i got bored today and took a grip of tests:




You are the classic yellow squeeky toy.
Find your inner rubber ducky.


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I am 61-80% Ghetto

I AM ghetto. And you know this- MAN.




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2002.04.30
thanks to some babo.. *you know you are*.. i got this song stuck in my head.. and i thought
i'd just "sing" it to you.. haha.. maybe i'll put up a .wav file of me singing it.. heh

an empty street.. an empty house..
a hole inside my heart..
i'm all alone.. the rooms are getting smaller..
i wonder how.. i wonder why..
i wonder where they are..
the days we had..
the songs we sang together.. oh yeah..

and oh my love.. i'm holding on forever..
reaching for a love that seems so far..

so i say a little prayer..
and hope my dreams will take me there..
where the skies are blue..
to see you once again, my love..
over seas from coast to coast..
to find the place i love the most..
where the fields are green..
to see you once again..
my love

i try to read.. i go to work..
i'm laughin with my friends..
but i can't stop myself to keep from thinkin.. oh yeah..
i wonder how.. i wonder why..
i wonder where they are..
the days we had..
the songs we sang together.. oh yeah~

and oh my love.. i'm holding on forever
reaching for a love thats seems so far~

so i say a little prayer..
hope my dreams will take me there..
where the skies are blue..
to see you once again my love..
over seas from coast to coast..
find the place I love the most..
where the fields are green..
i see you once again..

to hold you in my arms..
to promise you my love..
to tell you from the heart..
you're all i'm thinking of..

i'm reaching for a love that seems so far~~

so i say a little prayer..
hope my dreams will take me there..
where the skies are blue..
to see you once again my love..
over seas from coast to coast..
to find the place I love the most..
where the fields are green..
i see you once again..
m y l o v e

2002.04.29

LOVE:
A subject which defies the limits of space and time; which transcends all boundaries of politics,
religion, race, color, shape, size or history. Love is a beautiful world of mystery and
infinite energy. Love is more than a concept or physical motivation. Love is a pure energy
which inhabits everyone and everything . . . one endless source of energy accessible to any
human being, at any given moment in any given environment. Be it in the sanctity of a church,
the stillness of a night, during a party of thousands, or on a beach of solitary splendor. Love is an
intangible which has been both a source of passionate desire and of intense sadness which has plagued
and entranced conscious man since the beginning of recorded history. A vast subject, indeed, yet one
which is inexhaustible and universal. Why? What is it about this thing called love that obsesses us so?
Why is it that we look upon it as something we "have" or are "in" or that we "fall into?" Wherever did
we learn the idea that it was something that might chain us down, or break our hearts, or make us
whole? Why is it that we need it and can't live without it? Why do we ever look for something
outside of ourselves to make us whole? To define us? To make us feel better about ourselves? Or to
forget ourselves? . . . There is so much more . . Love is constant, omnipresent and pure vibration which
lives inside everyone of us. Love is inherent in our very nature. You are love. The power of love is
always at your fingertips because you are alive. Love exists inside and outside of every living thing.
Love is yours for the having. We are all so beautiful with infinite possibilities. Everyone of us is a
unique creature with thoughts, dreams, ideas, desires and creativity to be cultivated and shared with
each other. Love is a flow whose very nature is to move into and out of us like the air. Each of us
is a unique force with our own unique way of expressing the love we have. The important thing
is to do just that.....express love. Live in love...with love. We are all brothers and sisters
with boundless energy and Love to spare. We are stronger together. To love yourself. To love those
around you. Love is what we have to give. Love is who we are. Love and respect yourself and the earth
around you. Reach deep inside your soul and see how beautiful you and the world around you is. It is
easy to hate. Easy to be jealous. Easy to take. Easy to be violent. It is hard to love and give of
yourself. We think we know how. We don't know anything. We must open our mind to each other...
to support and love each other. We all want the same thing....to be loved and heard. So, love and listen.

