Don't ask me why I am updating the journal again. I keep telling myself that it is dumb to have a journal online where people see everything and you are totally self-conscious about what you write about whom. But today, I don't care.

I've been sick for two weeks straight. It is driving me insane. I have made an appointment to go and see a doctor tomorrow. I just want to stop coughing! That's all I want, nothing fantastic, nothing marvelous, just health for once in my friggin life! (told you it was making me nuts).

Well, it is October and All Hallow's Eve will be upon us soon. I am contemplating throwing a big old beach bash in which the participants would honor the dead, celebrate the new coming year and feast with each other. I think it could be fun. I also think, however, that most people are not into celebrating a witch holiday in the traditional witch sense. Additionally, many of my friends are devout christians and i don't suppose they would be interested in the slightest of being at a sabbat. *Blood Rose is pondering*...

I feel absolutely terrible about something: that wonderful girl, Anna, that I mentioned last journal update is no longer allowed to converse online. Her mother deleted her AIM program. I received a few emails from her but it seems that she either has not received my messages or is no longer permitted to speak with me. It is so heart breaking. I was really considering her a good friend. I don't even log onto AIM anymore. I miss Anna.

Personal life updates: Still no love, no earth-shaking events, still not published, still not happy with my job *yak* *yak* *yak*