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"NOW I CAN'T SMILE."
Added another one...
Sincerely,
"It's like it's the mist is what's pretty, y'know? All gold and silver..."
"Mm-hm."
"Too bad it can't stay like that all the time.",
"Nothin' gold can stay."
-overheard
"Brilliance"
The lightless soul,
The souless love,
The loveless flight,
The flightless dove.
There's a brilliance you're missing and it's somewhere in you
Beneath your eyes, behind your flaws, and buried in truth.
The sway in the way your legs saunter and say
You're nature in soliloquy, you're still so afraid.
Through a window you can see her hiding under sheets
As she cries watching you helpless, hypersensual in pleads
When scars are sentiments in shapes of boys and history
The way you never name your poems, they're all still trapped in me;
My lightless soul,
Your souless love,
Our loveless flight,
The flightless dove.
I would see your curves inside your hands, caressing my ear
You're my butterfly that flies in a simple line, away from fear
There's more to you than just a newborn glance and a precocious smile
Past all that, your seductive tongue, and fingers in gentle style.
There's a rhythm in your heart left by me, and it sure won't die
What you have is visible to only me and to you through my eyes
I feel it through your benevolent kisses when you're inside-out
When your supple skin yielded compassion for only me to find out.
My lightless soul,
Your souless love,
Our loveless flight,
The flightless dove.
"How Hard We Try"
So little seems to matter now
Since you're no longer around,
But I'm sure you've heard that all before
As you laughed walking out that door.
It's the gaps in between that hurt,
When nothing to do but think of you, girl.
When this empty house lacks your scent,
And all the times you shouldn't have wept.
I want to lock my doors for a reason again, so,
And once more to see your car out my window.
I don't cry myself to sleep, I tell you.
I'm thinking too much of you to do that to you.
Who says I can't need you, when you said the same?
Never a day without love, have you been making this a game?
"I and you both know you'd be lying to yourself
If you think you'd be happy with someone else."
(Someone once told me...)
I'm using both hands now, walking on both legs,
Learning to breathe then crawl, trying not to beg.
But it's hard when you're doing this all for no one,
And your no one is doing it all without you to run...
Away from you is what she needs to do.
But that's all right 'cause you need to too.
But this bird I've nursed in my hands has flown away
With no idea if it wants to come back to stay.
That path we ran has split again, and it's time sadly
For us to wait to meet up later and I to ignore pain so badly.
And this bird you cannot change...
Lord knows...I can change.
"Everlong"
Hello,
I've waited here for you,
Everlong.
Tonight,
I throw myself into
And out of the red, out of her head she sang.
Come down,
And waste away with me,
Down with me.
Slow how,
You wanted it to be,
I'm over my head, out of her head she sang...
And I wonder
When I sing along with you:
If everything could ever feel this real forever,
If anything could ever be this good again.
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang...
Breathe out,
So I can breathe you in,
Hold you in.
And now,
I know you've always been
Out of your head, out of my head I sang
And I wonder
When I sing along with you:
If everything could ever feel this real forever,
If anything could ever be this good again.
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang...
And I wonder:
If everything could ever feel this real forever,
If anything could ever be this good again.
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when.
I can recall only this one time,
This kind of control a girl had on my mind.
I've fallen deep,
I cant get out.
I've never acted this way before...
I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you.
Write a song a day,
But she won't like it anyway.
Back to the drawing board
With the words you've heard a million times before.
Feelin alone and she's on my mind.
Try to erase all the pain from that time.
She's breakin up,
And I'm breaking down.
Now Im headed out of this f*cked up town...
I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you.
Write a song a day,
But the band won't like it anyway.
Back to the drawing board
With the words you've heard a million times before.
(In your head.)
So love me,
So I can be myself again.
Now hate me,
So things seem normal in my head.
I'm tryin'
Ao break away this ball and chain.
So hate me,
So things seem normal in my head,
Things seem normal in my head.
I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you.
Write a song a day,
But the band won't like it anyway.
Back to the drawing board
With the words you've heard a million times before.
(In your head
I am dead.)
It's been awhile
And it couldn't be any worse,
making my heart, an empty space
It's been awhile, since I've felt your breath,
kissed your face
It's been awhile
and this place seems desolate
In awhile
your heart will surely forget
In awhile
nothing looks the same
In awhile
you'll forget my name
In awhile
the sun will look like rain
In awhile
you'll surely forget
In awhile
I've become desolate
In awhile
Here we are, dear old friend.
You and I, drunk again,
Laughs have been had, tears have been shared,
Maybe the whiskey's gone to my head.
