I hate being confused. I feel like moving out. I don't know where i'd go. Maybe to my aunt's house. I just don't feel like mom will help me with the whole school deal. She never did before. I always had to struggle with homework by myself. I don't really want to live with my sister beause she has other younger kids and she lives so far away from town so i'd never get to see my friends. I hate having my friend over at my house because you can't even walk through it!

I've been hiding in the load of books I got. My arm about fell off trying to bike home with them. I just finished The Snow Falcon. That was an interesting book. Not the type I normally read. Now I'm reading Drawing on th right side of the brain, Wich is about "not learning to draw, but learning to see." And some book on how to do magic tricks.

I wonder if my friend is over her boyfriend now. He broke up with her the night before last. Guess what? We're all still friends! He breaks up with her and we all hang out until 3 in the morning. The whole time he was flirting with us both like crazy. It must be weird flirting with both of your ex-girlfriends. He's a dork.

I've got to go find someone to pick on today...

Drained
So, Here I am trying to find inspiration for my next masterpiece. No luck. I am so sore I can't move 'cause I rode that stupid Sky Rider thing at the fair. I blew all my money and all I got was two stuffed animals and a fuzzy orange hat that I will now wear everywhere just to see the look on people's faces. I'll surely embarress my friends. So anyway, Then I was forced to watch the finale of Outback Jack ~gag~ No one can ever find out or I'll never hear the end of it.

I think maybe I should start writing again. I came across some of my old poetry the other day and now I'm trying to do it again but my head is always so empty when it comes to those things. I remember when I was always coming up with stuff, I'm not saying it was any good but at least I could think of stuff to write about. Now my mind just goes blank.

Everyone around me is going insane! Just when I start to feel like life is good, then everyone else starts to feel shitty. WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST BE HAPPY? Next thing you know I'll have another breakdown just because I hate seeing everyone like this. Oh, and there's a hurricane heading for the town my dad lives in. Hopefully he's smart and gets out of there. I'm going to get stressed out and then freak out again.

Now I feel like going to sleep.

Ahhhhhhhhhh, Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh, Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I'm going crazy! I've been so damn busy this week and I still don't feel like I got anything done! Well, me and my boyfriend split. Woo hoo! Yeah, Now he's dating my ex best friend turned best friend again. That's not right. Who does that? So anyway school's getting closer and closer. I haven't been there in about four years and I already hate it. I'll most likely be the oldest person in the whole damn 7th grade! I'm sick of all this crap my mom has in this house. She is the worst pack rat I've ever seen. She needs to have a yard sale or burn it or something. It's driving me so crazy I want to move out. I guess it could be worse. I'll just get a job and dedicate my life to my precious motorcross!

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So, basically, here I am pouring my heart out and posting it on the internet for all to see. This is an interesting concept. It's kind of freaky. Hopefully no one I know finds this. ;)