I Survive
Topic: The Old Days
Don't know how though. Handed in IT coursework yesterday. I can't believe I did 82 pages. No idea how I survived.

Also, only have history homework for tomorrow. A big relief really. Perhaps things are looking up, but still have Spreadsheet Coursework to hand in nxt Wednesday.

In other things, my life is, well, I don't know. Pain. Lost. Alone. I really do not know. It's been over a year since my mum died, yet it still hurts a lot. My faith in God is it's strongest ever, yet I have no direction. It's like God is not telling me for a reason. I know he's there for sure. Recent events have proven that:

- Had a Tuesday last week that could have been horrible but God just helped me out big time so that I could get the work done.

- Also, last Friday, I got my glasses back. I'd lost them like 6 weeks ago, the Friday before half term. Seems I'd left them in history and Mr Rule had them. I didn't worry too much, thought best not to, and things worked out great.

And yet, I am suffering. When you hurt yourself, you heal. Put a bandage round a wound, take some medicine. The pain goes, and you heal. But the pain I feel. The spiritual and emotional pain I go through, it doesn't, it can't heal. Sometimes I can put things out of my mind when i'm doing other things. But then something reminds me and I just feel the pain.

People don't realise what I go through, I put on such an image with people, but it comes natural to me as I enjoy humour, so I use it, I cover myself with it. It's what I have to do to get through things. It's what I have to do live my life. It's what I have to do so that I am not an emotinal wreck. It's what I have to do...





to Survive.


The Spookacious One

New background
Topic: The Old Days
Changed background to avoid any offense to future readers (some people have a problem with female nudity - what's up with that?) and also the colour didn't work with the last one. New background has great colour and kicks butt!!!!!!

The Spookacious One

Explanation of Background
Topic: The Old Days
People may find the background very weird, and not udnerstand the meaning behind each image. Let me explain:

The Finger - given to the world as a sign of rebellion
SIS - a statement of fact. School Is Shit. do not forget that.
The image - freedom of expression. admiration of beauty. the human body should not be hidden away, as man was not made like that. image is small to not cause ofense to those against such images.
The cross - symbol of christianity. as a christian it is important to has a major place, and is therefore the largest of the four objects.

now, a little about me, i am a strange person, who knows much about people, religion,a nd the way the world works. i have been through a lot in mylife, and there is more yet to come. do you dare to enter my world?

oh, and do comment. interactivity and communication are pivotal.

The Spookacious One!