Now Playing: A Broken Heart - A Broken Dream

BY AMANDA VASQUEZ MARCH 2004

A broken dream; a broken heart.
That’s what he’ll leave me with when we part.
He is my first love, my true love, my one and only.
But, it won’t be long before he leaves me – leaves me to be lonely.
He doesn’t show his love, he hides from me any care.
And I find this senselessness to be quite unfair.
He hasn’t given me happiness, as a true love ceases.
He hasn’t given me love, only a heart falling to pieces.
I can’t decide what to do - whom to tell of these fears.
I don’t know whom I can trust to know of all my tears.
It must be the bitter reality of it all.
That really makes the teardrops fall.
Or is it that I’ve never felt this way before,
And he doesn’t love me anymore.
Or maybe he just never did love me that way.
And he prolly never will – never love me any day.
But, I will cherish this time we have together.
And keep dreaming of him and what we were.
I will not stop wishing on each and every star.
And I’ll never stop loving him – even from afar.

Now Playing: A BROKEN HEART
BY AMANDA VASQUEZ APRIL 2004

How can he get pleasure
out of my pain?
How does he know what to do to drive me completely insane?
How can he hurt me so much and not even care?
I would have never have donethis to him,
I wouldn't have dared.
He breaks my heart with every word he says and still has the energy to laugh in my face.
I can turn my back and look another way,
but i can't hide from the hurt he has left to stay.
I yell out of anger and cry out of pain,
I sit here driving myself crazy
while he is perfectly sane.
I wish he could feel everything,
Everything he has brought on to me,
so he could feel miserable and ler me be.


I WROTE THIS POEM WHILE I WAS DEPRESSED IN BED FOR 2 MONTHS AFTER THE BIG TRAUMATIZING BREAKUP WITH THE EX!!

Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: A DAUGHTER'S GRIEF
written for my father robert j. vasquez (may you rest in peace dad!)

I did not weep when my father died.
The pain and heartache,held
inside.
There were no teardrops from
my eyes.
but my soul was screaming to the skies.
Mourners gathered,offering
sympathy,
for one who meant so much to me.
I sat and watched this sad parade,
that family and friends to
the coffin made.
I focused on that precious
man,
who consoled,and inspired as no other can.
I could not fathom,that from
now on,
my beloved father was forever gone.
I remembered how loving he could be.
He sacrificed daily for his family.
He was so proud of my sister and me.
The look on his face,so
joyful to see.
If this had proven,only a dream,
this desolation,would never
have been.
Acceptance will come,as it
must,
for these tragic losses,one must adjust.
My father will live in my memory.
No force on earth,can take that from me.

Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: I Miss You
BY AMANDA VASQUEZ
DEDICATED TO MY LOVER, FRIEND, THE FATHER OF MY SON, THE MAN WHO MAKES ME SMILE WHEN IM DOWN!!


Baby I miss you every day and night
Wishing I could be there to hold you tight
There's nothing in this world I'd rather do
Than to spend each moment of my life with you
No one's ever brought this much joy to my life
I can't wait til the day that I will be your wife

Baby I promise I will always be true
You show me a kind of love I never knew
At times I cry because I feel so lonely
Just wanting you here to hold me
I know that day when we will be together again will soon come
And I'll just wait here patiently and faithfully
Until the day that you come back home
When that day comes never again will we part
Mauricio , I miss you and love you with all my heart!


i wrote this 2 years ago when i was lost in my fairy tale world before reality bitch slapped me!!

Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: A Daughter's Grief
WRITTEN BY AMANDA VASQUEZ
WRITTEN FOR MY NOW RESTING FATHER, ROBERT (BOUIE) J. VASQUEZ


I'M SORRY FOR ALL THE HARSH WORDS IN THE PAST
SOMETIMES YOU NEVER KNOW IF WORDS YOU SAY WILL BE THE LAST
I WANTED TO SEE YOU GET A CLEAN START
I SAID WHAT I SAID BECAUSE I CARED, IT CAME FROM THE HEART
I WANTED MY SON TO KNOW YOU
BUT FOR THE TRUE YOU
I ALWAYS ASKED HOW YOU WERE
IF YOU WERE OK AND IF THEY WERE SURE
I WANT YOU TO KNOW I ALWAYS AND STILL CARE
I'M HURTING TOO, EVEN THOUGH FOR THE PAST YEAR I HAVEN'T BEEN THERE
I CRY ALONE, BECAUSE I AM THE TOUGH, STRONG ONE
NO ONE CAN SEE OR KNOW
I WILL ALWAYS CHERISH AND REMEMBER YOU
YOU'RE MY DAD, THE ONLY ONE I KNEW
GOD HAS TAKEN YOU TO A BETTER AND SAFER PLACE
ALL YOUR SINS AND PROBLEMS WILL BE ERASED
YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN THIS MUCH IS TRUE
ALWAYS REMEMBER I LOVE YOU!!



I WROTE THIS FOR MY DAD 3 DAYS AFTER I WAS NOTIFIED OF HIS DEATH THATS WHEN IT FINALLY HIT ME!! WE HADNT SPOKEN IN OVER A YEAR PRIOR TO HIS DEATH AND OUR LAST WORDS WEREN'T THE KINDEST, AT LEAST MINE WEREN'T!! I WROTE THIS AND READ THIS AT THE FUNERAL TO LET MY TRUE FEELINGS OUT AND TO SHOW I DO HAVE A HEART AND I WAS DEVASTATED BY HIS DEATH!! (R.I.P. DAD WE WILL BE A FAMILY AGAIN SOMEDAY, KEEP THE GATES OPEN FOR ME AND KEEP MY BEER COLD!!)

