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Sorry For The Late Posting. I Was Very Lazy Yesterday
That I Did Not Even Go To School. I Woke Up At 8am To
Tell Tram Not To Pick Me Up Because I Was Supposed To
Do My Paper For My 1:30pm Class Before My 12pm Class.
I Ended Up Going Back To Sleep Until 10am When I Woke
Up And Did Nothing. Tram Called Me @ 11:30am To See If
I Was Going To School And How Because If I Drove, I
Would Have No Permit To Park And Could Not Ride My
Motorcycle Because Of My Hurt Risk. I Decided Not Even
Going To School Because I Was Just Out Of It And Lazy.
Therefore, We Ended Up Going To Lunch With Some
Friends Until 3pm. When I Got Home So Did, My Mom 15
Minutes Later So We Went To The Hospital To Get Me
Checked Out. Then $30 And 1 ½ Hours Later All I Got
Was X-Rays And A Splint That I Really Did Not Need.
With The Splint On, I Could Not Really Type All That
Good So That Is Why I Did Not Post Anything Up Last
Night.


12/6/04 – Day 6

@1730
On My Way Home From The Hospital, It Felt Like I Was
Coming From A Long Days Work. Most People Come Home To
Their BF/GF, Husband/Wife, Or Family, But I Was Coming
Home To An Empty Lonely Room. Then I Thought About How
Much I Wanted You And How Bad I Wanted You To Be There
When I Got Home. I Knew You Were Not Going To Be There
When I Got Home But I Still Was Hoping That You Would
Be. I Came Home To A Dark Cold Empty Room, Which Just
Saddens Me Because I Could Have Been Very Happy, And
My Entire Fault That I Was Not.


Dido – White Flag
So What If I Fall Under This Song? Does It Make Me
Crazy? Love Makes You Do Crazy Things.
Now That I Think About It, “FOREVER” Is A Long Time,
But Let Me Explain Before You Start Thinking Things.
No One Can Predict The Future Especially The Long-Term
Future And That Makes Me No Different. I Do Not Know
How I Am Going To Feel In The Future, But I Know How I
Feel Now. I Feel That I Will Not Surrender And Give
Up, But Will Wait “FOREVER” For You And That Has To
Mean Something, More Than, If I Did Not Feel That Way
Even Though I Did Not Follow Through With “FOREVER”.
Thus, You Are Right And We Have To Put It In
Perspective Therefore If It Goes On For A Year That
Would Show A Lot From Me And Even More If It Goes
Beyond That. That Does Not Mean I Am Going For One
Year And Stopping. I Am Going As Long As My Heart
Takes Me, So I Will Not Force Myself To Like You Or
Not Like You, I Am Not Going To Lie To Myself About
How I Feel About You. If It Is There Then It Is There,
If Not Then It Is Not.


12/07/04 – Day 7

@1000
What A Surprising And Delightful Phone Call I Got From
You. I Wanted So Bad To Have The Call Last Longer, But
I Will Take Anything I Can Get.


George Michael – Last Christmas


THAT'S ALL FOR NOW, I HAVE MORE BUT I FELL ASLEEP
I'M SO SO SO TIRED. Have A GOOD DAY


George Michael – Last Christmas

I Listened To The Song You Told Me Too. It Was Wham!  -
Last Christmas On The Radio, But Downloaded The George
Michael Version Which Has Couple Of Extra Words At The
End Of The Song. As I Listened To The Song And Reading
Along With The Lyrics It Gave Me Chills Throughout My
Body With Little Tears Coming Out Of My Eyes. While I
Listened To The Song I Felt The Songs Fits You So Good
And I Started To Feel The Pain You Probably Were
Feeling When You Listened To The Song Then.

As You Already Know, I Started To Feel Bad Before
Going To My Night Class. I Started To Think Of The
Year I Had Which Was Not A Good One. I Thought About
All The Bad Stuff That Happened To Me, All The Very
Bad Stuff That I Did, And How My Life Was Not Going So
Well. Pretty Much, I Felt Shitty Going To Class.

@2000
As I Was Finishing Eating During My Break For My Class
And Was About To Get Up And Leave, As If I Was Not
Feeling Bad Enough, Last Christmas Starts To Play On
The Sound System In The Cafeteria. Even Though I Was
Already, Feeling Down I Stayed And Listen To The Whole
Song. At Least It Was Pain That I Deserve And Is Worth
It.

