My Feelings For Today
Mood:  a-ok
My Song


Today is an-ok day classes went fine and I am going to see my mother today. I have not seen her in four months and it is special for me to see her. My mother is my heart and without her I feel I am nothing. But I shall tell later how it went with our visit. Until then later.

Thank Yous
Mood:  blue
My Song

I met a wonderful person a few days ago in a chatroom at like 5 in the morning. We started chatting and getting to know one another she is an amazing individual. I have never been able to feel close to someone in such a short. She makes me smile and feel good about myself even when death is my main thought, she makes me see why I am still her. She makes me laugh when she turns red, bows her head, or blushes. I like her and really like getting to know her, maybe someday we shall be more, or maybe not. It all depends on time and our hearts.

My Depression
Mood:  don't ask
My Song

My feeling for tonight are dark.I feel depressed and alone. I thought of my past and the shit I went through and it made me sad and depressed. I feel very much like cutting but I will try not to, but the urge is so strong. I will fight to hold my mind for a while longer. I am not sure how long I can because the urge is so strong. Fight it.. Fight it.