i hate my life! i hate everything! i wanna die! i cant take anything anymore..well..somethings are good... like me and sarah are friends again..it took me a while to realise that she really had nothing to do with what happened..well she did, but what happened wasnt her fault. so, im giving her another chance. and i did get to talk to kevin this weekend...i called him on sunday and he actually answered his phone :0..i know, amazing. so we talked for a lil bit. well we didnt really "talk" he was to busy with his music and mariah carey to talk to me..sometimes i wonder why i even bother calling him anymore...either he doesnt answer, or he does answer and he doesnt have time to talk or when he does have time he has his stupid music on..if i wanted to listen to music i would have turned mine on instead of calling him. its like he doesnt even care anymore... sometimes i wish i would have just kept my mouth shut on june 2. none of this would have happened, but the again i'd prolly be dead right now..so it was a good thing and it still is..i love him but hes such an ass sometimes..well most of the time now..he used to be sooo sweet and nice and now he never has time for me.
jess has been sick the last 3 days so i've been all alone at school..she better be there tomorrow or i'll have to go gangster on her ass..lol..love ya jess! ewww, this chicken is icky....sorry im eating icky chicken and its icky..lol..i know, i have problems. anyway...i should charge my phone...i didnt chrage it last night and it had a fit right on my face(it was on my pillow) at 2 in the morning because the battery was low.. and i didnt feel like getting up to charge it....grrrr! oww..my elbow just popped..owww! lmfao, im writing about the most random things...lol.
ooo...new poem:
I "Heart" You
My sun, My sky, Without you I'd die! My moon, My Stars, This love we share, Just ours! Is so incredible! You make my day bright, You make everything alright! I wish there was some way I could see youand show you just how much you mean to me, But for now I'll just tell you: I love you!
I LOVE YOU KEVIN!!!!