July 18 2003 -11:02 pm
Boy I Neva Thought That Loven' You Would Hurt.... You Shoulda Told Me You Had 2nd Thoughts... Now I'm Thinkn' You And Me Was a Mistake, But Then It Hits Me n' I'm Missen' All The Love We Made, Boy I Know We Been Goin' Thru Some Things.. But The Sun Is Alwayz Shinen' Even When It Rains
I’ll be the one you kick it to, I’ll be the one that misses you, I’ll be the one to ease your pain, I’ll be the one you’ll want to gain, And you’ll be the one who can’t forget, You’ll be the one that’s innocent, You’ll be the one I can’t hide, You’ll be the one that makes me cry...
How you gonna up and leave me now,
How you gonna act like that, How you gonna change it up, we just finished makin’ up, How you gonna act like that, How you gonna act like we don’t be makin’ love,You know we be tearin’ it up, breakin’ stuff, that ghetto love, How you gonna trip, how could you forget, How you gonna act like that...
Aye wats good... i been still workn at ESOL n its so dayum fun i love it, the kids is so adorbale haha u jus wana bring them all home wit u. The kids is all split into 3 groups, advanced, the medium kids, n the more beginer kids, n we split up round 9-9:30 ta go work wit the kids in each group n i go with the more beginer kids who is Valeria, Luis, Phirom, Wiki, and some times Jackie. they jus so adorbal i cant say that enuff haha, they love ta learn n get all excited n shyt its sooo damn cuteee ahhh lol they r really smart kids tho n its realy enjoyn ta see them learn. Right now all the groups is workn on they own puppet play to put on fa kids in otha rooms n also eachotha. oh lord on wensday it was so got damn funny, we was maken the puppets fa my group n the kids startd ta put like 3 eyes on them ta make them look funny on purpose lol n Valeria had to have hers all dressd in pink cuz she loves tha color haha, we startd ta practice the lines they had cuz they doin Goldelocks, so we all went unda the desks n wuld stick the puppet up wen it was they part, Wiki didnt really understand so me n Jackie tried to help her, n Jackie was so funny that i culdnt not stop laughn, Wiki was the mama bear n jackie was the Narator and shed b readn her part n wen Wikis part came up shed grab wikis arm and throw it up in the air n then pull it down wen her part was over n theere was a time that evy other secound her arm was getn thrown up n down it was sooooo funny that afta a while Wiki startd 2 laugh n i burst out laughn cuz i was holdn it in for a cuple minutes haha, i was rolln. 2day i saw the advanced kids play n its really cute n hilarious, they doin Chicken Little n they got alot more ppl in they group so they have alot of parts, its so cute tho n they have a chorus part where they all have to say the lines together n put they puppets up n sometimes some of them forget to put they puppet up so u hear like 8 voices n u see like 4 puppets n randomly thru the lines they have ull see some more pop up lol, o lord we have so much fun at timez. The whole class been workin on this quilt we mite give to hartford hospital or a child that parent (s) died on sept 11th eitha in the twin towers or the pentagon, and the kids each made 2 patches for it- one of a flag fa they country, n the othe had symbols of the country, i made the center peice which is different kinds of kids holdin hands around the world n they calln the quilt 'hugs around the world' shown' that all races, ethnicitys, n cultures can get along, b friends, n acomplish many things 2getha. the quilt is almost all done n it looks really good, who eva recieves will love it, alot of work went into it.. balleeee meee haha, but hopefuly it will make some child happy u kno, well fa some *BIG NeWs* on wensday i went to have a Level 2 ultrasound which is like a regular ultrasound xspet it is more detailed n they measure like evy part of the babys body and organs and all that to make sure its grown rite, not evyone gets these only high risk ppl like me, cuz my blood is rh negitive n jeffs is postive n my blood can attack the babys blood n they found like an Antibody M in my blood system so they wantd 2 check if any thing wrong was happenin, i also hada get more blood drawn.. like 4 or 5 viles.. aloot of damn blood dawg, ta check for the antibodys to see if they havent raised... hopefuly they havent, if they have then i gota meet wit a specailist.. im waitn for the results, well anyway bak to the ultrasound... it took like 30mins and evything looks