But if I were gay, I'd give you my heart,
And if I were gay, you'd be my work of art.
And if I were gay, we would swim in romance,
But I'm not gay, so get your hand out of my pants.
It's not that I don't care - I do;
I just don't see myself in you.
Another time, another scene,
I'd be right behind you, if you know what I mean!
But if I were gay, I'd give you my soul.
And if I were gay, I'd give you my...whole (being).
And if I were gay, we would tear down the walls,
But I'm not gay, so won't you stop cupping my...hands.
We've never hugged, we've never kissed,
I've never been intimate with your fist.
But you have opened up new doors.
Get over here and drop.....your....drawers. =)
A girl's once bright candle brings her a heavy heart.
I nearly followed your checkered past of broken shards.
And you can't remember how the world went
'Cause your kingdom was severed in two.
But I was, too.
All those striplings that don't deserve you.
What's the lie you take home now and then?
Did your realm of warmth have to leave you
And consume the last of the virtue?
I'll never forget you.
Falling down, a life of purity.
And the stars kiss your lips as I would have.
Walking angels offer their security.
Or can I take your heart by your hand?
I know you left your shame to drown.
But your honor made you that shining crown.
And no one can break the heart of sound
That fell into a void of swallowed love.
Will I ever live you down?
Falling down, a life of purity.
And the stars kiss your lips as I would have.
Walking angels offer their security.
Or have you departed again?
And it always rains on the loser's day
With your standing afterglow.
Falling down, a life of purity.
And the stars kiss your lips as I would have.
Walking angels offer their security.
But there's always another man.
And I'll guide your steps back home...
(So long as you tell me)
Someone please tell me...
Why so long
Can take
Oh so long to say.
There was a time when I'd make the world for you
But that time has gone and passed up all but a few
The happy endings we all make in our heads seem real
That is until you open your eyes, stick out your hands and feel
The world you have in front of you and watch it spin around
And around and around and around until you've found
The nice, the mean, the enticed, the serene
And everything not there in between.
Once in a while, you'll see a true love with romances
But the story behind those are a string of last chances
Nothing last forever and the only thing that's sure in me
Is that I know my life is full of uncertainties.
You can be there, standing, smiling, laughing there on top of a cloud
Oh, but don't you blink 'cause if you do you'll wake up on the ground.
Take no chances, stop your messin', stop mind dances, listen to this lesson,
Enter in this world, keep your head on straight, then find a place to rest in.
Living like a child, keeping visions that are wild
Like happiness in denial, a fun that'll never die.
But never lie, keep those in files, all in piles,
Stick the truth, slick in your style, cool headed and mild.
The hate they slide, ain't right, but we all give in to guile,
The darker it tries, the brighter I shine in time for miles.
The world can get you riled, but keep on giving that smile,
'Cause one of these days child, it'll be worthwhile.
This is not a poem
This is not a song
This is all the pain
That's been here all along.
This is about her
And all the ways she moves.
This is about the way things are
When all the good guys lose.
A roundabout fight
In a broken down mind
Can turn things into rock;
Emotions impossible to find.
I am easy with the damage,
The way it feels inside.
Can't help but take my rage
And push it out and slide.
No one's fair to anyone
Anymore, anymore.
The battle that's been ignored
Has turned into a war.
This is not a poem,
This is not a song,
This is about the hell
That only I see is wrong.
A livid soul,
A tepid mind,
Are only things a fool
Can simply leave behind.
I am innocent in my guilt
And I'm alone in my crowd.
I'm trapped in my freedom
And silence makes me loud.
I doubt in my prayers,
A walking contradiction.
A special with no special:
A simple girl addiction.
To end this rant
I will confess to all
That I cannot please everyone,
But I tried my best and saw:
That this is not a poem,
This is not a song.
This is simply the truth
Of the good times all long gone.
I never said a thing to hurt you.
It's what I didn't say that made you cry.
And in all honesty,
I never would've deserted you.
I never dreamt that you would say goodbye.
I'll close my eyes,
Tell another lie,
Think of yesterday,
Think of everything you said:
There's nothing left to say.
It's just another day without you here.
And it seems a long long time
Since you went away, and I fear
I'll dream another dream about you dear.
I'm not afraid to close my eyes.
I'll close my eyes,
Tell another lie,
Think of yesterday,
Think of everything you said:
There's nothing left to say.
I'll do another dream of you...
That's all that I can do...
I'll dream another dream today...
And I'll dream my life away!
I'll close my eyes,
(So I don't have to see you leave)
Tell another lie,
(Anything to keep you here)
Think of yesterday,
Think of everything you said:
There's nothing left to say.
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