Sarah can like someone "just a little" or just have a small "crush". I, however, cannot. Oh, it sucks. I hate it when I like someone. Last spring it was Jordan, affectionately known as "Veggie Burger" and I found myself thinking of nothing but him. I couldn't breathe when he was near me and I always hoped that he would be. Like all of my crushes, though, the relationship grew into a friendship. Which is nice, but not what I intended to come out of it. Why is is that when I like someone, they never like me back? Man, it's tough. Well, now a new crush has entered my life. Oh yes. Phil is now the centerof my life, the reason I drag myself out of bed each morning to go to school. He is soo very attractive, very intelligent, funny, and most importantly, shares many of the same religious beliefs as I. From my point of view, we would be the perfect match. It hasn't seemed to work out that way. Bah. All of my friends have boyfriends. Sarah and Kayla are both dating guys five years older than them. Illegal? It think so. And today I found out that my best friend is a slut. Yes, she has slept with four guys in the past year or so, starting as a sophomore. And it wasn't her that told me, no, I had to sneakily find out from someone else. It hurts me soo much to learn this, I always was part of the "V" club with her, and we always talked about saving oursleves. She lied to me. I don't know what to do now. Should I confront her? Or just give up? I am currently opting for the latter. She is too far gone, and doesn't see the wrong in her actions. It makles me sad when my friends make bad choices, like drinking and smoking and sleeping around. At least there are thjose few I can always depend on. Phil, for example. He has a ring that says "True Love Waits" He is a guy, saving himeself for marriage. Oh, if it could only be me...ah. What a EMO POST. And, hopefull, no one will ever come to my website and read this post. Oh, we can only hope.