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In a path where I did so swell
I met a boy I loved so well
He came into my heart by me
And now this boy has set me free.
He took another girl upon his knee
And told her things he never told me
For this i know the reason why,
For this girl was much prettier than I.
That night I went home and cried on my bed
And not a word to my mother was said.
My father came home later that night
And searched the house from left to right
And through a door he had broken down
And saw me hanging without a frown
On the bedside a note was found
And to this note these words were bound
"Dig a hole and dig it deep,
In a marble tomb From head to feet
And on that tomb Please place a dove
And tell the world I died for love"
"I never really loved you,
I never really cared.
Until I felt your terror,
upon me you just stared.
I can't believe you've done this,
I can't believe you dared.
Not until you killed yourself,
did others find they cared

"We do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe."

-Johann von Goethe

Something Corporate - Walking By

Your grand dad left home for the circus.
He was young just like me,
with hope to explore.
He married a girl in Virginia.
She could swing the trapeze; they could sleep on the floor.

Your mother was born in December,
on the one sunny day that winter gave up.
She had warm summer eyes that flickered like fireflies,
when she stared at the world.

So why do you leave these stories unfinished,
my Cheshire cat doorstop with tears in her eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found it?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?

She was raised in a New England village.
Then she moved to LA with her firefly stare,
and you loved sunset strip when it sparkled,
you grew up and you sparkled but why don't you care?

So why do you leave these stories unfinished,
my Cheshire cat doorstop with tears in her eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found me?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?

These nights I get high just from breathing.
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real,
like that firework over the freeway.
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.

So why do you leave these questions unanswered?
The circus awaits and you're already gone.
My Cheshire cat doorstop with fear in your smile,
what makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
Why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
Where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?

Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today

- James Dean

REMEMBER me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

- Christina Rossetti

Live fast, die young, and have a good looking corpse.

Corey Taylor-Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry,
A self affliction face.
Stones to throw at my creator,
Masochist to which I cater.

You don’t need to bother,
I don’t need to be.
I’ll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’till it bleeds.

Wish I was too dead to care,
If indeed I cared at all.
Never had a voice to protest,
So you fed me shit to digest.

I wish I had a reason,
My thoughts are open season.
For this I gave up trying,
One good time deserves my dying.

You don’t need to bother,
I don’t need to be.
I’ll keep slipping farther,
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’till it bleeds.

Wish I’d died instead of lived,
A zombie hides my face.
Shelf forgotten with it’s memories,
Diaries left with cryptic entries

And you don’t need to bother,
I don’t need to be,
I’ll keep slipping farther.
But once I hold on,
I won’t let go ’till it bleeds.

You don’t need to bother,
I don’t need to be, yeah,
I’ll keep slipping farther.
But once I hold on, once I hold on,
I’ll never live down my disease.

"You can fool some of the people all of the time, and all of the people some of the time, but you can not fool all of the people all of the time."

-Abraham Lincoln

Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis de Bernieres

Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.
Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness,
it is not excitement,
it is not the promulgation of eternal passion.
That is just being "in love", which any fool can do.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away,
and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
Those that truly love, have roots that grow towards each other underground,
and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from their branches,
they find that they are one tree and not two.

Hope is the denial of reality

-Margaret Weis

"10 Things I Hate About You"

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick --
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh --
Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way
I don't hate you --
Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.

"The world is a dangerous place to live, not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it."

-Albert Einstein

Death Not Being The Way

I held the knife so close to my heart.
Like a foolish child I sat and I cried,
Didn't realize what I had done, what I had tried.
Tears mixed with blood, falling slowly to the ground.
Covered in blood, pulled myself up, in tears scribed:

"To those who don't care, to those who can't see,
Never Give up always thrive to be free."
Didn't know how many people would later cry.
"Tried to be free, yet I see this isn't the way."

Friend at the door, ran as fast as she could.
Too weak to say I'm sorry, otherwise I would.
In tears, looked at the blue sad day.
When you come and see this pool of blood and me,
This isn't the way my life was meant to be.

