A SPECIAL NOTE FROM MY BURTY! THANK YOU SO MUCH!
Dear Brandie
You are a lovely young women who has to find out what you really want to do
and not what others want you to be or do.
Your mind is not clear, you have to rely on the people that you can trust
and not those who want to use you.
You are a young women that has a heart, a soul, a mind and wants to be her
own person(boss).
It is hard for you now because of what your X boyfriend did to you, he was
using you and making you into something that he wanted not what you wanted,
it was good for him and not you (it made you feel very low ) he probably
used everyone for his own purpose..
Your friend Tiffany can help you at that given time, your brother maybe can
help also,
and I will try as best as I can to help my friend.
Brandie you have to start thinking of what Brandie truly wants for her self
and not what others want from her, somewhat you want just don't work out that
way.
These are little detours on life's highway, but you have to go on, there is so
much to get out of life and so little time to do it in, you have to enjoy
every day that you have to live and make it meaningful.
Brandie we don't know when we will be called by GOD to leave this earth it
can be now or later only GOD knows how much time we have to live so you must use
your time wisely, be Happy, love someone and have a family if you want to,
live your life the way you want to.
Please stop running yourself down it is not good for you or wanting to die
when your dead it is to late to be your own person.
You have to live with what has happened to you now and later, you will
remember the bad and the good times the people you met, the close friends you
have made, in your memories they will live because they meant a lot to you.
Sometimes your memories will make you cry it means that you have feelings and
some memories will mean a lot to you because they were good times.
You have friends and a family that care what happens to you so lean on them
for support, take an interest in what your Mom and Dad do, you may pick up
some good ideas on life. Make every moment of your time worth while don't
waste your time on nothing, help others, go out with Tiffany make new friends
who have a better out look on life. Yes, I want to hold you in my arms and
make all the bad hurts go away but I cant, we are to far away, maybe one day
I will have the pleasure of seeing you, if not I have you in my thoughts and
deeply imbedded in my mind I am very happy to call you my friend.
Brandie you are a very warm and caring person with a lot of feelings it shows
in your web site, be yourself when you write... this is for your own
gratification and if they get the feeling great if not to bad for them.
Brandie don't even think or have an idea of dying now, I don't want to lose
my friend Brandie..... I am here, I do care about you if I didn't you
would not get this little note.
I LOVE YOU....Burty
No this is not the end....No finalle
Hi Tiff
I opened my mail and saw your message and was afraid to open it, but I did
When I read what happened to my Friend Bran It brought tears to my eyes and a
feeling of being deeply hurt, I asked our GOD to help her, to heal her
because she has so much to give to others in her writings and I know also
the way she would treat people she meets. I am at my keyboard filling up
with tears for her as you and her family are because we cant do anything for
her it is in GOD's hands we have to pray to HIM for help for HE is our
FATHER, HE wants the best for us we are in HIS hands.
We should also pray for Eric's family also for their loss.
A lot of people are hurting for what has happened to our BRANDIE.
I am to hurt to go on writing now but will do so later, I thank you for
telling me, the only thing that I can do for Brandie is pray to GOD for help.
Thank you again and please let me known how Brandie is doing
and her family and you
May GOD watch over you in your time of need
A friend of Brandie's.......BURTY
A SPECIAL MESSAGE FROM JASON
Trust me Tiff,
I love her too...i'm flying to Europe on business on
monday...i'm meeting my sis in Paris...I will be gone
for about a few weeks...but i'll keep you and Brandie
in my thoughts...I miss you guys and take CARE OF HER
when she is awake and smiling...love...Jason
FROM JUSTIN'S FRIENDS.........
When I talked to her, she said it was from Eric threatening her family
I do have something to say to Brandie, tell her that even though Ryoke is almost dead, we know
he would want to tell her he does love her too, and he wishes she would have listened, you can
write in Ryoke loves her. She always tells us she loves him, and we know he feels the same.
Even if she was going to come down here and take him away.
BRANDIE ALL MY BEST....
Listen I am going to be back in LA early next week and would like to see you and Mel. Maybe we can set up a time to get
together. Seattle has been a fun city. I can't believe it about Brandie. The last time I had talked to her she told me that
she was through with Eric. What happened? I have been praying for her. Please drop me a note telling me about her
progress. Hopefully all is getting better. Eric is actually dead? Hard to believe. I know his sister you know we have
been close in the past. I am sorry for all. My wishes to Brandie and my love!
.........hoping Bran is improving, Alicia
LK wrote me a note and I answered it Brandie..So told him what had all happened. I know he will write you back or me.
I fractured my shoulder in two places and have not been on. Tell me more about Brandie.
LK...........
OF ALL THE NOTES AND WISHES THAT I GOT THIS ONE IS SO SPECIAL AND I SOMEHOW JUST KNEW SHOEB WAS RIGHT
From my good friend Shoeb in Saudia Arabia
I was shocked!
It was a jerk, knowing bout what happned with you,
was a jolt... am very sorry for what happned, but its
what we live for today, we have today with us to be
with, an you have a very bright tomorrow, forget bout
what happned, its very difficult but, I KNOW, you are
my buddy, very strong, very sensible I know you can
get over with it, am your buddy always,
anyways....!!!hahaha, hey cheerup baby, he's a piece
of rotten shit who has done that to you, am sorry for
that language, but I didnt wanna stop saying that to
him.
If I would have been there I would have huged you on
your hospital bed, by bowing down to you, an a kiss on
your forehead and a kiss on your cheek, greeting you
with get well fresh flowers every morning... haa I
know I couldnt do that.
Hey you girl, if you can write all what happned, just
for the sake of finishing once for all, I mean I want
everything should come out of your mind an heart, so
that you start a "BRAN" new day, you know I'm a good
listner, an loves to read best friends mails, an you
know you are one of my best buddy. I want to know
all, what made that happned. mail me at your ease.