healthy n normal which was a big relief, they say shes as big as a beanie baby,... yea u hurd SHE, its a baby gyrl! thats wat i was hopen for haha, i wana name her Deja... like Deja Vu... for yall slow ppl is pronouced Day-sha, NOT Dee-ja, aiight well they gave me 5 pictures of her, 2 of the bottom of her feet which they call foot prints, 1 of he hands that r clenched and one pointer finger is stickn up in the air haha, then i got one of her lookn at the camara and her arms bent, and one of the profile of her whole body.. basicaly shes like layn on her bak lookn upwards n one of her hands is up to her mouth n it looks like she culd b sucking her thumb :-D n u can also see her belly, but her legs didnt fit in the picture cuz shes goten big haha, the last time i saw her she was like an inch or 2 big n she was floatn in a lil bubble n she had mad room around her n now she longer then the pitcha haha .. her feet now are as big as her body was then! thats how much she grew. The doctors were exmanin her leg bones n said they lookd really really strong lol which explains a really hard kik she gave me a cuple times lol, i was like wtf.. well wen they was tryna see her face evytime they put the ultrasound thing where her head was she'd put her hands in front of her face like she was playn peeka-boo lol, wen the camra moved down we'd see her hands come down but evytime we moved it up shed try n cover her face lol, it was so cute she also was hiden under my bellybotton which i guess gives off a shadow so u cant see well wen they put a body part under it. las week i found stretch marks on my stomach.. yuk, at least they aint bad as some ppls i seen but i think they nasty as hell, they like an inch or 2 to the right and left of my belly button runnin vertical for like 2 or 3 inches and they r like purple-ish n a different texture then my regular skin,... these ma fuckas betta fade afta birth lol, evy tuesday i been goin to my baby clases at hartford hospital n they really teach u alot about birth n shyt, n they gona give us a tour of the hospital and the baby room n go ova infant care n all that in the future, i think jeff shuld go ta the class for infant care or sign up fa his own... jus so he knows wat the fuck hes gona b doin n he doesn tlike kill the lil thing i mean damn... infants ain toys u gota b mad careful wit them n u needa kno xactly wat u is doin feel me, well me n him ain talkd in like 2 months... i imed him like yestaday n i said hi n he said hi bak n then i said wat up n he said nuttin u n i said i found out the genda n he signd off , eitha computa pralems or he bein a bitch.... i jus don kno, i mean he said he was gona b there but its like hard to fuckn baleeve rite now jus bcuz he ackn like we neva was friends.... like he don kno me o sumshyt cuz u'd think he'd wana kno wat was goin on.. specaily afta 2 months i mean got damn, we use ta talk alot n shyt n he knew i was preg n we still chilld n talkd alot n then he fuckn like disapears..... da fuck? but at the moment it really ain bothern' me 2much.... he really shuld b at least seein how things is... but wateva i jus try nota think bout it n shyt, in the end he jus fuckn himself, its not like i wana b wit him, but he is the fatha of this baby n i jus wan him to help out n do the damn thing, i can give a fuck him really, i use ta really care bout him n i prally still do its jus discised wit confusion and me bein pissed the fuck off at him, i dunno, shyt will b betta cuz u gota put up wit the rain ta get to the rain bow, even tho i am mad young n this culda waited some mo yrs.. but she is a blessn' n a miracle n she'll b one of my greatest gifts ill eva get in my life, n jus cuz she is born to a young motha doesnt mean she any different from any otha baby n she needa b treatd rite, n that means her bitch ass fatha betta b involved, well n eways nufff bout that fo i get startd.. well i finna talkd 2 my granmutha n granfatha cuz they goin away ta florida ta big italian weddin n my mom kept buggn me to talk 2 them 4 i left so i finna decided to jus cuz it wuld make her happy, but im glad i got shyt str8nd out wit them cuz they my granparents but more like my parents cuz we really close n they r evything to me n of course i love them alot, my granmutha jus said that cuz she was mad n she said she didnt mean that n we all missed eachotha so hopefuly thats the end of our arguements or disagreements... fo eva cuz i hate not getn along wit