How can something so right, be so wrong? And how come there hasn't been a day that has
gone by without thinking "why me"? And how come people just can't understand where
I'm coming from? Yesterday I was listening to our American pastor's sermon.. and he
made this point that just slapped me across the face. Happiness only happens with
perfect circumstances. But is there such a thing as a "perfect circumstance"?
Some people say love is a perfect circumstance. But I think loving somebody can be
the stupidest mistake a person could ever make. If falling in love was real.. and
the concept of "pure love" was real.. How come people fall in and out of love? In my opinion,
when you love somebody.. you love them for the rest of your life. No matter wtf happens.
Even when you let that person go.. you'll always love that person.. ALWAYS~
I'm only human. Sometimes.. when people make decisions.. it's not because
that's what they want.. they just think that it's best for themselves. And it's about
time I thought about myself first before others. It has nothing to do with
the situation.. it's just me. And there's no way I can explain all of it. You'd have to
step into my mind to find out what I'm all about. Am I trying to make a point? Yeah. But not
in a bad way. I just wanna be understood for once.. without having to explain myself.
Does that make sense? I'm just rambling.. haha.. I bet everybody that sees this is gonna
think I'm stupid. But s'ok.. cuz I don't care anymore. I've come to the realization
that friends can't be there for you always like they say they will.. But the person who thinks
friends will always be there for you is stupid. I'm one of those stupid persons. It's time to
to move on with my life. No more living in the past. Actions speak louder than words.
I'm a new person now. No more Tina. It's Christina, thank ya very much. LoL.. I wonder
how long this is gonna last.. hahaha.. I'll go back to being myself again.. that person
that would rather take in everybody else's pain than release my pain.. that person that
keeps everything to themself and takes everybody else's bullshit.. that person that
would take a bullet for anybody because she's dumb.. haha.. I know myself too well. -=p
But for now I've decided to be different. I can describe the difference in 3 words:
I d o n ' t c a r e

SONG OF THE MOMENT
Usher - "separated"

2002.04.25
this is what i call love.. hahah i love my jeremy oppa

JmPaek77: w'sup biatch
the pink society: whoa.. you still have this sn?
JmPaek77: huh?
JmPaek77: u drunk?
the pink society: MY sn...
the pink society: you bitch
the pink society: i was talkin about you
JmPaek77: fuck you
JmPaek77: then who u talkin to dumbass
the pink society: n/m you asswhore
JmPaek77: asswhore?
the pink society: did i stutter?
JmPaek77: makin up wordz?
the pink society: no~~~~~
the pink society: i happen to like that word you fuckface
JmPaek77: lol
JmPaek77: pms?
the pink society: no it's cuz i respect you
JmPaek77: respect me?
JmPaek77: I KNOW
the pink society: i got nothin but love fo yo stanky ass
the pink society: you don't know shit
JmPaek77: SHIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET
the pink society: that's why i had to clerify for your dumbass
JmPaek77: OK
the pink society: what you doin
JmPaek77: nada
the pink society: have you been looking for my soon to be bf?
JmPaek77: yeah i found one for u
the pink society: WHO?
JmPaek77: this mexican guy
the pink society: sick
the pink society: find me like.. some 80 year old man who has a grip of money...
the pink society: no.. make it 90
the pink society: and then when he dies.. i'll get all his money.. and give you half
JmPaek77: shieeeeeeeeeeet
JmPaek77: LOL
JmPaek77: only half?
JmPaek77: i want 3/4
the pink society: ONLY???
the pink society: fuck you!
JmPaek77: lol
the pink society: so what you doin this summer?
JmPaek77: don't know
the pink society: why don't you know?
JmPaek77: cause i don't
the pink society: oh wait.. cuz you're fucking retarded
JmPaek77: fuck u
JmPaek77: u stuipid biatch
JmPaek77: =P
JmPaek77: lol
the pink society: suck my cock
JmPaek77: no thanks
the pink society: aiite.. your loss
the pink society: i'ma go
the pink society: i'll talk to you latez
JmPaek77: aiite latez
the pink society: PAYCE~~~~ mutha fucka

