Mood: down
Now Playing: dont cry by guns and roses
Topic: the end
Please no one cry im saying goodbye the pain within my heart is way to much and the emotional scars and wounds just wont heal. I fell in love and that love became my life my reason for living. Something some demon decided to take his soul from me. If only he knew how much I loved him. That everytime I see his name whether it really is him or not I smile. I think of the first day we met everyday and thank god we made it this far. I think of the happy tears he made me cry when he would let me know just how special he was to me. I wish he knew that I can still see his face every detail perfectly in my mind and when I talk to him online its like im talking to him and looking in his eyes. If only he knew I play I dont wanna miss a thing dont cry knockin on heavens door and novemember rain over and over just to let the world know i am thinking of him. If only he knew that everytime my heart beats it means its one more beat to love him with. I just wanted him to hold me thats all I wanted. Was that to much to ask? If it was Im Sorry... I love you Heather and I know you tried to be there and I thank you but nothing was going to heal this pain but to be with him once again.... I wanted to record my album and on May 4th of this year was to be my deadline so that I could give it to Nick as my 6 year anniversary present because it was dedicated to him for being my inspiration and happiness. I love the stars and so when Valentines Day was coming I was going to get a whole bunch of those glow in the dark stars and put them on my ceiling hang a sheet over the doorway between the kitchen and livingroom and make a picnic on the floor and lay underneath the stars with Nick as we looked into each others eyes and talked and talked. I never got to do that tho. I just wanted to love you Nickolas. I do love you and always will....... I wish I could have been your girl, your wife, the mother of your children, because nothing in this world meant more to me than sharing my life with you.