I'm feeling a little heavy hearted today...It's been a long time since I cried....I mean, really cried and I feel like I need to let it out of my system. Everyone has their own way of relieving whatever burdens they shoulder. Some people drink it away, some people sleep it off.....me, I do it by crying. I don't know what it is about crying, but it's as if by crying, I'm letting all the bad feelings flow out of my body through my tears.

I never want anyone to see me cry, not because I see it as a sign of weakness, but more because it's a moment of solitude and reflection for me. I take a step back and I look at myself and think about all of the things that are bothering me and the things that are important to me. I look at my past and think about everyone that has come in and out of my life and how they have impacted me. I think about all the mistakes that I have made and how they have become ingrained within me, like a scar that will never fade away with time but instead serves as a constant reminder. I try to answer all the questions that I have floating around inside my head. I try to forget about everything just for that brief moment in time when I cry. Perhaps it's my way of temporarily escaping from the heaviness in my heart and for that I cry. And tomorrow, I put on the happy smile that has come to be my trademark signture