deaDLypanDemiC: can we talk?
deaDLypanDemiC: listen
deaDLypanDemiC: i love you
deaDLypanDemiC: so much
deaDLypanDemiC: i dont know why u think i lied
deaDLypanDemiC: or who told you i did
BeeFy bOy 162: i cant be with someone who hides
things from me and can lie about it to my face
deaDLypanDemiC: i havent lied
deaDLypanDemiC: thats the thing
deaDLypanDemiC: is this about cooper?
BeeFy bOy 162: i love you but honestly i dont think we
can keep fighting like this
BeeFy bOy 162: its bad for both of us
BeeFy bOy 162: no its not about coop
deaDLypanDemiC: the only thing that you can even
say ive lied about is the other night with the pot
BeeFy bOy 162: is it?
BeeFy bOy 162: are you sure?
BeeFy bOy 162: cus im not
BeeFy bOy 162: im sure of the opposite
deaDLypanDemiC: well tell me?
deaDLypanDemiC: plz
deaDLypanDemiC: i mean seriouisly i just wanna
know
BeeFy bOy 162: if u cant tell me, then im not bringing it
up, honestly, theres one last thing that u didnt tell me that
im pissed about that you swore to me about
BeeFy bOy 162: and you swore to me
BeeFy bOy 162: and it was a lie
deaDLypanDemiC: n btw you brought back the
sweatshirt that i bought you back here
BeeFy bOy 162: i kno
deaDLypanDemiC: why
deaDLypanDemiC: its yours
deaDLypanDemiC: i didnt cheat
deaDLypanDemiC: i wasnt on drugs
BeeFy bOy 162: i dont want to seem like i was with you
just for sex n monetary things cus it was about the
connection
BeeFy bOy 162: not the sex
BeeFy bOy 162: remeber when u asked me if i would
rather date you than fuck you
deaDLypanDemiC: doesnt matter its still yours
deaDLypanDemiC: yea
BeeFy bOy 162: i cant keep it
BeeFy bOy 162: it hurts to look at it
deaDLypanDemiC: how do you think i feel?
deaDLypanDemiC: i didnt break up with you
because i wanted to talk
deaDLypanDemiC: and you wont evcen talk to me
deaDLypanDemiC: honestly
deaDLypanDemiC: i mean how can we solve
anything if we cant talk
deaDLypanDemiC: remember when i said i would
die without you
BeeFy bOy 162: u cant do that
BeeFy bOy 162: thats not rite
BeeFy bOy 162: thats a guilt trio
BeeFy bOy 162: trip
deaDLypanDemiC: no its not
deaDLypanDemiC: its i love you
deaDLypanDemiC: your oviously better off without
me
deaDLypanDemiC: im not there for you
deaDLypanDemiC: ill give you that
BeeFy bOy 162: im not and im hurting but i cant
continue like this
deaDLypanDemiC: u didnt give us time to stop it
BeeFy bOy 162: i did
deaDLypanDemiC: no
BeeFy bOy 162: its been building for a while like this
deaDLypanDemiC: because whenever we get into
fights you go off n do drugs
deaDLypanDemiC: r u talking about last night when
i was asking bobby what drug u were doing and he
said he didnt know.. and i said if he was lying to me i
would never talk to him again?
BeeFy bOy 162: no
BeeFy bOy 162: but that did piss me off that u couldnt
ask me
deaDLypanDemiC: because
deaDLypanDemiC: every time i tryed to talk to you
deaDLypanDemiC: u told me to get the fuck away
BeeFy bOy 162: part of my anger management was
learning not to try to talk out a problem when your still
heated about it
deaDLypanDemiC: okay
deaDLypanDemiC: im sorry
BeeFy bOy 162: when im pissed i need space
BeeFy bOy 162: this is just as painful for me as it is for
you
deaDLypanDemiC: i can get that
BeeFy bOy 162: u read the letter
deaDLypanDemiC: many times
deaDLypanDemiC: its in my hand now
BeeFy bOy 162: it mightve gottten wet when i was
writing it..
BeeFy bOy 162: it hurt to write it
BeeFy bOy 162: but i cant do this
deaDLypanDemiC: it hurts me 2
BeeFy bOy 162: idk what to say
deaDLypanDemiC: u left me crying
deaDLypanDemiC: again
deaDLypanDemiC: everytime i cry you leave
BeeFy bOy 162: then u kno what, im a bad person, and
a bad boyfirend, and a bad fiance and you should just
forget about me
BeeFy bOy 162: im bad for you
deaDLypanDemiC: i cant
deaDLypanDemiC: dont u get it
deaDLypanDemiC: if i didnt wanna b with you i
wouldnt have spent 4 yrs of my life on you
BeeFy bOy 162: same here but i cant do the back and
forth bullshit
deaDLypanDemiC: so what r we going to do?
