numb
i feel so relieved.
to have finally let go of you.
who would have thought after everything
that i would have nothing left
except a numb feeling.
it still feels like some things are left uncomplete
i wish we could do it for fun
lets do it just one last time
but never again.
one last time.
but never again.
cause i cant take you anymore
i think once i got together with you
i realized that with the lack of interest
that i really do deserve better
and i have to find better
but lets do it one last time
and never again.
so we can end on good turns.
dont think bad about me
i dont think bad about you.
i dont regret you
do you regret me?
do you ever think about me?
and what you missed out on?
what could have been?
i do.
but really i dont want you back.
i couldnt even face you
i just want to stop thinking about you
altogether.
im so glad we are done
i am as happy now that we are through
as when we first started.
and i can finally breathe
and let go
and realize i am doing everything right
and that i didnt do anything wrong.
except worry about you.
and i am free.
this was a lesson to be learned.
baby you have to let me know
so you can be free.
but you did a good job.
of waiting for me to be ready
so that the blow was soft
and i couldnt just let us dissolve
i had to know it wouldnt work
i had to have it officially over
because thats what i needed to hear all along
i needed to be given the chance
and then shown that it just wouldnt work.
and now that i was givne the chance
and see for myself that it doesnt work.
it doesnt bother me.
im just numb.
and although there is no one like you
i have faith that i will find another
that is nothing like you
and everything and more that i wnat them to be
and one day everything will be fine.
everything is fine.
one day.