do you remember that? I could really feel it today with your hands around my throat!
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I do love you and I'm sorry just sorry I'm such a bad person..
love Robbie"
YOU'RE NOT A BAD PERSON ROBBIE YOU JUST HAVE SOME PROBLEMS YOU NEED TO WORK ON AND IF YOU WANT TO DO NETHING FOR ME DON'T APPOLOGIZE STOP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING THE DRUGS AND DRINK ARE ONLY HURTING WHO YOU ARE AND WHO YOU COULD BE TRUST ME I KNOW IF YOU WANT TO BE CLEAN AND STOP EVERYTHING THEN I WILL BE THERE TO HELP YOU BUT I KNOW THAT HALF OF WHAT HAPPENED TODAY IS BECAUSE OF YOUR FRUSTRATIONS WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND I'VE BEEN THROUGHT THAT WAY TOO MANY TIMES AND WOULD BE MORE THEN HAPPY TO HELP YOU THROUGH THAT AS I ALREADY TRIED TO DO TODAY! BUT IT ALSO HAS TO DO WITH HOW U HAVE BEEN ACTING FROM UR PERSCRIPTION DRUG ADDICTION! I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES AND YOUR ACTIONS AND I HAVE BEEN SOO WORRIED ABOUT YOU FOR THE LAST WEEK ITS NOT FUNNY AND IT DRIVES ME NUTS THAT NOONE ELSE CAN SEE IF EXCEPT FOR YOU AND WHEN YOU REACHED OUT FOR MY HELP I DIDN'T GO 100% OF THE WAY I SHOULDN'T HAVE LET YOU HAVE THEM BACK AND ONLY ME AND YOU KNOW IT. i THINK MOM IS JUST TO NIEVE AND SHE THINKS YOU'RE PLAYING AND YOU ARE SMART ENOUGHT TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE THAT TOO HER BUT IT IS SOOOO OBVIOUSE THAT YOU AREN'T PLAYING. YOU GET SOOO ANGRY AND YOU NEED HELP ROB. I LOVE YOU TO DEATH BUT I REALIZED TODAY WHILE YOU HAD YOUR HANDS AROUND MY THROAT THAT ONLY YOU CAN HELP YOURSELF NOW BECAUSE YOU ATTACKED THE ONE PERSON WHO REALLY CARES AND YOU HURT ME ON A LEVEL THAT I HOPED I'D NEVER FEEL AGAIN. THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME U'VE HURT ME LIKE THIS BUT BEFORE WHEN U HELD A KNIFE TO MY THROAT IN THE BATHROOM IT WAS OUT OF STUPIDITY AND YOUR LACK OF CONTROL OVER ANGER TODAY IT WAS SOMETHING ELSE AS I'VE ALREADY SAID. AFTERWARDS WHEN I CAME BACK INTO MY ROOM MY HEAD WAS RACING AT A MILE A MINUTE AND I WAS SO READY TO GIVE UP ON YOU I THOUGHT THIS IS THE LAST STRAW AND HE CAN GO FUCK HIMSELF BUT I KNOW IN MY HEART I CAN'T DO THAT TO YOU. YOU KNOW IF THAT WAS NEONE ELSE I WOULD HAVE BEAT THE SHIT OF OUT YOU ONCE I THROUGH YOU OFF AND ON TO THE FLOOR BUT YOUR MY BROTHER AND I LOVE SO I COULD DO IT. IM NOT LOOKING DOWN ON YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND IT NOW IN RETROSPECT ALL I ASK IS THAT YOU DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT NOW SO THAT IT DOESN'T HAPPEN AGAIN
