A new life... Adapting
Up until recently, I've been living with my father here in Shanghai. It's been sheltering me from the truths and reality of life in China. the Portman (name of the VERY Westernized, high-quality apartment living where my father lives) is so convenient, and basically an "oasis" for lack of a better word, within Shanghai where I'd venture to say at least 70% of residents are Westerners. I never had to deal with the difficulties of, well, dealing with the Chinese culture and "way of getting things done," which in basic Western culture would be seen as "inefficient, illogical, and well ridiculous." Let me explain how why I decided to come.
My father has been living here for about 7 years now, working for Visteon as it's CFO of operations. I moved here after the 9-11 incident, so thanks to my buddy Laden I took a huge risk in leaving everything behind in the US for the promise of a better future... Sacrifices...
I left behind a beautiful young girl working her way through the University. She kept saying to me, "don't worry, you can work at whatever job, and I'LL get the good job and bring home the money." To rewind a little, I had FOUND a job working at a franchise Sign Shop, and I could have conceivably moved on to own my own somewhere. But I have language talent and talent with working in other cultures. This sign shop was NOT the direction I wanted to head with my life. I had to make a sacrifice in order to have a secure future and be self-reliant. The words I'll NEVER forget were spoken to me by her father one day... "RJ, I'm think you know that if you did NOT take this opportunity in China, you most likely would NOT be with her in the future." Those words made perfect sense. Sure, in a naive young love relationship, it sounds wonderful--the guy foresaking an opportunity for a great life and strong future for love and the girl working at a great job to support them... But they've got love. But in the long run, resentment WOULD have built up from the girl towards her husband who is of lower "stature" than she, and she heraelf doing 80% of the supporting of the marriage. As much as it killed me, I had to start building a future for myself... One that I could look myself in the mirror every morning and be proud at what I see. Everyone needs to make themselves happy before they can POSSIBLY make someone else happy.
I miss her 'til this day, but we have both gone our directions and I she is now just a great memory of someone who taught me a lot about myself and love.
Since I've come to China, relationships have been ALL but existent. The difference between the love and relationships I KNEW and the ones that exist here are COMPLETELY different! First of all... On the topic of standards, it seems as though 90% of what i took for GRANTED that females in the US possessed have become part of the "qualities" I have to look for in girls here. Some basic examples are:
Clean teeth- I'll see the most attractive girl and be amazed, only to have her turn to me and smile with a mouth full of crooked, black, rotting teeth. Dental hygiene is not one of most Chinese peoples' priorities. in addition, going to the dentist here is a VERy painful and dreaded experience, so many wait until there's a problem so severe with their teeth (ie. a wicked cavity or unbearable pain) before they will finally give in and go see the dentist.
Good eating habits- Another one of those, I'll see an extremely attractive girl... Then she starts to eat. SWEET MOTHER OF GOD!! She'll slouch over her plate like a famished wolf, stuff everything she can into her mouth (stuff dropping all over the place) and proceed to chew with her mouth open, displaying her masticated food to the world, make incredibly loud slapping sounds with her lips allthewhile speaking to her friend in an incoherent mumble being the product of her stuffed oral orifice.
Not using me for status/money- God... believe it or not it still exists- Girls here dating the "foreigner" for either 1)he must have a lot of money, and 2)look! I'm dating a foreigner/American. This one is always obvious when one can look for a few signs... one is the word "going dutch" just doesn't seem to exist in their dictionary. Second, they will, in a period of one week, manage to introduce you to and go out with EACH AND EVERY one of her friends, even if you've only known her for one week. Third, you will ONLY go to the most expensive restaurants. She'll settle for nothing less. Fourth, she'll LATCH onto you like a barnicle to the side of a ship WHENEVER you're in public.
I'm going to end this here for the time being... I'll continue with a small relationship I had which REALLY sucked ass and has me traumatized now.
Mood today - Pretty good... It's Monday! I LOVE Mondays