How long until the earth shatters
And all we once knew crumbles under our gentle steps
The wallowing damned are no longer suppressed
And we can speak our minds with no regrets
When memory ends
On the jagged edge will you be there
Ask me to take your hand
We can love again
With no yesterday no mistakes
No tomorrow to ponder today
Skip to the jumping beat the scared brain cells
Rotting in our heads
Churning to recall the last time we gave a damn
How come I don’t care anymore?
Has the earth begin to crumble
I just haven’t noticed
Cause I see you with him
He says I love you and you say the same
But it doesn’t get to me
Not like it did before
Earlier, even a week or two ago
Your smile doesn’t trap me
I start to think that
The damned are free
Your spell is lifted
Sleeping beauty has been awoke
I’m still alone
Only now I am proud
Holding my head up
I don’t give a fuck
Slow and painful failing to reach
The unrealistic standards we have all set
I’d like to say I am free
Though I know I’m not
Free and unwilling to admit to capture
Are almost the same
The whips still lash my back
But I don’t listen to the screams of “go”
I don’t listen to the little voice
That still misses you
That loves you even more than before
Because it realizes what you really meant
I am emotionally stable
Mentally there
Physically I am falling apart
Insomnia lack of love
But is it fair to attract another
In a pitiful attempt to discover
Whether or not I love you still
What if I do?
Then what do I do?
Is it fair to you?
What if I never knew until the first kiss?
The first time I saw you through those eyes
Looked upon you in a way I never knew
Never thought for a moment
I’d see you and her in the same light
You were always separate
Two islands, now one
The earth is really crumbling now
Boundaries do no bound anything
Everything is smudged together
I know what I see
Through the abstract style of life
But I fear running to you
Even more than I fear running to her
With her I know what I am getting
Used and pillaged
However with you
I have not a single clue
Crumbling beneath my feet
Is insecurity.