After that start a BRAN new day, see your name has
that new, fresh contents, you are as fresh as an early
morning dew, keep up the good health, please take care
of your health, I want you to see smiling always, I
want you to keep fit always
Bye for the moment,
Shoeb
PRAYING FOR YOUR GOOD HEALTH
THERE IS SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME!
HIS NAME IS KEVIN
I have kept him hidden away you see,
No one knew but he and me!
The feelings inside they make me glad,
< Kev has given so much when I was sad!
Now you all will know that he is so rare,
A guy I simply do not wish to share!
My heart it pounds as I feel him near,
Oh my dearest Kev we have no more fear!
Our feelings we can but let them roam,
Allowing them in our hearts a home!
They say that love comes in many ways,
Now I have mine this very day!
Kevin I watched as we grew,
Our relationship has lead us through!
Please enter into my garden gate,
It is as if my love simply will not wait!
.......My darling Kev you are in my very soul, Brandie
A POEM BY MY FREIND JERRY WOLF
In the moonlight, I swam with a dolphin.
Naked, unashamed, pounding through the surf,
feeling her energy in the wind and in the waves around us.
Graceful and splendid. In her element.
I have soared with a hawk.
In the high places we have circled together,
watching the world roll out before us,
conscious of the beauty of our dance.
I have lain down with a tiger.
A little afraid of her strength,
held by the intensity of her presence.
Surrendering to the power of her passion.
I have walked the wood with a doe,
calm and lovely, with eyes as gentle as the mist,
drifting through the oaks in the early morning.
Peaceful, trusting, vulnerable.
I have loved a woman,
with all the force of my being.
Wrapped in the tenderness of her embrace, laughing, crying,
sharing the infinite joy and sorrow of being.
SECRET GARDEN CAST PHOTO
From my friend Jerry Wolf, " I told you I was doing Secret Garden. Here's a cast photo. I'm the tall one in
the middle in the white shirt and black vest. The two young men above me are my sons, Sean 17 and Kevin 14."
Brandie.... I hope you're doing as well as possible after all the recent tragedy. Jerry
WE LOST THAT ONE!
SOME OF MY FRIENDS!
RICHARD PIRVARNIK
CHARLES YOZGOTT
Charles is in the white shirt.
THE VIOLET....author unknown
Very dark the autumn sky,
Dark the clouds that hurried by;
Very rough the autumn breeze
Shouting rudely to the trees.
Listening, frightened, pale, and cold,
Through the withered leaves and mould
Peered a violet all in dread—
“Where, oh, where is spring?” she said.
Sighed the trees, “Poor little thing!
She may call in vain for spring.”
And the grasses whispered low,
“We must never let her know.”
“What ’s this whispering?” roared the breeze;
“Hush! a violet,” sobbed the trees,
“Thinks it ’s spring,—poor child, we fear
She will die if she should hear!”
Softly stole the wind away,
Tenderly he murmured, “Stay!”
To a late thrush on the wing,
“Stay with her one day and sing!”
Sang the thrush so sweet and clear
That the sun came out to hear,
And, in answer to her song,
Beamed on violet all day long;
And the last leaves here and there
Fluttered with a spring-like air.
Then the violet raised her head,—
“Spring has come at last!” she said.
Happy dreams had violet
All that night—but happier yet,
When the dawn came dark with snow,
Violet never woke to know.
SOME SPECIAL E-MAILS FROM MY FRIEND MARK FULLER!
Brandie
From: Mark Fuller
Hey Brandie!
How are you and how are things in school?
Remember me? Mark, the musician hand reader in LA?
Just wondered how you were doing.
Lemme know,ok? .......Mark
From: "Sinful Barbie"
Date: 2002/02/12 Tue PM 09:26:19 CST
To: mark.fuller@verizon.net
Subject: Re: hey you
Hi Mark...am glad u wrote, Brandie
Heya B, you never did let me know how you were doing at the east coast
school.
You were so worried when you left and I still wonder if you're happy now.
Think of you alot and hope it's all good.
Lemme know when you get a minute and I send good vibes and peace.....Mark
From: "Sinful Barbie"
Date: 2002/03/02 Sat PM 01:26:45 CST
To: res0oo31@verizon.net
Hi Mark, well since I don't have any choice in the matter I guess its ok.
Anyway have been ok...hope u r 2. Be good Mark. ok, Brandie
Subject re. hey you
From. Mark Fuller
Wow. Well,at least it seems you're making the best of it.
I hope some good friends are emerging for you and the education part of it is
valuable.
I'm in San Francisco and getting ready to move here for good from LA.
I kind of miss LA but this place has better energy for me I think.
Anyway, I hope even under the circumstances you're ok and getting some good from
it all and that you've found some friends to be a bit wild with.
I always have this impression that to be a bit off center is a harder thing to
manage in that part of the world as opposed to LA where being a "freak" for lack
of a better word is pretty easy since there's alot of folks who understand you
can be odd but not at the expense of being a good person.
I know you're one of those kinds of people.A bit of an adventurous person, into
lots of cool odd stuff but still pretty grounded.
I hope it's working in that regard and hey I kind of miss talking to you online.
anyway, Thinking of you and sending good vibes.
take care B and stay in touch if you can.
I wish I would've read your hand before you left.....anyway,..... see ya soon I hope, Mark
BRANDIE'S FAVORITES!
- Poetry and Writings
- Art
- Theatre
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DREAM WITH ME!
VICTORIAN LOVES!
LOVES SWEETEST ROSE!
TEA TIME!
BLINDED DOUBTS-LOVE!
DEDICATED TO MY RYAN!
ART-A GIFT FROM THE SOUL!
TRUTH-A NEW PAGE
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