Ill
Topic: The New Era
I'm ill. Something cold related, been bothering my throat last couple of days, and I got stuff to do.

TSO

The Return
Topic: The New Era
Yes, yes, I have returned. The Spookacious One is back in business. So, what is new you ask?

At the time of my previous entries, I was in a place, a place that i am no longer at. The things mentioned then are no longer relevant, times have changed, and I have come to a new understanding of everything that did not exist before.

So, i'll use this to post useful and useless information, give advice to anybody who needs it, and to blog.


The Spookacious One


ps. I have changed my background picture once again. If it has eventually worked now let me know what you think.

Time
Topic: The Old Days
I think it's about time things were explained around here. It's about time the mysteries were given solutions, the questions were answered, and that people finally understood what's going on. Here are the answers, which unfortunately revolves around certain people who got up bloody lucky but think they don't. That is what I hate the most. Let me begin by giving you the names of the 3 parties involved:

Stewie - A nice guy who pines after the untouchables, and i pined after by just as many. He is in the lucky position of having a great group of friends, girls attracted to him, and just sits in a place many wish they could sit in. And he is not happy with what he has.

Nikki - "Get over it!" is the phrase of the day. So simple to say, so hard to do. he mum died over two years ago, and she is yet to get over it. But that is not her problem. She is afraid of the world. Se prefers to hide herself in romance novels, wishing she could have such joyous adventures, yet afraid to enter in to them. She has a number of good friends there for her, to provide her the support she needs, and a great male friend who would really want to go out wih her if she could just move on. You can't get over the death of your mum very easily, but you can move on with your life.

Kaherine - A girl who is 14 with a 27 year old boyfriend, in a long distance relationship. She also lieks Stewie, who likes her, yet they should not be together while she is with a boyfriend. Of course her relationship has problems, but that's expected when a man has a relationshp with a child. Yes child, as she is childish, possessive, and does not understand guys, relationships, or anything like that. She is too young, and therefore once the guy grows up a bit he'll obviusly ditch her for someone more mature. Then her flirtive self will go to stewie, where she'll do what she's been doing, which is acting like a slut. She doesn't belong with stewie, or the guy she likes to call soppy git. no wonder their relationship's in trouble. the only reason it isn't over is because i gave katherine some advice which she followed, meaning that for once she did something mature, which has so far saved their relationship.

and now, let me just add the fourth party, me:

Simon - my mum died just over a year ago. I'm not going out with anyone presently, do not have anyone in mind either. i am brilliant at advice giving, and know which way the world turns, and how it screws people over. i am also the least popular person out of the 4 people mentoned. why you ask? simple really. i'm honest. i'm good natured. i care for people. i am not the most attractive person in the world. and oh yes, my life really is crappy!


now, everyone else mentioned has it easy. Nikki has a hard life but with a group of friends to support her, and help her throug her tough times. Stewie is in a comfortable being popular position with lots of friends and a girl he likes who likes him back. Katherine has lots of guys after her, is in a long term relationship, and likes another guy of a closer distance. he only con is she is a childish slut.

while i am still suffering through my life after my mother's death, do not have a close group of friends to support me, do not have any popularity, do not have any girls after me, and yet i am the one who gives everybody all the great advice which helps them live their lives in a great way. The only person of the 3 i haven't advised is Nikki, since she wouldn't really be receptive of it, is Nikki, and she has all the up factors yet does not use them, and is therefore heading towards a lonely ground zero disaster where she will lose everything and come down to my level, where she will likely have trouble surviving, since she does nt have what i have, which is my strength of faith. it is only that which has allowed me to survive. It is noting to do with my own strength. that lasted great till the day when my mum died, when i walked in to the hospital after been taken out of school, and saw her lying on the bed, and had the knowledge that this was 90% likely to be her last day alive, when I juts broke down in to tears, and all the walls i put up in the months before since we found out my mum got cancer just fell apart. I am not strong enough to survive. The only reason I am still here is because God is here with me. I mask my pain with humour at school, but my pain is bigger then anyones. what i go through each day. and does anyone care? wen people ask how are you do they really care? Do they even realise. haven't they ever taken the time to look in to my eyes and see?

in my blog entry I talked about Surviving. Well time is up on how i used to survive. will no longer live like this. The people who are living that high life can figure out for themselves how to survive there. It's time I found a new way to survive.

The Spookacious One just closed his doors.

Simon

Another Day
Topic: The Old Days
Another day gone by. Nothing special really. Went to school. came home. Made my Smackdown character 10,10,10,10,10, went to Just Looking, it was pretty cool, with stewart and sam and charles and people there.

Anyway, got to do an IT test online.

Please post any questions you have about anything and I will endevour to answer them, although i don't gurantee to answer them well.

The Spookacious One

I Survive
Topic: The Old Days
Don't know how though. Handed in IT coursework yesterday. I can't believe I did 82 pages. No idea how I survived.

Also, only have history homework for tomorrow. A big relief really. Perhaps things are looking up, but still have Spreadsheet Coursework to hand in nxt Wednesday.

In other things, my life is, well, I don't know. Pain. Lost. Alone. I really do not know. It's been over a year since my mum died, yet it still hurts a lot. My faith in God is it's strongest ever, yet I have no direction. It's like God is not telling me for a reason. I know he's there for sure. Recent events have proven that:

- Had a Tuesday last week that could have been horrible but God just helped me out big time so that I could get the work done.

- Also, last Friday, I got my glasses back. I'd lost them like 6 weeks ago, the Friday before half term. Seems I'd left them in history and Mr Rule had them. I didn't worry too much, thought best not to, and things worked out great.

And yet, I am suffering. When you hurt yourself, you heal. Put a bandage round a wound, take some medicine. The pain goes, and you heal. But the pain I feel. The spiritual and emotional pain I go through, it doesn't, it can't heal. Sometimes I can put things out of my mind when i'm doing other things. But then something reminds me and I just feel the pain.

People don't realise what I go through, I put on such an image with people, but it comes natural to me as I enjoy humour, so I use it, I cover myself with it. It's what I have to do to get through things. It's what I have to do live my life. It's what I have to do so that I am not an emotinal wreck. It's what I have to do...





to Survive.


The Spookacious One

New background
Topic: The Old Days
Changed background to avoid any offense to future readers (some people have a problem with female nudity - what's up with that?) and also the colour didn't work with the last one. New background has great colour and kicks butt!!!!!!

The Spookacious One

Explanation of Background
Topic: The Old Days
People may find the background very weird, and not udnerstand the meaning behind each image. Let me explain:

The Finger - given to the world as a sign of rebellion
SIS - a statement of fact. School Is Shit. do not forget that.
The image - freedom of expression. admiration of beauty. the human body should not be hidden away, as man was not made like that. image is small to not cause ofense to those against such images.
The cross - symbol of christianity. as a christian it is important to has a major place, and is therefore the largest of the four objects.

now, a little about me, i am a strange person, who knows much about people, religion,a nd the way the world works. i have been through a lot in mylife, and there is more yet to come. do you dare to enter my world?

oh, and do comment. interactivity and communication are pivotal.

The Spookacious One!