WORDS OF WISDOM
# Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.

# Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.

# You can only go as far as you push.

# Actions speak louder than words.

# The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.

# Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.

# Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.

# A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.

# Some people make the world special just by being in it.

# Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

# When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friends will be there.

# True friendship "NEVER" ends...friends are forever.

# Good friends are like shooting stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

# Don't frown... you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

# What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?

# Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.

# Everything is okay in the end... if it's not okay, then it's not the end.

# Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

# Love is when two people who care for each other get confused.

LOVE & MARRIAGE
Mood:  chatty
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I recently read that love is entirely a matter of chemistry. That must be why my wife treats me like toxic waste. - David Bissonette
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I'm an excellent housekeeper. Every time I get a divorce, I keep the house. - Zsa Zsa Gabor
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When a man steals your wife, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her. - Sacha Guitry
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Marriage is like a cage; one sees the birds outside desperate to get in, and those inside desperate to get out. - Montaigne
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After marriage, husband and wife become two sides of a coin; they just can't face each other, but still they stay together. -- Hemant Joshi
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A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. A successful woman is one who can find such a man. - Lana Turner
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Marriage is a great institution, but I'm not ready for an institution. - Mae West
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"I was married by a judge...I should have asked for a jury." - George Burns

Unknown Author Quotes

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Marriage is the triumph of imagination over intelligence. Second marriage is the triumph of hope over experience.
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Marriage is when a man and woman become as one; the trouble starts when they try to decide which one.
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Marriages are made in heaven. But so is thunder and lightning.
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Before marriage, a man yearns for the woman he loves. After marriage, the 'Y' becomes silent.
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Do not marry a person that you know that you can live with; only marry someone that you cannot live without.
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I had some words with my wife, and she had some paragraphs with me.
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If you want your spouse to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say, talk in your sleep.
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Behind every successful man stands an amazed Mother-in-Law!
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When a man talks dirty to a woman, it's sexual harassment. When a woman talks dirty to a man, it's $3.95 a minute.

LOST INSULTS
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If you can't live without me, why aren't you dead already?
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You'd make a lovely corpse!
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I never forget a face, but in your case I'll make an exception.
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Is that a beard, or are you eating a muskrat?
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Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?
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You're a wit with dunces, and a dunce with wits...huh?
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Did you eat a brain tumor for breakfast?
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You love nature in spite of what it did to you?
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I want to reach your mind - where is it currently located?
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I wish I'd known you when you were alive.
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If you ever had a bright idea, it would be beginner's luck!
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What's on your mind? If you'll forgive the overstatement.
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When you go to the mind reader, do you get half price?
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I look into your eyes and get the feeling someone else is driving.
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You're a mouse studying to be a rat.
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Don't look now, but there's one too many in this room and I think it's you.
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Every time I'm next to you, I get a fierce desire to be alone.
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I can't believe that out of 100,000 sperm, you were the quickest!
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If you ever become a mother, can I have one of the puppies?
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There's nothing wrong with you that reincarnation won't cure.
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Why don't you bore a hole in yourself and let the sap run out?
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You're a good example of why some animals eat their young.

you are my angel
Do You Remember All The Good Times
And Bad Times That We Shared,
All The Hopes And Dreams We Had
Nothing Else Could Ever Compare.



There Will Always Be A Place
Down Deep Inside My Heart,
A Special Place Where Only You
Will Occupy That Part.



I Will Always Remember
All The Beauty And The Grace,
Your Smile As Bright As Sunshine
And Your Beautiful Angelic Face.



The Way Your Body Felt
As I Held You Close To Me,
In My Heart And In My Soul
Is Where You'll Always Be.



God Gave Me An Angel
To Call My Very Own,
Now We'll Always Be Together
From This Moment On.



Send this to all the "Angels" in your life!

Poem written by Mark Childre

WORDS OF WISDOM
Mood:  cool

1. Food has replaced sex in my life. Now I can't even get into my own pants.
2. The closest I ever got to a 4.0 in school was my blood alcohol content.
3. Marriage changes passion...suddenly you're in bed with a relative. [Eww!]
4. I saw a woman wearing a sweatshirt with "Guess" on it...so I said "Implants?"
5. I don't do drugs anymore 'cause I find I get the same effect just standing up fast.
6. I have my own little world. But it's OK...they know me here.
7. Money can't buy happiness, but it sure makes misery easier to live with.
8. I got a sweater for Christmas...I really wanted a screamer or a moaner. If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
9. I don't approve of political jokes...I've seen too many of them get elected.
10. The most precious thing we have is life. Yet it has absolutely no trade-in value.
11. Shopping tip: You can get shoes for 85 cents at the bowling alley.
12. I am a nobody, and nobody is perfect; therefore I am perfect.
13. I married my wife for her looks...but not the ones she's been giving me lately!
14. Everyday I beat my own previous record for number of consecutive days I've stayed alive.
15. How come we choose from just two people to run for president and 50 for Miss America?
16. Isn't having a smoking section in a restaurant like having a peeing section in a swimming pool?
17. Why is it that most nudists are people you don't want to see naked?
18. Snowmen fall from Heaven unassembled.
19. Every time I walk into a singles bar I can hear Mom's wise words: "Don't pick that up, you don't know where it's been!"