Below are the entries of my online 'diary' 'journal' or as I like to refer to it as, the daily 'documentation of boring life.'
October 14, 2002
I almost finished everything I needed to finish today...got my paycheck, got new shoes, did half of my laundry, read some from my book....went to grandma's house, went to school in pj's which made me want to nap more than usual at school...oh! and i talked to that guy i saw last night at hippie kyle's house. nice...i still need to get comics, and do that damned homework i'm always putting off...at least i'm updating my website again, not that anyone is reading....
October 13, 2002
It has really been a long time since I last updated...i was considering breaking down and just getting a deadjournal or something. The link would of course be on this site. Ideally, I'd like to buy a site and use dreamweaver to build it, but time does not permit that. What with work, school, sleeping...and of course the exciting social life i have. I've been to alot of good shows since july, including FATA, punchline, j4k about 5 times...breaking pangaea is playing on friday, don't know if i'll go since i'm broke. Let's cover the basics for now: I still work at the movie theater, been there six months now! The whole free movies makes it hard to quit...other things...school of course. lame, lame school. and boys. lame, lame boys. not much going on in that department right now, i can't seem to find some one who wants the same things i do, i get the extremities however ie-sex and nothing but, or let's hold hands and be great pals. neither of those options are looking attractive...i need the happy medium. I tried out for muse machine musical, i didn't make it though :( oh well...i went to cj's homecoming, that was alot of fun! i'm making my batgirl costume, it is slowly taking form. i need to do my laundry badly, that is for sure. and go to the comic book store! i have a lot of updating to do in other parts of the website...
July 7, 2002
I believe:
in doing things on your own terms.
in love at first site.
that most people are stupid, but only because those around them tolerate thier stupidity.
you should spend the rest of your life doing what you love.
style should be original and not something to be done in an effort fit in with something.
that self pity is a waste of time.
being picky isn't always a bad thing, but can be when taken to an extremity.
everyone is weird, some hide it better than others.
hugging is the best.
regret is a waste of time.
every picture says a thousand words.
inspiration can be found almost anywhere.
beauty is everywhere.
perfection can result from chaos.
deep down, most people don't change.
money causes more problems than it solves.
in following your intuition, and that's not just a feeling in your gut.
This list wasn't my idea, but i was intrigued by it. Tara made one, trent saw it and made one, and so on...
July 2, 2002
We have a lot of catching up to do...This past month has been so busy, and I'm home for a week at a time. First, I went to Cali with the quiz team, which was great by the way. I spent a lot of money and took many pics..which will be on the site when i get time to scan them and whatnot. I was home for 5 days after that then I left for NC with Jackie's family...it's the beach, what more can I say? I got home two days ago, and things have been good and very bad since then. I saw Mr. Deeds with Gage the day I came back, then yesterday I got to hang out with some of my friends I haven't seen lately, like Janna. We went to the mall, then Sean, Gage, and Crumb came over and we watched the great Legend. The night was topped off by playing with shopping carts at Meijer. (that got old after a while.) But earlier yesterday, Janna informed me that Randy O. hates me, which I was certainly not aware of. But after confronting him about it, it was clear exactly what he thinks of me...which isn't all that good. To sum it up, he thinks i'm two-faced and that I talk about people behind their backs then act "buddy buddy" with them when they're around. He said that Sean thinks the same thing..but that doesn't make much sense to me. I thought i'd talk to him about it cause the whole thing has me second guessing who my friends really are. After all, Randy hates me and i had no idea. Goes to show how much I know about my "friends". Kyle told me to try not to worry about it too much, but it's hard not to. Other things I have to think about include work. On a slightly lighter note, the other night while talking to Jared, things didn't go too well. He kept going on about how happy he was now that Samantha is in town and he kept going on about this Annie girl. I used to get pissed at him for not being honest with me, but I guess I can't handle the truth. I guess the whole thing made me a bit jealous. I was always so used to getting special treatment from Jared, but nowadays I question if he really cares about me as a friend. It's hard to talk to him about these kind of things, I at least want to be his friend, but sometimes I wonder if that is possible. Noah says to just forget about him. Ok, maybe that wasn't on a lighter note, but going to Atlanta is. After I work 35 hours this week, I will leave for vacation again when I go to Atlanta. I can't wait for that.
