And now here it comes:
Nov. 30, 1997
There are so many reasons why I chose to marry my tv husband but the foremost reason is because I like his personality!!!!! I met him at one of my weekly Buddhist meeting's which attributed to us ever getting together and his being a cross-dresser was not an issue until "way,way" later as the relationship developed and blossomed. Since then, I've taken the time to understand "gender dysphoria",AND I have supported him in his "DESIRE" to dress-up as a woman and wanting to go out to night clubs. Although I didn't COMPLETELY accept it at first but as he recalls it IN HIS MIND,he "supposedly" told me at THE RIGHT TIME, a crucial point in the relationship,when it could have gone either way,meaning,I could have left without either one of us feeling hurt by it,NOT TRUE,because I tried it and found myself calling him up on the phone in the weee hours of the night.And so as I recall it,WHICH is the one that really counts,is that,we had "all ready" been seeing each other for quite a long time and had been comfortably and seriously attached to one another before he decided to lower the BOOM on me!!! AND by the way, I don't think tvism is a "BAD" thing. I just felt he should have told me a lot sooner than he did because I had already developed a STRONG emotional bond and CARED for him DEEPLY,and felt that I could not judge the situation objectively,and had harbored some resentment because of it,needless to say whenever things weren't working out in our everyday lives.I felt compelled to think that it could be because of his tvism and that if he had only told me about himself when I had asked him to,somehow,I thought I wouldn't have been in such a unique relationship,obviously not true,I might add. I just felt that I put myself on the line by being upfront about everything and had been COMPLETELY "open" and "honest" about myself and ASKED him to do me the same favor,which he DECLINED to COMMENT on,other than to say, WELL,there ISN'T much to tell, and let's just let our "FRIENDSHIP" develop NATURALLY,yeah,right!!!! not much to tell,blah,blah,blah,NATURALLY,phooey...!!!!! I felt let down of course and knew better than to anticipate a NOTHING!!! and posed the issue again and a couple of other times before deciding that there was "something" he DIDN'T want to tell me,so I remained CLUELESS!!! Until he felt READY to devulge the info. Needless to say that he always projected a VERY PLEASANT natured quality and treated me with the utmost respect and was easy to be around and always displayed patience and kindness towards me and others which I TRULY "appreciated" and "wished for" in a man,somehow it seemed "too" GOOD to be true!!! AND You know that "good old" saying, THAT if something sounds or looks too "good" to be true, then it probably is,and it WAS!!!!! I don't feel like he tricked me or anything like that but the only other awareness I had of cross-dressing was at Halloween or when I was in the city of Hollywood or better known as HOLLYWEIRD!!! At first,I thought it wouldn't be a PROBLEM but as time went on, I started to WONDER why he liked to dress-up and why he talked about having feelings of being "feminine" at "HEART".I wondered if given the opportunity to become a true-woman,POSSIBLY a transsexual, would he??? He said, that it would be,TOO RADICAL a change for him to UNDERGO and ACCEPT,and that he would rather STAY the way he is,a married HETEROSEXUAL. AND since he's such a SWEETHEART of guy,FUN-LOVING,HUMOROUS,extremely KIND-HEARTED and a GENTLE person,outweigh anything else and that is what ultimately "WON" me over!!!!! And not to mention that he's totally into fidelity which I admire and believe in,so how could I ever let him go or get away!!! INCIDENTLY,we dated for almost 3 years and have been married for over 6 years and now we have a wonderful little 2 year old BIG guy by the name of Maximillian or better known as "Emmster" by Daddy,short for our little monster!!!! Take Care, Love, Carla
P.S. Here's a GREAT reason why I CHOSE to marry my ONE AND ONLY tv!
E-mail me at carla2000@webtv.net