them u kno, well damn i wrote alot n my fingas is hurtn' n its like 12 n im mad tired ... even tho i jus woked up at like 9 lol, shyt waken up at 7 n falln sleep round 3am evy nite aint enuff sleep fa me at all... i need at least 8-10 hrs a sleep at nite or durin the day ta feel aiight..shyt especaily now cuz i get drained real quickly... my energy ain here no more n wen i get home from work i feel like jus goin ta bed which i usulay do.. n then i jus feel like layn down n watch tv or a movie or sumden relaxn cuz my body mad tense n achy all the time n i jus ain feel like doin shyt which aint like me at all cuz im the type person that i gota b doin suttin at almos all times or i get mad bored n wen im bored long enuff i get mad depressed n pissd off, but i dunno all t hese hormones n shyt b changen me alot, specaily wit food, i dont like barley any thing any more n the shyt i use ta really like i hate now, i dont like no candy or chips or nun of that shyt n i neva was really a big fan a all that but once in a while u feel like haven sumden sweet but at the moment id ratha thro up dem have sumden sweet, i been addicted to like clam chowda lol i want it like evyday n i been haven it almos evyday, my mom bought like 10 cans of it lol n if we eva eat out thas what i get... shyts mad weird cuz b4 all this i use ta like clam chowda but only had it once n a while.... like once evy 6months or suttin lol, weird aass shyt... wellll my fatha still doesnt kno n hes always bringn shyt like it up n since i dont see him that much, maybe once a month or not even, he jus fina got a car so i been sein him more recently.. cuple times a month but ill wear like a big ftball jerzee so he cant really see nuttin lol. but i dont wana tel him cuz he tends ta make evything worse n has anxiety attacks n shyt n i jus don wana deal wit it... im 5months now n i dont think ima even tell him till im like 7months cuz i jus dont wana havta put up wit the constant shyt he'll have, but o well, im bouta b out b4 i think of suttin else ta write.. haha oh yea 2 late...
****ONE MY BEST FRIENDS *LUIS A. AZANA JR.* (LOL) GOT HIS HAIR CUT***** he was tryna grow it out fa the longes ma fuckn time n he got it like to his chin n i always told him he betta cut it all off n stop bein like a gyrl lol or id climb thru his window at nite n shave his head bald lol, thats my lil peruvian tho :-D i loves him haha, he 18 now n i known him since he was 14, me n him been thru like so much he one of the only ppl i tell evything to, n cuple months bak i did some stupid shyt to his gf who i neva liked n he got mad n wuldnt talk 2 me cuz she tol him nota but then he startd again n i was sooo happy but it wasnt the same as b4, he was like distant 2 me, but latly tha last cuple days it feels like almos b4 i fuckd up n its really made me happy lol, thats my babbyyy lol, n wen u read dis luis.. ima still marry u lol, love yas, n e ways im out
Molto amore
July 5 2003 -10:53 pm
I Know The Truth Now.. I Know Who You Are... And I Don't Love You Anymore... Never Was And Never Will Be, You Don't Know How U've Betrayed Me, And Somehow U've Got Everybody Fooled...
and if you have to leave, i wish that you would just leave...because your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone, these wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real-
there's just too much that time cannot erase....
I been wantn' ta update this shyt fa like the last 2wks but i been too tired n busy ta really do it. Shyt im not even sure if i rememba evything that happened... Like las week or sumden Amber n Danny came n piked me up at like 12:45am and we went ta this dinner in new britain n got french fries n shyt n den i came home round like 2:30-3am o sumden, yea fun shyt, i been watchn that new tom green show like almos evy nite.. hahahah that shyt is so funny tom green is the shyt man. las sataday me n lexa went ta the meriden mall n we had so much fuckn fun haha, she tried to return clothes at jc penny that she got fa her bday n they wuldnt let her cuz she didnt have an id... wtf.. so we tried a different register in jc penny n they said the same thing so afta walkn round the mall a lil bit she got her friend that works in radio shack to return it cuz he was mad olda haha, den we went into hot topic n was like yo yo yo n word up this musik is wack n we filled out this servey n we put like rip tupac!!! n shyt it was madddd hilarious, then we went to a cuple different