I was raised in violence and married an abusive man in 1976. After being in bitterness and un forgiveness for most of my life. I began to seek God because I was pregnant. I wanted to give my baby the truth and was very depressed because I did not know truth.
While contemplating suicide I was angry and shook my fist up to the ceiling and said "If you are real, do something, send someone to me to tell me the truth. I want some answers to tell my baby when it asks me, that I know without a doubt is the truth. In between were some very nasty cusswords of course. Then I demanded "and the person you send me has to tell me what I am saying to you right now and do what I am doing. " Which was shaking my fist up at God.
That was in January of 1978, I was in a lot of pain the whole pregnancy and it got worse closer to the birth of my baby. My baby was born in April and the pain continued. Dr's told me they could find nothing wrong with me. I could barely stand up, the pain became unbearable.
When my baby was four months old a friend came to see me which was a miracle. My husband put chains on my gate and a lock. The day he rushed out of the house late for work he forgot to put the chains on. She appeared at my front door and I asked her how she got in the yard. She said I opened the gate and climbed the stairs. I said how did you get passed the chains and the lock, she said what lock?
She said today you must be saved, the Lord told me today you must be saved and I cannot leave unless I know you are for sure. I hadn't seen my friend Kathy in a couple of years, we were always partying together until I got married. She looked different, happy and peaceful. I asked her if she was on drugs and she laughed. She told me that the Lord sent her and she had to obey. This was at the end of August 1978.
I was upset because I didn't like Christians or religious people. I asked her to leave and she said no way. I must obey the Lord, she began to turn on the radio to get Christian music and the new radio just gave static. She turned on the TV to get TBN where she was a TBN counselor, a new television and all we got was snow. I said that is so strange, why is this happening, she said satan does not want you to know the truth.
I told her to leave again and that my husband would get angry that she came. She said no and plopped down and the couch and crossed her arms. Not till you are saved she said. I was very upset and told her you have to leave right now. She was quiet and closed her eyes and was ignoring me (she was praying). Then she opened her eyes and said "I see you sitting on your bed and you have your hand raised in a fist shaking it at the Lord telling him the person who He sends to you has to tell you what you were saying and doing."
I got scared and remembered that day. I said "Oh my God that is exactly what I said." So she had my full attention, but still not trusting her I asked what do you want me to do. She said just say a little prayer with me and I will leave. I laughed and told her I want to know the words first so she handed me her bible and on the inside of the cover was the sinners prayer. I laughed and said is this all, this is harmless. Okay I'll say it so I repeated after her and felt absolutely nothing. She sat back and smiled and said you have been filled with the Holy Spirit and I started laughing hysterically at her. My tears shot out of my eyes at her and I got scared.
She left and said The Holy Spirit will teach you, I will mail you a bible and you read it everyday. I said No I don't want any Jehovah Witness stuff. She laughed and said my job is done. I received the new testament two weeks later and didn't want to read it. The day I picked it up I could not put it down, I wore out the paper back bible and my husband threw his King James Bible at me that was given to him by his aunt years ago it was still brand new. He had never opened it.
I read and read all night long because the pain was so bad I could not sleep at all. In early October of 1978 I heard a man's voice speak to me and tell me I had cancer. I thought I had lost my mind from lack of sleep. Went to the Dr and they found nothing. The Lord told me go back to the Dr you have cancer. I thought I was crazy but kept going when the voice told me to. On the fourth visit they found the cancer but now it was too late they told me. My husband and family thought I was lying when I told them they found the cancer. I was so happy not to be crazy.
Now it was the end of Nov 1978 and I had emergency surgery to remove my uterus. I would have blood transfusions waiting and would begin chemo as soon as I could. When I arrived on Sunday night for surgery for Monday morning the Lord spoke to me again and told me to forgive a ex boyfriend I hated, I argued with the Lord and He won. I did what he instructed me to do which was to write a letter and mail it now. He provided everything in a drawer next to the hospital bed. He gave me Mark Chapter 11 and promised me that He would give me faith without doubt if I obeyed Him.
I thought then I can ask Him to heal me and He would. So I tucked my bible under my pillow like some kind of magic was going to happen and next thing I woke up and they had done the surgery. I was very upset with God, and told Him what happened? I felt great right after the surgery was totally pain free and wanted to go home. the Dr said no because I was going to hemmorage. I never bled a drop of blood was released after a day in the hospital and went home to my baby. There is so much more that happened in between, that is another story.
In January of 1979 I wanted my husband to believe, and asked him what would it take for him to believe that God was real. He said you can't have a son, that's what I always wanted. I read to him Mark chapter 11 and told him God told me I can ask for anything if I believed and had no doubt. I will ask Him for a new uterus so I can give you a son. He mocked me and told me I had lost my mind. I reminded him, he said that before and I did have cancer.
In February of 1979 I went for my last check up and the little female resident ran out and brought back 7 more doctors who all examined me and then shoved papers in my face to sign. I refused and asked what is going on here. Did you find more cancer? She said your Dr will be here he needs to tell you something. He told me that I had grown a brand new uterus and that there was no record of this ever happening in medical history. I was so happy I told him that God is real and He does hear me when I talk to Him. I told the Dr I am going to have a son.
I went home and told my husband and of course everyone thought I was crazy again, I confessed my son to everyone who would listen and on January 30 1981 my son Josiah was born, following year my daughter was born. So much much more to the story.
So it will be 30 years this August since I got saved and the miracles began and have not stopped. God saved our lives and took me and my children away from that violent man. He remarried and I have been alone for 20 years walking with my Lord as my husband. Praise be to Him who keeps His Word and nothing is impossible for Him. I give Him Glory and Praise, my Master and King.
I know it is so long but the story goes on and on, so many miracles along the way. I have shared with many who have degrees from seminaries, pastors, missionaries, and they tell me my degree is directly from the HOLY SPIRIT. He is my God and My Lord forever, nothing can compare to His great love for us.
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