2002.04.24


this is my buddy YoonSung and me.. haha

2002.04.22
WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?
All of you who have talked about eating Chinese food for the past 4 days
can shut the fuck up!!! >__< HAHAHAHAHA.. I'm just messin.. but *UGGGGHHH*
Everybody keeps talking about eating it. I know I'm supposed to be thinking about
other things but the only thing on my mind lately is some seseme chicken and lo mein~~
-=*( ING~~~~~~~~~ I'ma cry. SUSANA!!!!!!!! You were supposed to
WAIT for me you asswhore.. [shrugs] What a day. I think i slept a good 13+ hours yo..
OMG.. Susana called me this morning to wake me up. She always does that cuz for some
odd reason my alarm clock doesn't wake me up.. the telephone does.. haha. So she calls
and the whole time I'm thinking "wtf is she talking about?" and the only thing I can
remember saying is "What day is it today?" Cuz I guess I thought it was Saturday.
hehe.. funny, huh? -=P So I woke up around 11, did my laundry, brainstorm for my
upcoming essay, and watched T.V. *WOOP DI DOOOOOOOO* Is it a Colorado thing, or does
every other state see nothing but Education America and attorneys commercials?? >_<
How annoying.. anyway.. I'm at night school right now, and I have to go to my 2nd class..
I'll get back to this in a bit. Bye!!

2002.04.20
i took this poem from my dongsaeng Jin -

"you`ve misunderstood me..
misunderstood me for what i was..
who i was..
and what i`ve become..
you can`t say you understand..
understand who i am..
what i am..
or what i`ve become..
all you know is my name, and my smiles..
that break so many rules of lies.
you`ve never seen the hurt in my eyes..
or the tears that constantly fall from my eyes..
you`ve never had the thoughts of death, like i have..
so because you don`t know me..
or my life's history..
or all the bullshit i've been through..
you DON'T understand me..
nor can you MISUNDERSTAND me."

2002.04.18
Guess what! LIFE IS A BITCH!!!!!!! YupYup.. sure is. I feel like I'm gonna
die.. I haven't eaten or slept in the past 2 days and I can't figure out why. -=T
Sucks to be me, huh? yupyup.. You ever have those days when you wake up in the
morning and you know the day is gonna be hell.. so you feel like going back to sleep
and not waking up until the next morning? Good God. I've had that feeling EVERY
day this week!! >__< Somebody just shoot me.. please.. Life is so fucking hard yo..
and I feel like I can't go on. It's better this way.. Incase I feel like doing something
stupid I won't be close to anybody and wouldn't feel so bad.. hmmm...

I've been thinking.. thinking a lot. About my future, friends, family, and
everything else you could possibly think of. It's funny how I feel like I don't
have a single person to go to for help. But do I need it? and do I want it??! Maybe.
I guess I just wanna be left alone.. and depressed. I cherish the friends that I have now
but how long is this gonna last? AM I EVER GOING TO BE HAPPY??!?! How do
I know that I'm going to overcome all of this shit.. all of these feelings.. all
this hurt..? I don't think I'll ever know. Maybe when I find that *special someone*
I'll know what happiness is.. but until then I'm FUCKED!! hahahahaha.. aigo

I really haven't had a chance to tell how much I love my friends.. I only trust
5 people in this world.. and I hope they know that I would take a bullet for..

Sujiny unnie -- unnie, ahn nyoung~* -=] there's not a day that
goes by where I don't think about you and krystal.. you guys bring so much
joy to my life.. and every time I'm around you guys.. I can't help but
smile.. I admire the way you take care of Krystal and how you take care of yourself..
You have always been there for me whenever I needed somebody to talk to..
to bitch and complain about shit.. and to make me laugh.. YOU'RE THE GREATEST!!
I wish you the best of luck in everuything that you do, and.. I LOVE YOU, UNNIE!!.. krystal too.. hehe

MiJung unnie aka Hannah -- You are awesome. I soooo admire the fact that
you have such a close relationship with God.. I wish I could be that "good" of a Christian..
I know we haven't known each other for that long.. but we got really close
pretty quick.. geu chi?? If it wasn't for SungHwan oppa.. we wouldn't so close..
Now that I think about.. we don't talk as much anymore.. -=( YOU'RE SO BUSY!
Thank you for all your talks and advice. You should be a psychologist or something
cuz every advice you've given me.. well almost every advice.. has brought me
good results. -=) I hope everything works out with school and work.. I know
you're gonna be busy but still call once in a while.. we only get to talk @ church.. *hugz* love ya..

