Believable
Mood:  amorous
Now Playing: You can't even *Believe


**** Yep thats me**** how exciting. Okay I know i havent been writing for a while my computer's video ram was recovered. N*E ways okay guess what? its unbelievable actually it believable lol.okay i went to go take my senior pictures with my bestfriend/bitch. and so we saw a sign that said "help wanted" so we both applied. I GOT THE JOB yea.. At Foxmar- studios oOoOh 4-sho lol. i guess life cant be that bad after all.we I'm doing great so far i love it. Oh yea and I have another amazing new news. The modeling agency called me in and they wanna see me this sunday wo0o0o... I'm frakin out. You know i started to realize that life can get so much better if you make it better yourself and not depend on others to do it for you. lol :D well i consider these past few dayz my precious memories. Im so excited1 Holla lata xOx

cOld + depressinq = TrUth
Mood:  blue
Topic: [Cal|in al| anq3lz]


.:.Unfortunately... something really upsetting happened. I went last night with my best friend and her boyfriend to the movies @ dolphin mall. Everything is fine expect that fact that my "boyfriend" is a jealous asshole and he doesnt like me going out with my friends. What the fu**?! w.e anyways I end up going home like around 1 am. And ranDii calls me bitching me out because I supposbly "lied" to hem. I was filled with so much anger, i started to cry cuz I felt like if its my fault. my dad comes in a picks the phone up and said dont call here. he kept calling. My family is extremely upset they dont like hem anymore cuz of the way he treats. He yells at me like if iAM HES BITCH. oMG i know what your thinking dump hem! i cant i need some sort of guide or angel! I'm always with stupid guys. well 2daii my mom told my grandmother and ahe told me NO dont let hem mistreat you, hes not even your husband. I also went with my grandma 2 da salon, and all the women there are sweet and they told me damn your always worth more then those skanky rude boys. Well i've been depressed all day wondering about what I should do to feel better. STR8 Theropy wit my best friend Karen. lol w0w.. N*E wayz Im hopin 2 escape from this misery to another place and relax for a while. Better luck for me next time.:. xOx Deathh..

Boyfriend Conflicts
Mood:  irritated


Hi my name is Jennifer and no thats not me in the photO... thats my bOyfriend we've been almost a year together. But I'm devastated, Ok let me explain...hes use to be my best friend, but hes changed. At first everything was great (just like an any other relationship)then i started to realize who he is, very jealous, demanding, rude, mean etc. yet he still can be so sweet and kind. However I get most of his ruthless side then anything else, NOW! What am I to do? BREAK UP. I cant I've known hem for so long as a 'brother' and enjoyed moments in love. Where am I to find the confidence to show and tell hem how I truly feel without hurting hem. I tryed once and I then felt so guilty and sad. Why? I dont know! I'm always getting into the shitest relationships. I need an anqel to heal my pain. xOx. -juSt da beginning-