May 29, 2002
OK, I know it's been a while. I've been very busy. Dracula went...ok. I shall never mention it again. I work alot, but it's worth it. I know have a sweet camera! School is out in two weeks, then Malibu! Summer is going to be here so soon...It's gonna be great. I will finally have time to use my telescope, and I'll have time to sleep! I have a serious lack of sleep right now, i'm dead tired. I'm only updating this so that Rosemary will have something to read while sick with mono :( I think this is about enough, sleep is good....
May 9, 2002
Last night I went and saw Spiderman again. I Love Tobey Maguire. It's a good thing I saw Spiderman last night, it was something good in a long list of bad things....*cough* Dracula. IT SUCKS ASS. I hate this play, I can't wait till it is over. It may be a long time before I can sit down and watch the movie again. But that's ok, Tobey isn't in any version of Dracula, he has better taste than that! I wish I had something to do. This sucks!!!!
May 7, 2002
Yes, it has been a while, I know...but I've been really busy! Dracula is opening this week, I got my licence, I started my new job at showcase cinema...And I love my job! It's fun, easy, and I hope I don't get sick of it. All the free movies I can handle, it's great. I saw Spiderman this weekend. It was GREAT. I am marrying Tobey Maguire. You guys just wait, I will! Anyway, Dracula is gawd awful. Awful!!!! Prom will be next weekend, I need to get my dress finished! I haven't found one place that carries pink duct tape...I may have to settle for blue. Spaghetti is sitting on the stove, so I'm going to go eat it now.
April 28, 2002
This past week has been eventful. First off, Tuesday I went to an interview for a job at Showcase Cinemas and got a job! Then Friday I took my driving test and passed, so now I have a licence! But unfortunately, I didn't have anything to drive. So Friday night I stayed home and worked on my duct tape dress, which is coming along nicecly! The only problem is that I can't make any more progress without the pink duct tape, which i'm having a particularly hard time finding. But I still have three weeks...Saturday I woke up with a bit of a cold and spent the day at my mom's resting.Then around 8 I went to Geetz' b-day party, which was fun, but would have been more fun had I been less tired. It was good to see everyone again. I came home today and my dad is being an ass hole. I can understand to an extent why he'd want me to cook and clean, but damn, I'm not his wife, and he makes more of a mess than I do. I'm here about as often as he is, and cooking for his ingrate ass is the last thing I want to do with my freetime.
April 21, 2002
This weekend was leisurely. I finished my driving, I can get my licence now, as soon as I take the test. And pass. Last night, with no particularly stable plans in mind, I was sitting at home watching I.Q. when Sarah and Matt stopped over. Sarah worked on her coffee table book while Matt and I watched movies. Then Carla and Emily came over, and we all went out to get chinese food. Sarah decided to spend the night, and we watched Citezen Kane. At least Sarah did, I fell asleep. Which sucks because that is such a good movie. Today I plan on cleaning my room, don't know if that will fall through though. As long as I don't get side tracked, I think I'll be fine. I'm feeling artistic today. I might draw something...
April 18, 2002
I just keep telling myself, one more day and I'm done with driving school...but damn it's boring. I'm getting way better at driving though. I'm getting anxious, the end of the school year always seems to drag on. This summer will be great...California, North Carolina, a licence, parties at Ben's (hehe)...Summer is great!!! Soon, say in the next month, I'll be moving my website, that is if I figure out how to use the software required to do so. I just need to stay focused a little longer, school is almost over, but lately I've been flaking in all my classes. I just decided to not do my homework all week. Yeah, I'm a lazy bum.
April 17, 2002
As predicted, I did bail out on my confession..but for valid reasons which I will not go into at this time! This past weekend was thespian state conferance, which was sleep-depriving fun...The performance went well, too. You always meet the most interesting people, but then there are those idiots who do the stupidest things to try and get attention. It's hard to believe they fit that many egos into one room! This week the weather has been so nice, I love it. Except when you're sitting in physics and it's 80 degrees outside, 90 in the classroom. But the sprinkler at home gives me something to look forward to. Drama BLOWS....this play sucks ass, do not see it. Well, I shouldn't say that..but in all honesty, this play sucks. Oh well! It's high school drama, not broadway. We've been having those wonderful thunderstorms...