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

-Frank Herbert, Dune, "Litany Against Fear", 1965

Aerosmith - I Dont Want To Miss A Thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."

-Eleanor Roosevelt

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you, My soul cried.
Heaving heart is full of pain.

1 Corinthians 13: 1-13

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love,
I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.

And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

And if I dole out all my goods, and if I deliver my body that I may boast but have not love, nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering, love is kind, it is not jealous,
love does not boast, it is not inflated.

It is not discourteous,
it is not selfish,
it is not irritable,
it does not enumerate the evil.
It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth

It covers all things,
it has faith for all things,
it hopes in all things,
it endures in all things.

Love never falls in ruins; but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or tongues, they will cease; or knowledge, it will be superseded.

For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.

When I was an infant,
I spoke as an infant,
I reckoned as an infant;

when I became an adult, I abolished the things of the infant.

For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.

But now remains
faith, hope, love,

these three;

but the greatest of these is love

Metallica - Nothing Else Matters

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters

Busted - Losing You

Sitting here alone thinking it through trying to convince myself that I'm
Not losing you,
Or can't you just forget the things I said
I was angry at the time but now I cleared my head
It was so strong, where did it all go wrong

So tell me why, I'm swimming against the tide
And I'm praying for a lifeline,
cos I'm Losing you
So tell me why, you took care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand,
Wont stand, losing you

You don't have to say a word its in your eyes
What can I do to convince you we need more time
And I know I may have made a few mistakes
But losing you is just too much for me to take
It was so strong, where did it all go wrong

So tell me what to say
Because I need, a chance to change
And I wont let you walk away

Faith Hill - There You'll Be

When I think back on these times
And the dreams we left behind
I’ll be glad cause I was blessed to get to have you in my life

When I look back on these days
I’ll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be

Well you showed me how it feels
To feel the sky within my reach
And I always will remember all the strength you gave to me
You’re love made me make it through
Oh I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be

Cause I always saw in you my light, my strength
And I want to thank you now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

In my dreams I’ll always see you soaring by the sky
In my heart there’ll always be a place for you
For all my life

I’ll keep a part of you with me
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
And everywhere I am there you’ll be
There you’ll be……..

Tony Bennett - The Way You Look Tonight

Someday when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
I feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.
Oh, but you're lovely with your smile so warm
And your cheek so soft
There is nothing for me to love you
And the way you look tonight
With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fear apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose touches my foolish heart
Lovely, never ever change
Keep that breathless charr
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight...

~never frown, even when you are sad, cause you never know who is falling in love with your smile~

~i'd rather be hated for something i am than to be loved for something i'm not~

~smart girls are more interested in having fun than trying to look perfect~

~boys say you're ugly, boys say you're dirt, boys say all these things and expect them not to hurt, so next time you say it remember how we feel...to you it may be a joke but to us its a big deal~

~always be yourself cause those who mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind~

~for every minute you spend angry, you loose 60 seconds of happiness~

~should i smile cause you're my friend, or cry cause that's all we'll ever be?~

~no guy is worth your tears and when you find one that is, he won't make you cry~

~i'd rather be hated for something i am than to be loved for something i'm not~

~friends are like angels, they become your wings when you forget how to fly~

~to be loved by someone is something but to be loved by the one you love is everything~

~guys are like rollercoasters, either they make you sick or give you the thrill of your life~

~you say you hate me, but should i be upset? because it takes a lot more energy and effort to hate someone that to like them... thanks for spending the extra time on me~

~to the world your just one person but to one person you could mean the world~

~love is when you don't wanna go to sleep cause reality is better than a dream~

~a girl and a guy can be just friends, but at one point or another they will fall for each other..maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever~

~im not supposed to love you, im not supposed to care, im not supposed ot live my life, wishing you were there, im not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do, im sorry i just cant help myself, i fell in love with you~

~think highly of yourself, the world takes you at your own estimate~

~it takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone~

~i ran up the door and closed the stairs, said my pajamas and put on my prayers, turned off the bed and hoped into the light all because you kissed me goodnight~

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