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I was so in love with this one guy named Alex Vasquez. Me & him were together for 1 year..& like 3 months & i was totally in love with him. He told me we were suppose to be together forever..we made plans on runnin away together..& well lets just say that never came true all though i really wanted to.
Im only 15 years old & he is 18. When I met him he was 16 so yea we were friends for a pretty long time. We went threw so much together & i never wanted it to end. I wanted to be his Ride or Die chick..ya kno what i mean. I mean I would do anything for him. REAL TALK. Ok well me & him were going threw some problems we were gettin real bad. We would tell each other that we hated each other..Thats how far we went.Well we didnt talk for a LONG time & well on Christmas Eve my little sister had a real bad seizure & I called him to tell him cuz i needed to tell someone . So ok he was like alright call me if u need anything & i was like ok cool. & Later that night I went home & I couldnt sleep cuz i didnt wanna dream so I called him & asked him if he could sleep with me & he was like na i aint go no battery & i was like aright then & i hung up...So i called my best friend JR & i asked him if he could wait till i fall asleep & he did.So the next day Alex calls me & he was like so who did u talk too? & i was like oh muh home boy JR & he hung up on me & he called me bak & left me a voicemail saying that he hates me & that he always knew i was a little slut..& wen he told me that..oh my god that hurt me so bad. But then 3 weeks later he calls & he was like i didnt call to tell you sorry. & i was like ok cool what do u want? & he was like na i jus wanna talk & i was like ok..& well yea i talked to him.& after that he never called me so i was like ...=/ whatever. Ok so one night like 4 days ago he calls me tellin me that he needs someone to talk to & that he feels lonley & if i could talk to him for awhile & i was thinkin in my head? wen i needed him to be there he wasnt there..but then i was like fuck it. He needs me i cant be a bitch. Ok & besides i promised him i was always gonna be there for him.So yea he told me wat was wrong with him & of course i tried to help him & i think we got bak to gether..so likee the next day we got into a fight cuz he thought i was on the phone? so he got mad at me and called me a fuckin idiot & i was like hell na im not gonna let him talk to me like that. so yea he broke up with me i guess haha & i was like ok & he was like fuck you you always do something to fuck it up & i was like ok & he was like ur nothing but a lying ass hoe =(((( *tear* omg i couldnt stop crying cuz i never thought he would tell me something like that. so like 1 hour later he calls me & i was like fuck you dont fuckn call me anymore i fuckn hate u. & well he never called me.....=( why do i feel like i cant move one?
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