April 10, 2002
I'm home from Atlanta! I'm happy to be home, but I miss it already. I had a lot of fun this trip, but I do every time. We went to Six Flags, we saw Panic Room (Dr. Lector hehe), and just hung out...lots of nintendo! Richie never showed up! He was supposed to call us and arrange a get together, but it never happened. Mandy saws she'll bitch at him on Monday. During my trip, I came to a conclusion: I have tell some one the truth. It's not like I've been dishonest with them, but I've been keeping something to myself for a while. I doubt the confession will lead to anything, but it's something I gotta do. I'll be less vauge after I go through with it. Keep in mind, I might chicken out. It's not like it matters. I have to make up some stuff I didn't do before I left, aka American History homework.
April 1, 2002
I will be in Atlanta before I know it! And I doubt I'll update the website until after I get back, so I'm going to try and make this entry a long one. I have a lot on my mind, but I don't know how to sort it all out. Friday night I went to Morgan's mini b-day party, which was fun, then I went to Ben's house and stayed the night: it was fun. ((no serious comment)) Saturday night was pretty shitty. The night began with me talking to a friend about how Moo has become increasingly moody towards me: in other words, he's been a real ass. This friend then informed me that Moo now thinks I'm annoying and that I bitch alot...this came as a bit of a surprise to me considering I've always been this way, and it makes me wonder what triggered this newfound disliking towards me. The whole thing didn't bother me....that is until the night got worse and I got in a depressing mood and started thinking about it again. I was at home alone, and right when I got online Mandy knew something was wrong, even before I said anything. I guess that is what makes her my best friend. So I talked to her and after she reminded me that I'll be down in Atlanta soon, I felt better. And after Noah talked to me too. He's a really nice guy considering I have met him only a few times...it's a rarity to meet kind people. Especially when I'm such an unforgiving bitch. Easter went pretty well, the usual family get together and whatnot. Then today, Ben and I went to the movies and chilled at his place for a while: it was fun. We saw A Beautiful Mind...That is now one of my favorite movies. Like Good Will Hunting and Casablanca, two of my other favorites, it's a movie that you can't find flaw in. Everything was just right, perfectly put together. I cried like I do at every remotely sappy movie. Just a fantastic movie, ****, two thumbs up. I have a lot ot think about on vacation. A friend told me to follow my heart. Who the hell knows where that will lead? I will soon found out....Until next time, goodnight!
March 29, 2002
Finally, it is the beginning of spring break! And how exciting is this, sitting at home doing what I'd normally be doing on a school night except this time, I'm actually tired, where under normal circumstances I would not. I'm probably tired from track...imagine that? At least I had some meaningful conversations tonight to make up for the lack of action. The majority of my friends don't seem to be enjoying their spring breaks. (half of them because they miss thier significant other who are on vacation. isn't that sad?) Then again, they have some one to make them soup while I'm stuck with nobody. Well, my dad, depending on his mood. My grandma was always up for cooking me soup when I was sick. But I'm getting off track...It just seems that lately I've been surrounded by love birds, and I wouldn't say it's getting to me, but it's dern close. I don't know what it was this week, but I had a horrid case of nostalgia. I had the "what ifs" running through my mind like crazy, and it was not fun. But since I won't be at school for another 2 weeks (yay), I won't have to worry aboot those "what ifs" coming back, there will be nothing to stir the emotion so to speak. I do need some sleep though...
March 26, 2002
Rosemary was nagging me again about not updating. What can I say, I've been busy! and hey, I even added a new section to my website. By the way, if any of you have quotes you'd like to submit, I'll be more than willing to post them! Anyway, I can't wait till spring break! Atlanta!!! And by the way Sarah, way to go with hot-mystery-guy-from-film-class....this is the start of a beautiful friendship! It's been one of those weeks where I can't remember much of what happened, probably because nothing happened. My dad went out of town this weekend, and I didn't do a damn thing. I did see Blade II, but that was it. I'm just so excited....I don't have much to write about, sorry Rosedawg! Well, I guess I could rant aboot my "love" life, but not many developements there. My love life moves at a glacier-like pace. Since Jimmy got his licence taken away for speeding repeatedly, my sister takes me to school at 6:30, which means I need more sleep.