stores n got some things n lexa bought me 2 shirts :-D n b4 hand she gave me this bag of lotions n face stuff and a finding nemo lil stuff animal n stuff .. shes so nice but hey wat can i say thas mah gyrllll, well afta a while we went to go ta the food court ta get sumden ta eat n we had like cajun japenese n chinese food haha, den we wenta epics n i got lexa this tank top that says caliente on it, its so fuckn cute haha, yea then we went ta j c penny again n we got some cute ass baby clothes, n alot of it was 40-50% off n they jus so got dayum cute..lol well aftawards her dad leon pikd us up at like 10 and we went to his cuzens wifes house n they were lightn mad fireworks n lexa n me was scurred that it was gona blow our heads up n shyt lol, n this nice rican lady named carmen was like the baby daddy gona b there? n im like i have no fuckn clue n shes like nail his ass, n ill help u. haha she was cute, she been thru it cuz she had a kid wen she was my age n her daughta like 20 now. but then leon brought us ta taco bell at like 11:30 n then i got home round 12:30, we had so much fun i cant wait ta see lexa again n it betta b soon lol, well lemme see i startd my job at sedjwick middle skoo in w.hartford in the ESOL room for kids who moved from different countries to america. they mostly in elementry skoo n a cuple in middle skool, but its so surprisen how fast they learnd english, they real good at it, shyt i been taken spanish fo longer then they lived hea n i cant speak as fluent as they can english lol but the kids is so cute n most them got really good mannaz n shyt. we got alota kids from china and peru, n some from puerto rico, argentina, cambodia, columbia, pakistan, vietnam, korea, n thas all i can rememba rite now lol, but we have like 20 kids n the jobs really fun, i learn so much from jus bein around them cuz in jus that one room u have so much diversity n learn alot about all they otha cultures n alla that, one day my granparents pikd me up n we was haven a good time n we went n got lunch n then they brought me home n then my granfatha wantd 2 take my dog pepito out for a walk n so me n my granmutha went into the livin room n she starts lecturen me about shyt n sayn she has friends n shes embarresed to tell them about wat happen wit me n blah blah blah n how she thinks its not even jeff n im like wat the fuck, n she was calln me a "tramp" n shyt n how she "herd" ppl call me that which ain tru, wat i do is my fuckn bisness n i ain even wildn out or nuin so she needa chill so wen my granfatha came in he told her ta it was enuff n ta stop but she kept sayn hurtfull shyt to me n of course afta a while of hearn' shyt like that a course ima get agrivated n shyt cuz i got so much shyt goin on i dont need it from my own granmutha, so i got up n left n told her im not listenin ta this ne more n went upstairs ta my room, n then 2mins lata she like katie, n im like wat, n she like i just want to tell u that u just lost ur granmutha n granfatha n dont call us askn for ne thing, uhhhh first of all wat kind of shyt is that.. n 2nd of all i neva eva call them askn for ne thing so what the fuck is she blabbern about, thems n my aunt n cuzen posta come ova hea 2maro to go swimn aftaward but ima try to bounce fo n e one gets hea cuz i ain tryna get into any mo confentation, evyone can juz kiss mah ass, but yea n e ways on friday my mom, me, michael, nicole, n daniel went ta the beach n was there fa like 7 hrs and i got mad tan n shyt, 2nyte we went to riverfest n mike n edgardo was posta meet me there n i told edgardo to make sure they go to hartford n not the east hartford side n i told him like 5 times n wen i get there n call mikes cell... guess where the fuck they was... fuckn east hartford, that kina pissd me off, i culdnt find my nycca black rob no wheres cuz it was 2 crowded and jose i think was lookn fa me but i neva found his ass eitha, i was prayn ta god i wuldnt see gabriel (my ex man) n thank god i didnt cuz we aint left shyt well and it wuld b 2 weird seein him, he live in east hartford so mos likley we wulda been on that side, the fireworks was good sept this white lady n her family pushd they way in nexta me n she was so fuckn loud like why isant any one sayn oohh or ahhhh, i was like to my moms this is y people get shot, but the bitch wuld not stop screamn in my ear n pushn me so i told her to stop touchn me n jump off the fuckn bridge (we was standn on a bridge) but wateva,...
