Fear

Fear...
Fear of the unknown.
Fear of the rejection.
Fear of the emotions
That will overcome
My being once I find
The true meaning of
You.

Feelings...
Stored in a safe place have
Once again surfaced and have
Made themselves clearly and
Unavoidably known.

Worthiness...
Am I fooling myself in thinking
That these feelings could be
Shared? Could you ever see
Me as anything other than what
I perceive myself as being? Or
Am I searching aimlessly for
Signs that aren't truly there?

Anxiety...
Anticipation fills me like the flutter
of a million wings from the
Butterflies that dance endlessly
Inside me with just the mention
Of your name.

Anger...
Why have I let myself become
A prisoner of these feelings?
Thoughts of you invade my
Mind until I find that you're the
Only thought left when I lay to
Slumber, the only thought
Left when I rise to begin my
Day. Thoughts of you plague
Me mercilessly. Never-ending.

This was written as a confession of my feelings for a guy I liked. I was afraid to tell him how I felt for fear that he wouldn't reciprocate those feelings.