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RAMBLINGS

I guess for everyone, there comes a time in life when we feel like the whole world is against us, like life is against us, like God himself is against us. The feeling of utter loneliness when yet, we are surrounded by other people kills us slowly, eats us from within, biting at every inch of our heart and soul until nothing else is left other than darkness, the cold chill of darkness. We question our very existance, our purpose in life, when all we are really asking is if anybody cares about us.
Well, for me, that time is now. They say a picture can say a thousand words, but I have nothing to show, only pain and loneliness. How do we get past the things we know not, the truths we don’t wish to hear and the never ending heartache that follows? I’ve tried my best, countless times before to hold it in, to hang on back only wishing for things to get better when in actual fact, it slowly sucks me in deeper into despair. And now I can’t get out. Ah, the ramblings of a mad man.
Truth be said that the only thing that matters most to me in life is love. And what happens when youre not loved, or worse are not allowed to? It hurts to think that the people you care about most, don’t care at all, and even if they do, they just keep on hurting you. I tried everything I could. I’ve loved as much as I could, I’ve tried all that I could. And so the story ends like everything else, dark, cold, and alone.

MAZHAR
(18th JULY 2003)


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