BeeFy bOy 162: i am a very paranoid-able person, and
when i catch u in one lie, it raises suspicion, second lie,
raises doubts, third lie, idk what to believe and i lie
awake trying to figure out what the next one is
BeeFy bOy 162: i have trust issues and i cant deal with
that
BeeFy bOy 162: i get that from my parents every single
day
deaDLypanDemiC: so what does this mean?
deaDLypanDemiC: ...
deaDLypanDemiC: fo us
deaDLypanDemiC: for us*
deaDLypanDemiC: for me
deaDLypanDemiC: for you
BeeFy bOy 162: if u had told me even one of the other
things youve hidden from me, just one, it wouldve been
workable
deaDLypanDemiC: thats the problem
deaDLypanDemiC: i dont know
BeeFy bOy 162: i wouldve been willign to give it
another go after a break
deaDLypanDemiC: and i dont know who tells you
these things
BeeFy bOy 162: but u looked at me and said nothing
deaDLypanDemiC: so i cant even get them
straightened out
deaDLypanDemiC: i was not in his lap
deaDLypanDemiC: i have not been doing drugs
deaDLypanDemiC: i have never cheated
deaDLypanDemiC: i went tagging with jenn once
deaDLypanDemiC: the other night i didnt not tag
deaDLypanDemiC: we never went to that party
deaDLypanDemiC: we went to cherry valley
deaDLypanDemiC: we smoked instead
deaDLypanDemiC: i didnt want you to know i
smoked because im ashamed
deaDLypanDemiC: i mean i dont know what else to
say
deaDLypanDemiC: i give you money when u need it
deaDLypanDemiC: no questins asked
BeeFy bOy 162: so what are you saying, u keep
bringing up that night when i dropped it
deaDLypanDemiC: i try to b there when u ask me 2
BeeFy bOy 162: should i ask jen
deaDLypanDemiC: go ahead i have nothing to hide
BeeFy bOy 162: because she will tell me the entire truth
deaDLypanDemiC: GO AHEAD
BeeFy bOy 162: shes like my sister
deaDLypanDemiC: i have nothing to hide about that
night
deaDLypanDemiC: nothing
deaDLypanDemiC: i just dont know what ur digging
for
BeeFy bOy 162: im not doing this
BeeFy bOy 162: and im not digging
deaDLypanDemiC: plz
deaDLypanDemiC: i cant not have you in my life
deaDLypanDemiC: i need you
BeeFy bOy 162: well, we can still be friends but we
cant still be us
deaDLypanDemiC: its me and you aganist the world
BeeFy bOy 162: its not possible
deaDLypanDemiC: how can we be friends?
BeeFy bOy 162: idk
deaDLypanDemiC: so thats it
BeeFy bOy 162: i dont want to lose you but i cant go
on like this
deaDLypanDemiC: 4 yrs down the drain
BeeFy bOy 162: i didnt put it there
deaDLypanDemiC: neither did i
BeeFy bOy 162: fine
deaDLypanDemiC: so dont blame this whole thing
on me
BeeFy bOy 162: fine
deaDLypanDemiC: its a 2 way street
deaDLypanDemiC: i love you
BeeFy bOy 162: fine its a 2way dtreet
deaDLypanDemiC: so for your sake
deaDLypanDemiC: im just going to go
deaDLypanDemiC: i want you to find sum1 better
okay?
BeeFy bOy 162: there is noone better
deaDLypanDemiC: there is
BeeFy bOy 162: but i cant do it
BeeFy bOy 162: im sorry it had to be this way
BeeFy bOy 162: i really am
deaDLypanDemiC: me 2
deaDLypanDemiC: i guess this is good bye
BeeFy bOy 162: i guess so
deaDLypanDemiC: just remember
deaDLypanDemiC: i love you
deaDLypanDemiC: i always will
deaDLypanDemiC: when u need me think of me and
ill be there in your heart
BeeFy bOy 162: ur not understanding, i love u but i cant
take the deciet
deaDLypanDemiC: well i dont know whos telling
you ive lied but i havent
deaDLypanDemiC: so fuck that person
BeeFy bOy 162: if ur honest with me, yes ill throw a
little fit but i wont be as pissed as when i hear it from
everyone else first
deaDLypanDemiC: you dont get it
deaDLypanDemiC: i didnt lie
BeeFy bOy 162: ok fine
deaDLypanDemiC: foreva and eva babe
deaDLypanDemiC: tell every1 in thhe garage that i
love them
deaDLypanDemiC: except tom
BeeFy bOy 162: ur not passing suicide notes thru this im
deaDLypanDemiC: im not commin back to the
garage
deaDLypanDemiC: thats your house
deaDLypanDemiC: your space
deaDLypanDemiC: im not welcome there
deaDLypanDemiC: and im not passing suicide notes
deaDLypanDemiC: i dont know how you could
believe sum1 else over me
deaDLypanDemiC: but you did
deaDLypanDemiC: so i love you
BeeFy bOy 162: b/c i have caught you in lies
BeeFy bOy 162: dont u see
deaDLypanDemiC: and ive admitted to them
BeeFy bOy 162: not until after ive caught you
BeeFy bOy 162: thats the problem
deaDLypanDemiC: no
deaDLypanDemiC: u see i have trust issues to
deaDLypanDemiC: i cant tell u
deaDLypanDemiC: if you tell jenn everything
BeeFy bOy 162: and b/c i wont tell u what ive caught u
at now, it pisses me off that u cant name it, b/c that
means youve done other shit
BeeFy bOy 162: im done talking
BeeFy bOy 162: its over
BeeFy bOy 162: period
deaDLypanDemiC: k
BeeFy bOy 162: and this conv is hurting me to much to
continue
deaDLypanDemiC: what u want
deaDLypanDemiC signed off at 11:13:30 AM. 
