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3/16/05 @ 0230

Hey There, Long Time And No ..... Well Anything. I Was
Supposed To Write In This Page Of Yours Earlier Today,
But I've Been Busy Today With Stuff Like School, Playin
Basketball, Playing Texas Hold 'Em, Night Class, Eating
And Watching TV And In That Exactly Order, HaHa. And
After All Those, I Couldn't Sleep, So I Decided To
Write In Here For Ya Whenever And If Ever You Come Back
Here Again.

The Reason I Decided To Write In Here Is That In Recent
Events You Have Popped In My Mind A Little More, Mostly
Because I Seen You Online Again And I Have Read You
XANGA Page Because Of That. Plus I Wonder Why You Put
The Good Poem And Song On You Page. Another Reason I
Wanted To Write Is Because A While Back I Realized A
Bunch Of Things, But One Thing Relates To You
Particularly That You Might Already Know, But I've
Just Realized It, Well A Month Or Two Back. The Thing
Is Even Though How Much I Liked You And Wanted To Be
With You, It Would Never Have Worked Out (Like I Had A
Chance Anyways, Maybe A Chance I Hell). And What You
Have You On Your Xanga Page Explains It, "Give It All
Up Cuz.................. Some Wounds Never Heal"
And That Would Be Exactly What Will Happen If Ever It
Came To That. The Relationship Would Not Pass A
Certain Point Because Of It. If It Were To Ever Work,
It Will Be A Lot On Your Part, Which You Should Not
Have To Do And In This Case Could Not Do Because Of
Your Wounds. So Yea, The Damage Has Been Done And
There Is Nothing No One Can Really Do About It 
Most Relationships Are Never The Same The Second Time
Around When There Is One And Neverless The Third.


With That Said, I'm Past The Point With You Because Of
That And Quan Seems Like The Perfect Guy For You Plus 
You Are Too Good For Me Anyways, But It Does Not Mean
That You Do Not Mean Anything To Me. You Do Mean A Lot
To Me Even Though It Seems Like The Exactly Opposite.
You Will Be Just A Friend If It Ever Gets There, Well
A Very Good Friend. You Are The Example Of The Type Of
Girl I Want, Which Is Hard To Find Now And Days. Hope
You Are Not One Of A Kind Because Then I'm Shit Out Of
Luck.

Now That Is Said And Done With, I Am Not Sure What Else
To Say, I Wanna Talk To You And See What Has Been Going
On But I Can't For More Than One Reason And One Being
Your Phone Being Broken, LoL, But Sorry To Hear Though.

I Wonder How Long After I Write This That You Will Read
It, I'll Probably Never Know Unless You Tell Me. I Bet
It'll Be Quite A While. It's 4 Minutes Until 0330, 
Which Is An Hour After I Started Writing This, It's Not
A Bad Amount For An Hour, Don't Ya Think So? Well, Here
I Am Practically Talking To Myself, Which Mean I Should
Be Going To Bed Soon.

Hope Lifes Been Good To You And Keep Doin' What You
Doin'  -Nite . . . . . 



3/21/05 @ 1203

Well Well Well, I Guess You Read This Sooner Than I
Thought.

Guess What I Just Found Out??? Mimi Said You Called Her
To Stop Her From What You Thought Was Her Getting Back
With Me And You Told Her That I And What She Refers To
"Profess" My Love For You On This Page.
First I Thought You Knew Me Better Than That To Get
Back With Her. Second, What Kind Of Shit Would That Be
For Her To Jump Back And Forth Between Guys, I Would
Not Let That Shit Happen.

Before Anything Else, Since Mimi Knows About This Page,
I Assume Quan Does Too And I Don't Care, There's
Nothing I Can Do About It.

I Don't Know How You Took The Last Entry, Maybe You
Took It As That I Still Like You Or Maybe You Didn't,
But Let Me Explain It A Little More And Hopefully
Better.

The Reasons I Felt For You The Way I Did Is For A
Number Of Reasons And I Should Not Have Felt That Way.
One Reason Is That I Did Like You As A Friend. Another
Is That What Happen With Things Between Mimi And I, I
Felt Vulnerable And Desperate For Someone To Be There
For Me And Of Course That Was You. Pretty Much It Was
A Combination Of You Being There At The Right Time For
Me While I Going Through Things. It Was A Phase When I
Should Be Thanking You Instead Of Liking You. Things
Just Got Carried Away And I Realize That Now. It Was A
Tough Time For Me To Go Through.

I Love You As A Very Dear Friend, But Don't Get Me
Wrong, It Will Never More Than That And I Will Never
Want Or Will Pass That Line With You. I Would Like To
Be Your Friend If Ever The Opportunity That I Don't
Deserve Comes Up.

I Hope That Clear Things Up A Little, If Not Here's A
Blunt Way: I'm Over You And Just Want To Be Your Friend
If That's Possible.


Side Note: I Like Your Page Dedication To Quan. . . . .





03/22/05 @2352

Alrighty, Here We Go Again. I Guess My Last Entry Did
Not Go Too Well And I Probably Know Why. That Reason Is
Because I Just Found Out About Mimi Knowing Everything
Then Things Started To Unravel And I Starting Writing
Without Really Thinking Straight.

Now That I Had A Day To Think Over Everything On My Own
I Hopefully Can Explain Things Clearer, So Here I Go.

During The Time You Were Talking To Me, I Did Develop
True Genuine Feelings For You When I Should Not Have,
But I Cannot Control How I Feel. Now I Realize That And
That You Were There For Me As A Friend And I Should
Have Took It That Way. It Is Not Right For Me To Have
Any Of Those Feelings Toward You. I Should Have
Feelings For You As A Friend Which I Do Now, I Great
Friend Feeling. You Were A Great Friend To Me And All
I Want Is To Be The Same To You. I'm Sorry If I Hurt
You In Anyway And Probably A Way To Be A Great Friend
To You Is Not Being Your Friend At All.

And Congrats On Your Promotion. . . . .