o yea this shy ass gyrl from my skoo always fa eva IM'n me tryna get inta my bidness like she mah friend o sumden, i talkd to her on aim a little bit las summa jus to be nice but she was in my spanish class n we neva talkd n shyt n then she imed me las week askn me all these personal ?'s like its any of her bisness so since the original convosation she imed me like 5 otha times n i got the last convasation n ima put that shyt in here fa yall enjoyment cuz the bitch is a dyke and a half i swea.. she needa find some firends o geta hobby a sumden.. typical white rich bitches.. feel free ta im her n annoy the fuck outa ha ...ne way here it is:
drewlover0618:hey hows the person who lives in the real wolrld
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:wuld u s hut the fuck up got damnit
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:u like a fuckn stalker on the internet
drewlover0618:umm no
drewlover0618:why do u always need to swear
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:is there any other way u can b a fuckn anoyin clingy bitch
drewlover0618:i am not the bitch
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:jesus christ go get some friends or sumshyt n stop bothern me
drewlover0618:well i hear uve been talking about me behind my back
drewlover0618:to someone
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:lol o yea
drewlover0618:well thats what this person is saying
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:n if i was da fuck u gona do about it
drewlover0618:who said i would do anything
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:then the fuck u imn me for
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:get a fuckn hobby
drewlover0618:cuz i wanna know why u talk to this person behind my back
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:whose the person
drewlover0618:someone u know and i know
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:well congradulations
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:if i did say suttin about u
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:its cuz i can
drewlover0618:o but ppl can say anything behind ur back
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:n cuz u wont leave me alone n its 2 fuckn funny
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i said i dont care if anyone says ne thign bout me
drewlover0618:but whe itry to talk to u about that crap u blow up
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:if u give me ur adress n save me the truble of findn it myself then ill say it 2 ur face
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:so then it wont have to b "bhind ur bak"
drewlover0618:u say i bother u why dont u just not talk to me or block me cuz i wanna know what was said behind my back
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:n its none of ur bisness so talk 2 someone else about me cuz i ain telln u shyt we ain friends we neva was n neva will b
drewlover0618:i wanna know what was said behind my back thats all i wanna know
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i dont have to do shyt, why shuld i waste my time blockn u wen all u have to do is shut up n stop talkn 2 me
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i said ill tel u 2 ur face
drewlover0618:u dont have to talk back so ur wasting ur time too
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:y the fuck u im me in the first place
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:n u say stupid shyt like i care if u kno i talkd about u
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:so im gona respond
drewlover0618:umm i didnt say that i said i wanna know what was siad
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:n i said ill tell u 2 ur face
drewlover0618:ur the one who started be to be a bitch b/c u called me one
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:boo fuckn woo
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i dont want to comunicate with u
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:dont u understand that
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:so stop imn me like evyday
drewlover0618:so block me do u not understand i think u jus like to fight with me
drewlover0618:umm i dont
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:drewlover0618:hey hows the person who lives in the real wolrld
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:u startn shyt
drewlover0618:what are u talking about
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:thats wta u said to me wen u first imed me
drewlover0618:u save my convos
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:dont say i wana fight wit u wen u send thhat bullshyt
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:no
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:its at the top this convo
drewlover0618:its not bullshit u told me u live in the real wporld
drewlover0618:its not lieing
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i shuld save ur convos n send them to a fuckn comedy show
drewlover0618:wow bright idea i am sure ppl would laugh at ur grammer mistakes
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:they aint mistakes
drewlover0618:but didnt u say u lived there?
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:dont worry bout where the fuck i live its none of ur bisness
drewlover0618:so dont worry about where i live
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:well u wana kno wat i said bout u
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i dont play games on the internet
drewlover0618:what?
drewlover0618:i dont play games either
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:yea ok
drewlover0618:i dont and dont say i do
drewlover0618:*WhOa Italiana* do u want an award
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:lol
drewlover0618:wow lol
drewlover0618:toodles
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:that is the shyt
drewlover0618:toodles
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:u like it
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i bet u readn every entree
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:remeber there is 3 pages plus the qoutes
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:jus so u dont miss ne thing
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:since u like ta kno evything bout me
drewlover0618:toodles
drewlover0618:toodles
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:hey its my time ta fuck wit u now
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX: ;-D
drewlover0618:toodles
drewlover0618:bye
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:wait im not done
drewlover0618:well u arent saying anything
drewlover0618:bye
drewlover0618:toodles
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:killuminati
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:all thru ya body
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:shots like a 12 gage shoti
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:come wit meeee
drewlover0618:bye
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:hail mary!
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:nigga run wquick see!
