Weekend Update:
Weds Night (not the weekend - oh well, getting close): Went to Kait's apartment and watched The Blair Witch Project on her TV routed through Kenneth's computer. My leg kinda hurt afterwards - 'cuz Kait got scared and grabbed my leg pretty hard a few times. After the movie, Scott kept rewinding and pausing the movie so that he could see what the writing on the walls of the scary house meant (wierd rune stuff). Kenneth made fun of him for it but Kait and I were totally getting into it. You know it's pathetic when you're looking over someone's shoulder and they go to a web page and you say "that one sucks" and they say "okay" and move on. *laugh* hehehehe - too much time on the net for me :)

Thursday Night: Went and saw Dan in Santa Cruz. We met at Taco Bell in Scotts Valley as is becoming almost ritual for us. I stepped out of my car and he came running, no bouncing, no bounding sounds right - over to me. He had the biggest smile on his face. It made me so super happy to see that. He gave me a big hug and rushed me into his car (normally I at least go into Taco Bell, find him and say hello to all the youth groupies). He asked what I wanted to do and I immediately said "let's go to Perg's". well, we drove off and went to Perg's. I love that coffee shop. when I say I want coffe shop ambiance, I should say I want Perg's ambiance. I really love it there. As we were walking up I saw J.J. McCabe sitting there. My first ever boyfriend. He looked so cool. He looked like part of the decor and he had so many cool people around him. I desperately wanted to say hello to him but then I realized how pathetic I looked in my baggy pants and my hotmail worldwide t-shirt on. I mean, maybe if the shirt said "I work for Microsoft and make tons of money, have a brighter future than you and will be able to afford really cool cars to make up for being a loser in a few years" - maybe then, i could have said hello. But you can't just walk up to your first boyfriend looking like an idiot and smiling and say hello and reminence over stuff you barely remember. So, I didn't say hello.
I got a White Choclate Mocha Chi (mmmmmmm) and Dan got a mocha. We sat outside and talked. I saw this cute little woman there and said to Dan "I wish I was skinny as her". You know what he said? He said "you're warmer at night than she is". *laugh* and I said "I bet she thinks she's fat." I thought about it longer and then said "I bet all skinny people think they're fat. That's probably why they're skinny - becasue they always think they're fat - whereas fat people realize they're fat when it is too late". We laughed about it but I still can't help feeling fat. I just see all these pictures of skinny pretty women all over the place in this society that I can't help feel like I'm the only woman who wears a size fourteen.
We then went to the car and he handed me my birthday card. I thought it was really sweet. I gave him a kiss for it. Well, while we were kissing I hear "Tatooine is sparsley populated..." and this Darth Maul voice just kept on going. I looked around me and couldn't see where it was coming from. I'm sure I had a funny look on my face 'cuz Dan was laughing his head off when he pulled out my birthday present - the coolest Star Wars toy ever. If you press a button, it starts talking and goes through this whole fighting movement thing. Then when it is done with that, if you move your hand in front of the motion detector it starts up a bunch of fighting motions (The "Jedi Mind Control" feature). It's really rad - not as cool as the life-size Darth Maul that sits in the office, but pretty rad all the same. I think the coolest part of getting that gift is that I had mentioned like a month ago that when Kaira and I went shopping we saw the coolest toy and Dan remembered that I said that! No guy has ever done that before. *sigh*
We then went and parked in Nicene Marks and spent some needed alone time. We had a long and heated conversation about science vs. religion. We are both so eager to be "right" that we argue tiny points of something that we agree on. *laugh* Kim must learn to relax and not take everything so seriously. Life can be easy. Then, we went and parked at a parking lot in Scotts Valley (a few hours in the woods and we were feeling nervous and jumpy). He put his arms around me and we fell asleep in an embrace. I didn't fall asleep until I heard him snoring (I never fall asleep until everyone else is asleep). I woke up to him saying that he thought we should go home and sleep where we were supposed to. It was sweet spending that time in his arms. Got home at 4am and went to sleep.

Friday Night: Went with Dan and Rudy to see "The Haunting". Classic Horror flick, totally scary. I hurt Dan's hand squeezing it so hard. hehehehe - that's what he gets for bringing me to a horror flick. Rudy went home to take care of Kaira who wasn't feeling well (she at too much garlic) and Dan and I went to Tiny's. Mmmmm Tiny's. I ate Papas Espanol....really good. The youth group Dan had ditched to go to the movies with Rudy and I (I think he ditched because Rudy is leaving soon for the Navy for a long time) - they were at Tiny's. It was interesting. Two of them just up and introduced themselves to me and just struck up a conversation. That was cool. Then, I saw Jason's buddy, Ryan there. We talked and it turned out he was with the Youth group. Well, he said I should go some time and I told Dan I wanted to go with him next week. It's going to be cool to hang with Ryan without Jason there. :)

Dan and I then went to the cliffs at 17th avenue and watched the waves crash against the cliff and the moon shine on the water. It was kind of hard to enjoy the view with Dan constantly groping at me. It seems to me that he is desperate for physical attention. And he wants things to work out perfectly with a woman so he can get married (like he thinks all men are supposed to do)that he is trying to rush things between us so that it will be the way he expects it to be. Anyways, sometimes it makes me incredibly uncomfortable but I am afraid to tell him that because I don't want him to feel rejected - I in no way reject him. After Dan got cold, we drove down to KSCO and parked behind the library next to it and sat in the back seat listening to Art Bell . It was kind of funny. We sat making out while the people on the radio were talking about crop circles. Went home and slept until now.