March 17, 2002
It is Sunday now, and the weekend was worth the long wait. Nothing much happened during the week, just track and drama, then decorating for the Freshmore dance, which had a poor turnout by the way. I wouldn't know personally, I was too tired to go dance, so I went to the movies and the mall. Then Saturday I went comic booking and got new comics, then I went to Troy and I saw Guys & Dolls. It was really good!! I mean, they really pulled it off, and I know first hand how hard it is for a high school to pull off a production like that.] *cough* south pacific....anyway, after the play I went to the cast party with Jackie, and I had a great night. Cold, but great. A hot tub is great any time of the year! But that wasn't the only thing that made the night great...
March 12, 2002
This week isn't ending fast enough. It has seemed so long, and it's only Tuesday! I have alot of anticipation building up though, mostly abuot my trip to Atlanta. Going down there is always kind of like my escape, and I think I'd go crazy if I didn't go there at least once a year. We always have so much fun too, I can still clearly rememember my trip from Christmas break. Damn homework!!! The play has started, and I don't know how I'll have time for track, but I do know that I won't. I'm simply too busy for it. I don't know how I'll keep in shape, but oh well. I have health homework today, and I'd like to get to bed before 11 tonight, that would be really nice.
March 10, 2002
Rosemary keeps telling me to update my journal, so I thought maybe I should, although I don't have much to update about. (Prepare yourself for complete ramblings, I don't know where this is going to end up.) I'm starting to get paranoid about who's reading this...I didn't really care much before, but people keep making references to things I say in here, makes me think twice before I type something. Anyways, tonight was kind of really boring. I went to Fricker's and sat there, I was the designated driver, and that was about all I did for three hours...sit there. I'd talk occasionally, but it was sometimes hard getting into the conversations they were having. The best part of the night: getting to drive, since my dad is keen on not letting me drive. Dork...Now I come home and get online, finding no one to talk to really, except the what-i-assume-to-be bored former student of Northridge asking me how old I am and whatnot...If I was in a less pleasant mood I might tell them to get a life and stop interrupting mine. But then again, no, I wouldn't...It would come back to me some how. I've had so much on my mind lately, about what else but guys...sometimes I think my consistant worrying about guys is the most dull aspect of my personality. Oh well, it makes for interesting conversation...ask Marie, she'd probably tell you she doesn't watch soap operas, she has me to listen to. The truth is I'm finding it increasingly hard to figure out what, or rather, who i really want...to pursue that is. I don't really want to write about it though, every time I try writing it down it sounds more like I'm talking about buying a car than starting a relationship. And that isn't what I mean at all. I have a hard enough time figuring out things in my head, let alone conveying them clearly. Things are far more complicated than necessary, but I suppose that's always the case. I don't want to complain though, I don't have it bad. I'm just confused. And that's my own fault. But I'm waiting for a sign, as stupid as that sounds. At this point I think a sign is the only thing that will clear my mind.
February 27, 2002
The pics turned out great, and you guys may see a few on the site in the new future. I'm much better, I think I'm almost over my illness! But now both Sean and Andy are sick. Crazy, all these people getting sick. I am so anxious! Mostly nervous right now, auditions are Monday, and I'm not nervous about getting a part, but about how the play will turn out. It's thin pickins for this play! Anywho, this weekend should be fun, I'm going to head up to Troy to spend some time with friends. No agenda to go by, nothing too particular in mind...it's nice that way. Leaves more opportunity. This damn weather needs to get warmer, I'm not enjoying the cold...
February 25, 2002
I've been so busy lately, and sick. The play is over with, and the transition is going well. I'm enjoying my new found extra time. By the way, the show went well, besides my voice being all scratchy, and at times, non existant. But I couldn't really help that. Stupid Mrs. Hahn!!! I was sick, jeez, she could have accepted my work! At least I did it, I could have easily cheated, but noooo I take the time and what do I get for it! Sorry, I'm still really pissed about that. But after school made it so much better, me, Danny, Janna, and Germ went downtown and had fun. The weather was so nice, and I really enjoy the city, despite certain things that aren't so nice about it. If you could see the stars, the city would be great. Anyways...School is going ok. The next few weeks I'm really gonna focus on grades, well, at least try to. I'd like to get all A's this quarter to bring up my GPA cause I know I'll slack off the last 9 weeks of school. See, I plan ahead! I've had several people tell me that they think life doesn't treat me well because of what they've read in my online journal. That's just crazy! I don't get that myself, I'm quite happy right now, although always confused by my ever evolving love life. Just wanted to make that clear!