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:wat do we have here now
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:wana ride or die
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:lalalallalalala
drewlover0618:thats stupid bye
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:i ain a kill aso dont push me revenge is liek the sweetest joy nex ta getn pusy pitcha paragraphs unloaded wise words bein qouted
drewlover0618:and..bye
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:peep the weakeness in the rap game and sewed it
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:bow down
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:pary to god hope that hes listenen
drewlover0618:shut up
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:see a niggas comen for me for my diamonds rnt they glistenin
drewlover0618:is that all u can talk about is niggas
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:now pay attention
drewlover0618:i dont have too
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:bless me please fatha ima ghost
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:hollla holla
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:all my niggas ready to get dollas dollas
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:bitches kno who can get them a lil hotta hotta
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:come on if u rollln wit me then follow follow
drewlover0618:stop trying to act black
drewlover0618:bye gtg
XiTaLiaNxBuTTaHX:thinkn u fuckn wit ja..nada wat u wana go dolla fa dolla holla holla my niggas is hotta hotta fuck plently of bitches n thug bitches for pety niggas look thu my eyes n kno my style is ridculus
lol WAT A DYKE....
My Immortal.
Your Lyrics
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
What Evanescence song are you?
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ne ways im out fa now ill holla in a hot one ~molto amore~!
June 22 2003 - 11:34 am
There Was A Time ...When I Thought Life Was Ova And Out, When You Went Away From Me, My Dien Heart Made It Hard To Breathe.... Would Sit In My Room Because I Didnt Want Ta Have Ta Go Out, N' See You Walkn' By... One Look And I'd Break Rite Down N' Cry...
Well .. now yall is blessed wit page numba tres since angelfire wuldnt let me type anymore in page numba 1 or 2.... o well jus more wundaful work... ha, well shyt, nuttin has really been up.. i got credit for all my classes, im out that piece a shyt for good now but i still needa figure out where ima live so i can enroll in some skool or sumshyt, i kno one thing i aint goin all dayum day.. the most i can put up with is 2-3 hrs a day or i wont fuckn go... thas jus me, but yea n e ways uhhh thrsday was my last day praise the fuckn lord, friday i jus chilld here and my granparents came ova n we hung out for a hot one... sataday was mike the dykes sons 10th bday.. hes my step brotha but id like ta not refer him as dat.... fuckn lil shyt... lol n e ways yea one my aunts n uncles n cuzens came n my granparents n thats it.. it was the kids bday party n we ain even saw him all day.... rude bastard lol 
but ne ways yea now it sunday n im lookn fo a job again... peepn' west hartford an hartford cuz ima b down there most of the summer, my mom talkd 2 her boss n got me a job that i done for 2 summas straight but i ain done it las summa cuz i ain felt like waken up early ass hell for 7wks, that job was ta work in hartford at a skoo n yung kids wuld go in the mornin till aftanoon n some den didnt have any disabilitys but a majority of them had mental or physical disabiliys .. some u culdnt barley notice n some were very server.. u feel so bad for them n u get attached to them cuz they so cute, i always workd wit the kids goin inta kindagarden, the first yr this lil blak gyrl named destiny got really attached to me n the gyrl was so cute ill try n geta pitcha of her on here but i needa finda scanna.... her mom was and still is on crack , n wen she was pregnant wit destiny she didnt stop so one of destinys lower arm/hand is kina bent n smalla then the otha so she wears a brace, n her mom in n out of crack rehabilitation so she wuld stay wit her aunt.. but dayum she was 4 or 5 yrs old n goin thru all that shyt u jus feel so bad u kno... u wanna do ne thing fo them kids, i got some pics of the kids i had the 2nd yr which ima put on here ina quick minute, but yea this yr i aint wit the kids ima b wit middle skoo kids (i think) who jus moved here from like south america or mexico or puerto rico, ect an some from like india n russia n watnot who dont kno english n we gota help them learn, which gone b fun cuz i kno spanish pretty well n shyt so, we jus gota see.. i start next monday n ill b sure ta update yall on dis, but ima say thas all fa now..... HOLLA... oh yea fuck all the lewis mills bitches who ain got no damn life so they resort ta go n talk bout me n my situations wen it none ur got dayum bidness wat the fuck i do... yall dyke ass bitches dont kno me n lets keep it like that..... go fuck ya selfz *not includen the ppl who im coo wit just the rich hoez who got nuttin but time on they nosy ass handz* lol rite jevana fuck them bytchez! haha "we shuld go jump her"-jevana lmao damn straight gyrl damn straight
