Waiting To Be

When will I open up my eyes?
When will I finally begin to see?
The veil needs to be lifted to reveal
The chaos you have caused for me.
My life was never simplicity.
Complexity was my normalcy,
But since you walked in,
The plates have shifted beneath the surface,
And the earthquake it spawned changed the inner me.
Will I spend an eternity
Waiting to be your meant to be?
Or will I finally realize and give into the fact
That you're really just not into me?
Do I look for signs that just aren't there?
Does my imagination make me believe you care?
Is it all just a selfish want through greed?
Or are you really the one I need?
I can't fathom there ever being another
Who could capture my heart and set me free.
I'm longing for you to give me just one sign
That there's more to us than simply you and me
Will I spend an eternity
Waiting to be your meant to be?
Or will I finally realize and give into the fact
That you're really just not into me?

I wrote this after a revelation about a guy I had fallen for. He sent mixed signals so I was constantly unsure of how he felt about me. I decided one day that I was wasting my time waiting for him. I wrote this and moved on without him.