YAY...life is pretty good right now. everything with kevin is better now so im happy happy happy! well most of the time. sometimes i still feel like im not good enough and, im not very happy about it, i feel like he doesnt love me. im still feeling really suicidal too. im scared im scared im gonna do something really stupid soon. i dont really wanna die, i just want all the pain to go away. and sarah...if sarah went away everything would be PERFECT!!! i think im gonna go write a poem i'll prolly post it later...love ya, ..::ali::..

p.s. please leave comments..i'd love to hear from you

hi,im bored so i thought i'd write some more..i have nothing esle to do..well besides think about kevin but im doing that so yea..must write something. i've been thinking about kevin a lot lately..i dont think he knows how much he means to me or how much i love him. i wish i could see him and be with him so i can show him how much he means to me and how much i care for him. but most wishes dont come true. i dont think mine will. oh well. atleast i can talk to him..sometimes..when he has time..i had living so far away from eachother...IT PISSES ME OFF!! why do pa and ca have to be so far apart? whay cant they vbe right next to eacheother? and why cant sarah leave me alone. doesnt she understand that i dont like her?

i did write my poem before..its a sad poem about my dad..i'll post it in a new entry..please please please please comment on my entries and my poem..i wanna know how you feel and if you like my poem.