February 10, 2002
This week has been pretty leisurely. But next week promises much excitement...and not because my horoscope says so, but there's a four day weekend and two, yes TWO dances to look forward to! I'm very excited...Valentine's day is next week as well. That's not as exciting considering I'm single. But who knows? Maybe something competely unexpected will happen! I'm not going keep my hopes up though, I doubt I'll wake up with Richie on my doorstep. But I will enjoy the meaningless holiday anyways. I can't see the floor of my bedroom, I must clean it tonight. So long for now!
February 3, 2002
Weird dreams galore to tell you all about! I find them to be fascinating, don't you if you guys will. The other night I had a dream that I was in Atlanta, and Mandy and I were staying up late as we usually do when I visit. Her house was different though...and Richie lived next door to her, which isn't true in real life. Some how Richie and I end up alone, inbetween the two houses, and we talk. I don't remember the conversation, but before we knew it, it was Sunrise. The dream ended there. That dream worries me a bit, makes me wonder if I'm obsessed or something. Mandy doesn't think so. Then last night I had a dream about kissing one of my friends, Will. I do have to see he was a good kisser! Whether that is true in real life, I honestly can't say. These dreams also seem so strange to me considering I don't usually have dreams with people I know in them. But enough of that, plenty of interesting things in real life to talk about. Drama is finally getting up to a normal pace, but we're still far from where we should be. I'm hardly ever home so I don't have time to finish my driving classes. Moo is apparently mad at me, but I'm not to worried about it. From what I hear, it's over something completely ridiculous anyways. Besides, if he doesn't have the balls to say he's mad at me, then I don't think I'll concern myself with it. I'm really tired and I still have to finish my outline.
January 28, 2002
Rosedawg said I should update, but today's entry won't be very pleasent. Today was a bad day! Drama was frustrating as usual, and things went from bad to worse. First of all, Saturday Kyle pretty much explained frustrations with me that he's had for a while apparently, that which I had no idea existed. My horid case of Bitchosity has run rampid and has made Kyle and Ben hate me. Yes, I know I can be mean, but how am I supposed to know that I offend someone if they don't tell me? It's frustrating, that's all. It sucks though, I haven't always been this bitter. I don't want to drive people away, yet I don't want to change the way I act just to please others. For now my opinion on the matter is this: oh well, it sucks that Ben and Kyle feel that way, but they truly have misinterpreted my actions. I'm not a bitch just for the hell of it, I am because I don't want to be taken advantage of. It's happend once, it won't happen again. I don't expect every person to understand this, but I feel those who take the time to look past that are worth my time...or maybe they're just setting themselves up for me to eventually be mean to them, who knows.
January 24, 2002
See, I warned not to get used to the whole day by day thing. Midterms are over, thank God...those suck. Well, things have been pretty mediocre, like the fact that drama is making progress at snail pace, as usual. It's frustrating at times...but at least it keeps me away from home! Driving classes are almost over, one more to go, then the whole driving with the instructor thing. My money has not been found, and now my camera and several cd's are missing as well, which makes me almost completely certain it was stolen. I talked to Richie over this past weekend, that was quite nice! Damn Ohio sucks...Despite this pounding headache and huge pile of homework yet to be done, everything is fine. I'm happy for unknown reasons...must be something in the water.
January 14, 2002
No one get used to this day by day thing, I just happen to have the time to dilly dally online today...well, not really. I should be studying for midterms. But...f*ck it. I haven't studied for a test since 8th grade. Still haven't found the missing money...it sounds like an episode of scooby doo. i really wanted those art supplies! Cursed! I'm thinking aboot maybe putting more pics in my journal. It's a lot of words...can't possibly be that entertaining.
January 13, 2002
This shall be the most boring entry ever...or maybe I should have put that at the end, half of you have probably already stopped reading it! Anyways, I'm not looking forward to this week, it promises to be a living hell! Mid terms and driving school two days of the week, not to mention drama. But hey! At least I can leave school early. I am getting a pedicure tomorrow, that's a good thing. But over the weekend I misplaced $80, at least I hope so...At least if I misplaced it I can still get it back compared to some one stealing it from me. Oh well, not like I needed any of the things I was going to buy with it anyways.
