The Demise of My Essence

Raw emotions spill out before you.
With everything I have, I push myself into the open.
I take a step into the realm of fear.
There's no looking back now.
I am here. Exposed. Ashamed.
Lying in a pool of my own sorrow.
I've been defeated, not by my foes,
But by my own selfish emotions.
They've taken over,
Relentless in their battle to overcome.
I'm powerless against them.
For every step forward I attempt, there they are,
Kicking me to the ground and spitting in my face,
Daring me to come back for seconds.
I pick myself back up and try once more to walk
Only to stumble in the wake of the obstacles they've lain before me.
I feel as if I'm drowning.
Slowly the air is being forced from my lungs.
I gasp and begin to claw at any sign of reality.
No help is in sight.
I look around and emptiness is all that faces me.
Loneliness seems my only adversary.
I give up. I turn. I give in to their impending doom.
I walk from the light and into the darkness.
It engulfs me. Envelopes me. I am no more.

I wrote this after a hurtful situation I went through. I gathered up my nerves and told my friend I was in love with him. He turned me down and it caused the friendship we'd once had to falter. This poem is the result of my feelings.