I don't know if anyone is gonna read this, and I don't really ask that you people do. You should know that this has nothing to do with my fan fictions, so you'll probably just leave now. Its has to do with RESPECT.

What the hell am I trying to say? Well, I don't like Leighanne.

Leighanne Wallace Littrell. I despite her. But YOU won't respect me for that, huh?

I decided to write this after a long conversation with a friend of mine. She opened my eyes to something I have been through but hadn't really cared about. The Backstreet fans that like Leighanne look down on those who doesn't! They say we haters ain't true fans. But - and here I quote Christine - the group is called Backstreet Boys, and not Backstreet Boys and Wives/Girlfriends. Does this make sense to you? Well, it should! I'm not forced to like anyone, and just because I don't agree with everything the boys do, and don't like, and probably wouldn't like every person THEY do, this doesn't make me less of a fan.

I've read banners... Cute pictures of Brian and Leighanne together, and it says "GROW UP!" Of course you know what that mean, don't you? They are telling us - Leighanne haters - that we are being childish, being a stubborn baby, not liking her due to jealously, not liking her because she has married our idol.

But what people doesn't seem to understand... is that I don't hate Leighanne because she is with Brian. I hate because of who she is! Is that so hard to understand? Have you never felt that you didn't like someone, that you actually dissed on them without even knowing them? Haven't you ever had this bad feeling on someone, something you can explain coz you actually don't know that person, but something that makes you not like them?

Well... I know you ain't believing me. But what can I do if this nasty coincidence happened, and Brian married on of those people I hate? Its not jealously. I mean, if I were jealous would I write slash? I just luved Samantha, Brian's first girlfriend. Not that I cherished her, coz its just not me. I love Brian... more than you people can imagine, more than what is healthy and sane for me, but this is besides the point. What I'm saying is that for loving him so much I can't be selfish. I don't have, didn't have a chance of looking into his eyes and maybe changing facts, but for loving him just so deeply I need to know that Brian is happy.

And now you tell me: "But he is happy with Leighanne!" Is he? I'm asking you... You think so, he says so... he acts so... but is he? Are you in his heart? Can you see beyond his smile? Can you touch his thoughts and feelings? No, and I can't either! But I have a feeling on Leighanne. You can think I'm babbling shit and just leave now, or read on.

With Samantha, I could see she loved Brian. I could see it in her eyes... the way she touched him, the way she smiled at him... It was just true. But Leighanne... I have so many reasons that I'm not gonna quote, I'm not trying to make anyone hate her, I'm just demanding respect.

I don't think she loves Brian. He is gorgeous, rich, famous, sweet and caring... If you ever knew Brian was interested in you, even you not loving him, wouldn't you go for it? Oh, now you are not being honest with yourself. But thats ok, coz this probably wouldn't last. Unless... unless you planned everything... unless you live for a game, you act... Unless you are an actress. Hm, what does Leigh do for a living again? I mean, after she met Brian, coz before she was nothing.

I'm not against the Backstreet Girlfriends. I like Kristin. I see beauty and honesty when she is with Kevin. I liked, and still like Willa. Sure she got a career from being with Nick, she was nothing before him, but... Don't you see it? Willa is just too passionate to have been with Nick without feeling a thing. She slapped him, she was jealous coz of his fans... someone that is planning to keep a future Backstreet Husband can't act like this. On impulse like Willa did with Nick. Someone that plans something real has to be clever... has to see beyond, has to be cold... has to stand by him a hundred per cent. Oh, doesn't Leigh say this to Brian? As I was saying... "I wanna be bad, I don't want you, I don't need you..." Willa's songs... They refer to Nick. Or are you blind? But I'm not here to talk about her, I think I've made my point.

Most of the girls that diss on Leighanne haters are Nick fans. And need I remind you guys that a SITE was created to boycott Willa's album because she was Nick's girlfriend?! Oh well, it happened. Now, these are fans, huh? Its easy when you are not involved.

Actually, I wanna make it short.

I hate Leighanne.

And don't you dare telling me to grow up, you don't know who I am, you don't know what I go through! I don't like her, but its not because she is with Brian... I'm saying again. I hate her coz she is she. Put any girl in her place, and if I see love in her eyes when she looks at Brian I'll be the first to give best wishes and smile... my tears... I take care of them on my own.

Nobody knows the truth behind a smile... nobody knows the reasons behind a relationship... Nobody knows what is happening with the BSB. Best friends... don't stay months without seeing each other, just not caring. Nobody knows... therefore no one can judge.

Or you wanna play the Wise God and flame me now? Feel free to comment. I'm not perfect... and I'll have to learn to respect people that like her. But I just think its stupid when people like her because Brian does, and not because of her. If Brian jumped from a bridge, would you? :: grins :: I won't ask this to myself coz I don't wanna sound insane.

Oh well... if you actually read it all... thank you. And always THINK before you judge... I have my arguments for not liking her, do YOU have for liking her?

I'll have to respect that.

I can't keep my feelings, can't keep the ache, and can't be blind to facts.

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