Susana -- one of the best dongsaeng/friend a person could ever have!
You're one of a kind, gurlie~* Sometimes I feel like you're my unnie.. hehe -=P
Every time I'm around you I laugh too much.. Don't make me laugh when I'm driving!!!
>_____< My eyes chink up and I can't see what I'm doing yo.. aiite?!?!
Thank you so so so so so much for being there for me whenever I needed you..
especially in the middle of the night.. and I'm glad I live right next
to school.. cuz you get to park your car on my driveway!! hahahahah ..
no need to buy $50 parking permit~~~~ *squeeeeeze* thanks.. 7942012

Erica unnie -- hehe.. WADDUP GIJIBEH!! lol.. Quit saying "andrew is sooooooo cuuuute!"
mi ahn ha ji man.. geu yae gi jil lyut suh~ hahahaha.. (sorry Andrew)
I'm really glad I get to kick it wit you every time you're down here.. and I'm
thankful that you can come talk to me about things.. I don't have the best advice
but I think I'm a good listener.. Unnie, you're so wise! and so honest.. thank
you for being honest with me.. The talks we have make me feel much better..
I wish *you two* the best of luck.. and ummm.. hmmm.. haha.. If you ever need a person
to confide in.. I hope you know you can come talk to me.. I totally respect you unnie.. *mmmmuah* lol

and last but not least,
Andrew -- MY BESTEST BESTEST BUDDY IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha.. I know I can be a pain in the ass sometimes.. and i know it's because I'm
helluh stubborn.. but thanks so much for understanding.. We've come
a long way in 2 years, huh? I feel like we were childhood friends who beat
each other up on the playground everyday.. hahaha.. sorry I disagree with you so
much.. it's just that I like that "love/hate" shit.. hahahaha.. you're so awesome..
I got nothin but love and respect for you fucker! lol.. You've helped me out way
too much yo.. and I don't know how to repay you.. But if you ever wanna talk to me
about something.. just chit chat.. or wanna make fun of me (like everybody else does)
You're more than welcome to do so! hehe.. Make sure you take good care of yourself..
(GiJiBeH unnie too).. -=) goh map dah, chingoo yah~ we homiez fo' life yo!! haha *burp*
hahaha.. geu rum.. 20000

Thus concludes Tina's sensitive session.. time to go back to being a dork..
Today at school I saw Nancy. I guess she's not as stupid(?) as i thought?
She's a lot nicer than I thought, too.. Even though she doesn't think very highly
of her same ethnic people.. I think she's cool. Sierra's band came to Mitchell today
cuz of the band festival.. and i saw Mr. Wheeler too!! he's so cool.. I missed him..
Maybe I should go back to playing flute again.. I keep forgetting to take it out of my trunk..
lol.. oh well.. Ummmm.. I gues that's it for today.. I gotta go back to working on my
essays for night school.. TOO MANY PAPERS DUE!! >__< and today's a day
I look up, not down.. ahead, not back..

04.16.02
WASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSUP!! yupyup.. this page is under construction.. and will
be under construction for a long time.. probably until summer.. so i'm just
gonna keep this as a weblog or something.. hahaha.. hmmm.. last week was
a GOOD week.. except some "friend" got the wrong idea and decided to be stupid
and assume shit that was sooOoooOoo fucking ridiculous.. and calls
me a shi bal nyun.. cuz she thought i was talkin to her.. but that wasn't
me callin her a bitch.. you know who you are.. ANYWAY! i had madd fun..
yupyup.. ate the whole weekend cuz of erica unnie.. >__< aigo.. i'm too tired..
i hate homepages.. and i hate typing.. i wish i had a program that types the
stuff i say.. *sigh* ok.. oooOoOoOooh.. I THINK ERICA AND ANDREWW LIKE EACH OTHER.. ooh la la..
MUHAHAHAHA.. aigo.. i'm out bye people!