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Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: "Mood Rings" By Relient K
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Merry Christmas even tho its the day after...but whatever. i actually got what i wanted for once..i got two pairs of pj pants (spongebob and betty boop), Spngebob socks, spongebob slippers that are all square and they look like frankenstien shoes..lol, and an eagles hat, shoes(vans) which dont fit so we have to exchange them, choclate, coal(lol) which i gave back to my dad, a new cd player(now i have 6), batteries(60 to be exact), and my PS2!!!!!! AHHHHH!!! and of course a game to go with it..game: Burnout 3: Takedown!!! go me...i love xmas...the only thing that i wanted that i didnt get was to see kevin or at least get a call from him but noooo..im not worthy of a call from my BOYFRIEND!! oh well..i still have tons of friends that i love and they love me...and my kitty who is actually being nice to me.... its all the cat nip lol...my cats a pot head! and im talking to rachel, who i havent seen since the last day of 8th grade and only talk to online like once a month. i miss her soooooooo much...i miss my mom too...she isnt talking to me cause she mad at me...is it my fault the friggin jacket didnt fit?! ok..i know your prolly really confused now...whole story: theres this jacket that i've wanted to a loooong time and my mom finally got it for me for xmas...in a 3x! do i really look that fat? i looked like a black puffer fish with 4 foot wide shoulders..it was horrible and then she asks is i want her to see if she can exchange it for a diff size and i said "sure". she got all pissed about it and was like "you never like anything i get you" and " why do i even try anymore? nothing i get is good enough" now she wont talk to me anymore...i feel bad but its not my fault im not as fat as she thought i was.
i got to talk to kevin today..it didnt help much...we never talk anymore, and hes so distant that it seems like he doesnt exsist anymore. like after i talk to him it seems like it was all in my head like im going crazy and making everything up in my mind. am i going crazy? does kevin ****** even exsist? :'(