~7-22-03~
Well i still havent talked to joh he is still over in iraq! :*( i wish he would come home. i care about him very much. it seems like no one wants us to be together. everyone always questions' our relationship like they have anything to do with it anyway. well i can't say eeryone but there are a couple people. i dont understand why though...!!! His mother is the most wonderful person in the world and her husband is no different. they are wonderful people..:D and about my mom she hasnt called since the day she called me to tell me that my real father was wanting to meet me, after 16 years. her and her b/f broke up he moved back to st. louis and she is takin it pretty ruff. as my sister says. they were together for 17 years that is a long time..my sister seems to be doing better, and my brother does too. he is working and he is helping my mom out. i dont know how much more my life could be messed up. i feel like i am at the bottoms now. i dont really know what to do or say naymore..i dont really care honestly! there are very few people i care about now-a-days. if it werent for john i would be runnin away again. he means alot to me. i ahd nothing to look foward to before he came along! so thank you john! you are my world i love you baby!