXyREDhead: woad
craXyREDhead: woah*
TrnIllusions: plus tips
craXyREDhead: thats awesome
TrnIllusions: ya
craXyREDhead: thats like, really good
TrnIllusions: im happy
craXyREDhead: lol
craXyREDhead: minium wage is like 3 an hour
craXyREDhead: GO LAUREN!!!
TrnIllusions: yep ! lol
craXyREDhead: i took a weght class yesterday
craXyREDhead: and im soooo soar
craXyREDhead: sore*
TrnIllusions: yeah, i am from daily swimming
TrnIllusions: poor jackie
TrnIllusions: wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
craXyREDhead: NO
craXyREDhead: its like no matter what I say you cry
TrnIllusions: lol, im sorry
TrnIllusions: damn song!
TrnIllusions: fucker, die!
TrnIllusions: lol
craXyREDhead: lol
TrnIllusions: k, ill stop
TrnIllusions: : )
craXyREDhead: thank u
TrnIllusions: lol
TrnIllusions: welcomer
craXyREDhead: i have to finish packing
TrnIllusions: kk
craXyREDhead: so how is everthing with broan?
craXyREDhead: omg
craXyREDhead: lol
craXyREDhead: brian*
TrnIllusions: hes doin okay, but hes really sick
TrnIllusions: hes got cancer
TrnIllusions: so im trying to take care of him
craXyREDhead: omg
TrnIllusions: as much as i can
craXyREDhead: he has cancer
craXyREDhead: omg
TrnIllusions: yeah
craXyREDhead: that is terrible
TrnIllusions: i know
TrnIllusions: my day is sad today
TrnIllusions: i just found out this morning
craXyREDhead: lauren, your life is like shit lately
TrnIllusions: i know
TrnIllusions: it sucks
craXyREDhead: im so sorry
craXyREDhead: where is it?
TrnIllusions: his lungs
craXyREDhead: does he smoke?
TrnIllusions: from second hand smake
craXyREDhead: omg
TrnIllusions: no
craXyREDhead: thats the worst when you dont even do the smoking
craXyREDhead: im so sry. me and nicole will pray for you
craXyREDhead: and him
TrnIllusions: thank you love
craXyREDhead: your welcome love
TrnIllusions: love!
craXyREDhead: is he doing anything to remove it?
TrnIllusions: i love you jackie!
craXyREDhead: i love you lauren!
TrnIllusions: yeah, hes goin thru chemo
craXyREDhead: :'(
TrnIllusions: but brian and i have been seeing each other for a while, for like a year weve known
each other, and been really good friends, he gets outta highschool next year, and he told me today
if he died, that he loves me, and if he were to get married, i would be the first on his mind
TrnIllusions: it was so sweet
craXyREDhead: aww
craXyREDhead: that is so sweet
craXyREDhead: do you love him too?
TrnIllusions: i know, so im taking as much care of him as i can
TrnIllusions: yeah, i love him more than anything
craXyREDhead: awww
TrnIllusions: its quite an awakening from michael, because michael never promised anything
craXyREDhead: I just cant believe he has cancer. It's just so unexpected
craXyREDhead: yea
TrnIllusions: i know...it was for me too
craXyREDhead: so are you over mike?
TrnIllusions: yes, i am
TrnIllusions: surprisingly
TrnIllusions: hes just a boy to me now, who has no control over his horomones
craXyREDhead: lol
craXyREDhead: im glad
TrnIllusions: i still have love for him , yes, and i will always be here for him
TrnIllusions: i just wont waste my life on something that will never be
craXyREDhead: I'm glad tho. I mean this is good. Now you dont have to keep your mind on him and Brooke
TrnIllusions: yeah , i know
TrnIllusions: brian needs me, and i wont let anything get in the way
TrnIllusions: ::sigh:: oh well for michael
craXyREDhead: See, it all turned out well with Brooke. Like if she wasn't in zee picture, there wouldnt be as big of an odstical to mike, and you'd
probabaly still have feelings for him
TrnIllusions: hey, thinking of it, im going to call him, and see how he is, ill be on later
TrnIllusions: yeah, true
craXyREDhead: ok
craXyREDhead: bye!
craXyREDhead: tell him hi for me
TrnIllusions: bye, love
TrnIllusions: i will
craXyREDhead: and that I'm praying
craXyREDhead: thank u
TrnIllusions: welcome love
craXyREDhead: bye shewwty
craXyREDhead: haha
TrnIllusions: byeas baby
TrnIllusions signed off at 5:16:49 PM. 
