You

I know you know how I feel,
But do you really know?
Can you fully comprehend?
I lay here and think of you
And all the things I wish I could say to you.
Your eyes ... so kind, so gentle
Yet hiding so much.
Why am I unable to read
That unspoken language they spell out?
They send a message which penetrates my heart
And causes my own eyes to fill with tears.
Your lips ... so full, so soft
Yet unobtainable by my own.
What I wouldn't give to feel
The warmth of your breath against my skin.
The rush of adrenaline that pulsates through me
At the mere thought of you
Is enough to send me spiraling
Out of control in a world full of chaos.
You make me feel special ...
Loved ... wanted ... desired.
At the same time
I know I'll never be enough.
I could never be your desire ...
Your want ... your love.
I ponder your thoughts of me.
When you think of me
Do you smile?
Do I hold a place in your heart?
You're so vexing to me.
I find myself falling...
Are my dreams in vain?
Should I give up?
Is it all hopeless?

This was written after a conversation I had with a guy I had fallen for. I had finally convinced myself to tell him how I felt about him. He didn't feel the same for me..