window.copying machine. fax machine. telephone. printer.processor.monitor. desk.chair. file cabinet. calandar.
phone list.coffee cup. electric stapler. tape dispenser.
outbox. inbox. file box.to do box. order box. paper box.
fax box. scratch box.archive box. recycling bin. trash bin.
cubicle walls.paper. paper. paper. . . . window... walking the serengeti with a dog named sophocles playing mahjong with old qing women in guangdong stretching one minute on forever these sterile dreams collect around the pupil, bleed into the iris and flood the eyes perpetuated entirely by their own futility inevitable, fruitless the ocean, like man, is moving but goes nowhere. mirror. bathroom. toilet. stall. maxi pads. tampons.
tin tampon boxes.fixtures. seat covers. tissue. soap.
trash bin. ceramic tile. linoleum. porcelean. neon.
paper towel. tile. paper. paper. paper. ... mirror... and how does one know one's own body without the wretched foundation of hate how does one recognize their own face in the hollowness of flesh how does one see in their own eyes anything but regret anything but malice anything but resentment in their own blessed eyes door. upstairs. downstairs. managers. financiers.
assemblers. purchasers. engineers. expeditors.
receptionists. secretaries.accountants. operations.
productions. planning.human resources.material resources.
front desk. paper. paper. paper. ... door ... i remember the valley of the giants. how the surreal redwoods traced epic shadows across the world for miles it went on and the air was so fresh the sky so full of green i could stay forever i could turn out this cool ache of flesh and let the blood flow slower, slower, breathing in time with the earth car. dashboard. gear shift. steering wheel. polyester.
motor oil. gasoline. speed gauge. emission gauge.
rotation gauge.power gauge. combustion. rotation. fluid.
aluminum. steel. carbon. air filter. air pump.
air conditioning. fan belt. fan. radio. lighter. ashtray.
front seat.backseat. sweater. jacket. file. book.
registration. insurance. maintenance record. paper. paper.
paper. ...car... it's crazy, but i've heard they taught a bear to ride a bicycle (don't laugh, it could be true) and that he rode it to safety pedaling away from a hunter and the wild never to return.... he must have looked silly. a whole living infrastructure, a working temple of evolution, just below devine, in a bright cloth costume, turning wheels with his feet. home. garden. flower bed. watering can. rake. hoe.
shovel. graves. peeling paint. hedges. cats.
kittens. litter box. mailbox. tool box. storage
box. cleaning. cooking. feeding. fighting. eating.
working. washing. writing. collecting. bills.
letters. threats. files. paper. paper. paper. ... home ... i could trace the flowing line of her
in my mind's eye twenty years ago. still can, although the smell of cheap lipstick doesn't linger and the white curtains around the dining room window have become faint as we still sit, in another dimension, drinking royal crown cola and eating tuna sandwiches and she laughs, and the laughter fills me with something, something unexplainable, something like love, almost real. sleep. bedroom. closet. cats. dresser. cradenza.
television. bookshelves. blankets. desk. laundry.
shelves. nic-nacs. shoes. sheets. pillows. lamps.
clock. altar. chair. boxes. notebooks. pencils.
crayons. markers. paints. scissors. cardboard.
paper. paper. paper. ... sleep ... at night i dream of burning paper.
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