That's How It Goes

I don’t know what I’m thinking My mind is jumbled and confused And I’m not sure on what to do I feel like my hearts unused I look around and I am lost My heart aches, swells, and burns And for that there’s no remedy I don’t know where to turn It’s funny how things work In this life I call my own Where are the directions? What have I been shown? I laugh at the direction I move Up or down, left or right I’m not sure where I am Can’t tell if its day or night Where do I fit in to this word? Do I have a place? Am I allowed to be happy? Can you see it on my face? The pain, the hurt, the loneliness? They all are there in little parts Where do I find the remedy? Is it between our hearts? I always jump ahead of myself I always move to fast Can I still accomplish my goals? Would it ever last? All these things I think in earnest With every piece of my heart Why am I tormented so? Why did I even start? I feel the warmth within you But the refusal to act upon Tears away my inside Am I just a pawn? That’s how it goes I guess I guess we were meant to be apart But don’t try to explain it to me Try to explain it to my heart I don’t think there was anything Anything more that I could do I tried to be myself I tried to be the person for you I tried to be what you wanted I tired to be the best You make me feel well inside Like taking weight off my chest But I guess what I felt was wrong I guess it was a mistake You made me feel like I was real I don’t want to be a fake But if my feelings are not returned If I’m alone in my thinking I guess I should drop it My hope is slowly sinking Maybe it’s for the better For us to go on with out one another I should look at the bright side I’m sure there is some other Someone else to make me feel The way you did inside Why don’t I feel that this is the answer? Like a part of me has died I still have feelings For that I will not lie And after this is said and done I can’t say I didn’t try But God knows the best He knows the ultimate way In that I will trust And I live to see another day.

Info

  • Name: Mike
  • Age: 18
  • State: WI
  • Date: 7/05/01
  • E-mail adress: GA2WI@aol.com