January 6, 2002
I've been in Atlanta for a while, please excuse my lack of updates. I am now 16, (my birthday was the 3rd) but I'm still without a licence...still need to sit through those terribly boring classes with those dull people. But it will be worth it! My birthday was great by the way...Mandy threw me a surprise party, not only was I not expecting it, I was even more surprised that her friends came. Sure we talk online, but I see them three times a year at the most! It was really nice of them to come, it made my birthday memorable. Since I've been home, after a hellish day at the Atlanta airport (aka the 7th circle of hell), I can't think about anything else but going down there again...seeing Mandy and seeing a certain some one I can't stop thinking about...It's awful living in Ohio!!! I don't know what to do, or what to think, or feel! It's far too complicated than is necessary. I figure this is a long enough post for a while...I need to get ready to go back to school tomorrow, awful, boring, extremely pointless school! I think I'll wake up and go to school so I can not learn anything....
December 24, 2001...Christmas Eve
In an effort to get my mind off of opening presents tomorrow, I thought I'd update my online journal. That and I have nothing better to do! Anyways...Last night I was talking to Rosedawg about my pitiful guy situation, which by the way, revolves around the same guys that have been part of my 'love' life for quite some time. I tend to dwell on the same guys until I, or both of us, hate eachother. Or, in rare cases, like with say...William, we went back to being friends again. Never did feel the urge to try things with him a second time, things were bizarre enough the first time around. But it seems that lately I've had this one guy on my mind a lot. Maybe it's because I feel I didn't live up to expectations the first time around, or because I just still, and always have, liked him. It's been a few months since we took a shot at a relationship, and I'd like to try things again... he'll most likely never know this though considering the chances of me making a 'move' are slim to none. But hey! Maybe luck will have it that things will work out and just maybe, dare I say it, I might get a second chance? He might even feel the same way, I am not sure, I'm not about to ask him, that would make too much sense. I can only hope to be so lucky...The situation I've just explained has the best chances of developing into something. At least at the moment...Maybe later on down the road, I could straighten things out with this guy I know makes me happy. Right now, he's...lost I guess you could say? I'm not sure how to explain it, but he's without decision. Anyways, now that I've provided a good dose of soap opera-like crap to last you all weeks, I'll spare the details of my 'love' life for the next few entries. Have a Merry Christmas!
December 19, 2001
I saw Lord of the Rings today. It was great! Everyone should see it! Anyways, I had a weird dream, so I must share it...I was staying at some girl's house while these adults had a party. I was under this blanket when this thing starts biting me. I'm scared at first, then I take off the blanket and see that it's a lion cub and it just wants to play. The thing was adorable...Then its mother comes and they both leave the room to go into a garden. I follow them and it's now daytime. The lions look more like statues at this point. That was it...strange. Christmas in one week...Doesn't feel like it. I know what I'm getting, and there's no snow. Oh well, still have my b-day to look forward to!
December 11, 2001
So sorry I have neglected you all! (those who read this:Sarah B.) Anyways, auditions did go well, I got the part I wanted. We perform on February 22, 23, at NHS...Rumors is the play! Come join us! Nothing much has happened lately..no weird dreams. Haven't had much time to draw anime. I did remodel my room! (exciting, eh?)Haven't seen Moo or Andy at school for the past two days, no one has heard from them. I've concluded they fell off the face of the earth. I'm sure they'll show up tomorrow speaking of miracalous events, something concerning transvestite hitchhikers...Well, I'll try to update more often, but for now, I really should sleep. Night! P.S.-Sean McClure (the dickless wonder) is an immature bitch who may just get his ass kicked if he doens't stop talkin shit.
November 26, 2001
Auditions for the play Rumors today. I think they went pretty well. For some reason, I decided around 7 to take a nap. I woke up around 10:30, so now I can't sleep. But while taking my nap, I had a most interesting dream. In that dream, I was dying from some unknown terminal illness. Throughout the whole dream, it was night time and rainy. This dream was both scary and bizarre. I remember Moo, a friend of mine, being in it as well. He drove me to my treatments, quite strange...But I guess it makes sense, he drives me a lot of places these days. Don't know what that dream meant, but I'd like to find out...In referance to other details of the day, there are none. Mondays are pretty damn boring. Friday better get here soon.
November 20, 2001
Extent of the day consisted of drawing anime during class, tinkering w/website, sleeping, buying Fight Club, and sitting online talking to Matt about how out of shape I am currently. I will die when track starts. I will simply collapse on our "track". NOT looking forward to that. Sarah insists that this is depressing. I don't think so!