my poem #13- Sharp Pain
When she gets sad,
She gets something sharp.
It's this vs. the pain in her heart.
Where will she do it?
Her arms or her legs?
Once she decides,
She does it so fast.
It cuts through her skin,
And sometimes it bleeds.
But anything to get rid of the pain.
Now that she's done it,
It must be hidden.
So it's long sleeve shirts,
And long pants.
At least until she can think of a way
To blame it on her "cats"

My poem #12 - What Your friendship Means to me (Kris's birthday poem)
It's light, it's love, it's full of grace
It's strength, it's beauty, it is lace
Your friendship brings out the best in me
It opens my eyes so I can see

Our friendship grows as each day passes
We talk we laugh, we fall on our asses!
Your friendship to me is my world
and I know you'd be there if I hurled

We shine the best when we're together
Just you and me, kristina and Heather
I hope our friendship lasts until we die
cause when we're together there's no reason to sigh!

So this is a gift from me to you
It's words, it's thoughts, it's feelings too
but as I finish I must say
i hope you have a happy birthday!

My poem # 11- Again
I cried again over you,
I thought those feelings were through
I've been hiding from myself.
It's easier to keep it inside,
than to tell you i want you by my side.
cause once I tell you how I feel that makes it true,
and that means I can get hurt by you.
The last time I told you how I felt,
all you said was well... nothing I wanted to hear.
You told me you didn't want to love me
and call me dear.
You love someone else, and I don't love you.
i should think how I really feel.
Well I've thought all I can,
and you were wrong,
my feeling were true.
Love you I do.
I love you now,
i loved you then,
I love you again.

my poem # 10- The waiting game
I've decided to wait
for your heart to find me, fate.
I thought about it, and I do still love you,
even though my heart you broke in two.
When I last told you how I felt,
when I told you your words make me melt.

my poem # 9 - Stress
You tell me that you're stressed,
that I don't understand you best.
Well how could i not
i too face stress in many a ways,
my heart too has been broken, and I confused,
I've freaked over nothing,
crying tears I've already said.
Missing what I had,or what I want,whishing I was dead
But I also cry myself to sleep,
cut into my skin, in so deep.
I try to feel
But i can't heel.
the pain i recognize, i know it well,
one of the few things I know will be there,
maybe not to bring me cheer.
but if I ever feel the way I tend to usually do,
I just search for feeling,
get rid of what is numbing my body and soul.
What on my heart is taking its toll.
I cut, I dig, I scratch it out,
I wonder what's my life all about?
Now, can I not at least try to understand your stress,
we are all different that I know
but I could at least help you figure out what to wear to the show.....

Quotes #1
"Ama me fideliter! Fidem meam noto: De corde totaliter, Et ex mente tota, Sum presentialiter, absens in remota."

"Love knows no reasons,
Love knows no lies.
Love defies all reasons,
Love has no eyes.
But Love is not blind,
Love sees but does not mind!"

"You don't marry someone you can live with,
you marry someone you can't live without!"

"There is no fear in love;
but perfect love casteth out fear:
because fear hath torment.
He that feareth is not made perfect in love!"

"Love is a fire.
But whether it is going to warm your heart or
burn down your house, you can never tell!"

my poem # 8 - If
If

If you should ever read this,
all i've ever wanted is your loving kiss.
To feel you wrap your arms around me whenever you I miss!
to gaze into your caring eyes and feel your love gazing back.
All I've ever wanted is you,
but I shall not say a word,
as your heart you have given to another

My poem #7-Look
Look

With everything I have in this life and the ones to come, I love you!
I cry when you leave,
I fall to pieces when you're gone,
I know this isn't just a temporary feeling,
as you say "it's just a crush!"
My heart is yours, but you have no idea
and your heart is with another,
who's is also chasing another.
All I need is for you to take a closer look,
for the love that is right infront of you,
the love you already took!
The love that believes you never will!

My poem #6- Alive but Dead
Alive but Dead

My blood is flowing
air filling my lungs
my heart beating,
but without your love
all these facts mean nothing
I'm dead!

My poem #5- Screaming Truth
Screaming Truth

As they pull my arms towards them
and peer in a state of fear
at the 'cuts' covering my skin,
all I scream is lies of their birth
Even though my heart
is screaming for the truth!