Mood:  hug me
There was a time when I couldn't feel a thing.. those times were cold ones.. freezing times even. When there was no hope, no dreams left.. nothing. Only coldness and darkness.. Then there was you. And somehow you made it all better, made my sun shine once again, made the birds sing and you made me smile.. there was this smile on your face when you looked at me.. and I couldn't not smile back for you. You were gorgeus, steaming hot. And I fell for you. Hard. But I guess we weren't meant to be, because I found in my friend's embrace.. kissing her, like you once kissed me.. And I hated you.. loathed you.. more than I can ever say.. more than I can ever show.. It's not easy to be in love.. so I decided.. I'll never love again.. That was more than four years ago.. and till now.. that promise had been good for me.. I dated.. I fucked.. but I never loved anyone again.. But now.. will this change..? Because this boy.. my boy.. he cares for me.. I care for him.. but can I love him..? Like I did once before.. like I swore I'll never love again...? Every second when we're not together... I miss him.. Every breath I take is because of him..every heart beat is his to treasure.. I care for him.. like I haven't cared for anything for a long long time.. But people have a tendancy to leave me.. cheat on me.. I dunno.. should I trust him.. give him my heart completely.. or maybe break it off now.. before I'll have to glue all the millions peaces of my heart together once again.. I don't want to leave him.. but do I have a choise? Can it be different from the last time? Will he stay with me forever and ever? Will he love me..? and what is mostly important.. will he stay loyal to me? Can I take a chance with him? Can I bear my soul to him..? Maybe I'll just break it off.. once and completely.. and never feel the love again.. maybe it's really for the best..