@2106
I Got Surprising Text From You. I Am Glad/Happy You
Are Able To Still Tell Me Important Stuff That Happens
To You

@2156:48
I Received A Surprising IM From You That Ended My Day
On A Very Happy Note. If I Knew You Were Going To Make
Me Happy At The End Of A Bad Day, I Would Grow Through
A Bad Day Every Day Just To Hear From You At The End
Of The Day.

@0027:19
After A Long, But Fast Two-Hour Conversation, I Feel
All Excite Inside That I Got The Chance To Talk To You
For That Long And Was Able To Go To Bed Happy And
Sleep With Ease.


12/08/04 - Day 8

Today Was Another Lazy Day For Me. My Dad Woke Me Up @
8am To Go To Work To Fix The Computers There. I Went
There, “Fixed” Them In Like 10 Minutes, And Went Home
To Wait From Tram To Pick Me Up For School. Tram Came
And Picked Me Up And While Driving Me To School I Told
Her That I Was Not In The Mood To Go To School And
Suggest We Go Eat Then Shopping. She Said Only If I
Decided On A Place To Eat And Where To Shop That She
Would Go And As She Was Asking That We Were About To
Pass My Work And I Remember Coming Home Earlier That
Morning That There Was A Catering Food By There. I
Told Her To Turn And The Catering Van Was Still There
And Got Breakfast Burritos Because I Was Craving It.
We Parked At Costco To Eat Because I Had To Hide From
My Work Place In Case Anyone Sees Me. When We Were
Done Eating, We Remembered Minh Was Not Working That
Day And Was Somewhat Sick. We Decided To Get Him A
Breakfast Burrito Too, But The Catering Van Was Gone
And Heading Toward Tenth Street Because I Knew There
Would Be One There And Even Before We Turn On To Tenth
There Was One On The Corner. We Got Him A Breakfast
Burrito And Went To His House In Morgan Hill And
Chilled There For A Bit. We Decided To Go Snowboard
Rack Shopping Since We Were Going Snowboarding That
Weekend. We Met At My House So I Can Drive (Tram Lost
Her License & Minh Has A Two-Seater S2000) And As We
Leave My House We Call Rowena To See If She Wanted To
Go And She Happened To Be At Osh Then She Went To Drop
Her Car At My House. Then We All Headed To Tri City
Sports Goods, Rei (Winter Sports Store), Fry’s
Electronics, Mel Cotton’s (Winter Sports Store), Petco
Foods (A Warehouse For Retailers), And Finally Sport
Mart. Since I Was Driving, I Decided To Take Snell
Back To My House Because I Wanted To See The Area
Where You Lived (Not To Be A Stalker Or Anything)

@1600
As I Was Driving Pass Chynoweth Ave, The Street Where
You Said You Lived I Thought That If We Were Together
Or Even “Friends” I Wanted To Pay You A Surprise Visit
If You Were Home And Leave You Some Kind Of Surprise
If You Were Not. Then I Started To Think About The
Babyface Song, What If, And Thought Many What Ifs
Between Us. Then I Wanted You So Bad To Be Mine.

When I Got Back To My House Everyone Went Their
Separate Ways, Minh Going To A Friend’s House To
Install His Spark Plugs, Tram Going To School, And
Rowena Going Where Ever. After Being Home For Ten
Minutes, Minh Called Me To Install His Spark Plug
Because His Friend Was Not Home Then Tram Calls Me
Couple Of Minutes Later Telling That She Was At Home
And Was Not Going To School. I Install Minh’s Spark
Plugs And We Both Buy Taco Bell To Eat At Tram’s House
And We Chill There Until 6:15pm When Minh Drive Me To
My Night Class.

@2000
With My Class Ending Early, This Night I Wait For Tram
To Pick Me Up Because Minh Dropped Me Off And He Went
Home. As I Waited, I Wanted To Call You To Pick Me Up
Because I Feel Like You Are The Friend That I Can
Always Come To No Matter What. In Addition, After The
Night Before When We Had A Pleasant Talk, I Was
Missing You And I Wanted You To Pick Me Up And Take Me
Home With You.